We miss you so.|
Pepper was a rescue Miniature Schnauzer baby who found me when he was 18 months old. We were stationed in Japan and a week before had rescued his Beagle sister, Murphy (six months his elder). When I went to pick him up, he was standing on the landing of a stairwell at eye-level, our eyes met and it was love at first sight! He came dashing down the stairs straight into my arms and we were inseparable from that day forth! He and Murphy bonded instantly as well as did both with their Daddy, Steve, and over the next 11 years we traveled the world together. We lived in Hawaii, Alaska, Washington DC, Bogota, Colombia, Tegucigalpa, Honduras and finally retired back to Texas where I promised both babies they would never have to fly on an airplane again. He loved everyone but adored his Mama and was fiercely loyal to me. Although Pepper was definitely a lap-puppy and a housedog, he loved patroling his backyard several times a day just to keep the squirrels in line! His favorite game was chasing the red dot from the laser pointer around the room and the minute Steve would come home Pepe would run to the dining room, sit down and wait for Steve to get out the laser pointer so he could "get the red dot!" Pepe always had regular vet care and we paid close attention to his diet because he did have problems with his pancreas and thyroid but both were well controlled so we expected him to live a long "terrier-age" life. However, around the 31st of March, he became suddenly ill and a few days later, had to have an emergency splenectomy due to a large tumor which was cancerous and bleeding. Unfortunately, the cancer had already spread to his liver and was a particularly vicious type. Thank God, he was able to spend his last week at home with us. He was pain free and fairly energetic until Friday afternoon when one of the tumors ruptured and he became quite shakey and lethargic. I knew it was time and I couldn't bear to let my sweet little boy suffer. And so (thanks to Dr. Almquist and Krista, who also loved him) he closed his sweet brown eyes for the final time in the arms of the person who loved and still loves him more than anyone in the world. His passing was the gentle and peaceful one he deserved, and he was surrounded by warmth, love and covered with kisses and tears. I know that he is running and playing with his buddies Mikey and Christmas now and waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. I am so blessed to have had this precious little light in my life and I will hold him dear in my heart forever and expect him to be the first to greet me when I cross over. Bless you, my sweet boy and thank you for all the love and joy you brought into my life. Your Mama loves and misses you! You will never be more than a heartbeat away.
Three weeks after Pepe left us for the Rainbow Bridge, I dreamed that he, Murphy and I were together in a brightly lit white room. We all played and I laughed at how sweet and funny the two of them were together. When it was time to go, Murphy and I went to the door and started out and I realized Pepe wasn't with us. I turned and he was sitting alertly just looking at me. I called to him and said, "Come on, Pepe, let's go home." I heard him speak to me telepathically. He said, "I can't go there any more. But it's okay. I'm well and happy." I awoke to find Murphy staring at me. Thank you, my sweet boy, for trying to comfort us. We love you and miss you so.
July 10, 2006 - This week will be 3 months since you had to leave us, sweetheart. It's been so hard being without you and I still cry for you almost every day. Murphy is better but she doesn't want to be more than a few feet away from me. We are bringing another rescue schnauzer boy into the family the first of August. He is a big boy like you and his foster mother says he has a sweet gentle nature like you as well. I know you would want us to give him a forever home and I know you will tell him how happy he will be here. I think he will help to heal our broken hearts but he can never fill the empty space you left in our lives. I know that you are having a wonderful time with Mikey and Christmas and I know you watch over all of us. We love you, Sweet Boy and we miss you as much as the day you left us.
August 15, 2006 - Sweet Pepe, it's been 4 months since you left us for the Rainbow Bridge and I'm crying now just as hard as I did that day. I know I will never stop missing you, my sweet boy. Thank you for sending Beau to us. He is such a sweet schnauzer boy and I know that you knew he needed us and we needed him. Murphy is back to her "old" self and Beau acts as if he had always been a part of our family. He is so cute and funny and makes us smile - and we are surprised every time we find him curled up in one of YOUR "favorite" places. (I know you've shown him where they are!) He has helped ease the pain of losing you, sweetie, and (like you) he is a good, good boy. You can rest a bit easier knowing that we have found a little more peace and that we'll be fine until we're all re-united. We love you so much, baby, and we miss you as much as the day you had to leave us. XOXOXO MOM
April 14, 2007 - It was a year ago today that you had to leave us, my sweetheart. Your birthday was last Sunday and I cried off and on all day. I can still feel your presence and I know you are still right here with us patiently waiting for us all to be reunited someday. Beau has brought us so much joy and love and and has added years to Murphy's life. I know you sent him to be "Daddy's boy" so he would finally understand the special bond you and I always shared and, believe me, that has happened! I know you are well and at peace, my baby boy, and I am grateful for that. I miss you as much today as the day I had to let you go and the hole in my heart will never completely heal, sweetheart. Thank you for staying nearby. Your presence comforts me. I love you so much, my sweet Pepe. XOXOXO Mom
April 13, 2008 - Tomorrow will mark two years that you have been waiting for us at the Bridge, my sweet boy. Every day I smile when I think of you and I pat the pretty cedar box which holds your ashes and tell you I still love you and I always will. I miss you as much today as the day you had to leave us, Pepe. I know you watch over us and wait patiently for us to to join you someday. Murphy's hearing and eyesight are both failing, but she is happy and content and Beau is such a good boy and loves and looks out for her. I find it a bit easier lately. Somehow, I've felt your presence stronger this past year and I believe you are watching over us constantly now. We love and miss you, sweetheart. The love you unselfishly gave made indelible imprints upon our hearts and will remain and sustain us until we join you at the Bridge. Hugs and kisses, baby. XOXOXO Mom
March 29, 2009 - You got a really good early birthday present, didn't you, Pepe? Murphy joined you at the Bridge on March 4 and I know you were so happy to see her! I know she is so happy to be able to run like a puppy with you again and to have her sight and hearing back. We miss her so much but I know the two of you are waiting for us together. And now Murphy's ashes are right beside yours in a beautiful cedar box with a brass plaque, just like yours - so you are both still here with us. Another rescue schnauzer boy, Rowdy, joined the family about a year ago, so Beau has a companion. It helps a lot because he was sad and confused when Murphy didn't come home from the hospital. Baby, I still cry every time I think of you and I still miss you, and now sweet Murphy, too, as much as the day you had to leave us. I am so thankful for the years of love you both gave us and I am so happy that we were able to rescue both of you and give you the love and the lives that you both deserved. Be patient, Sweetie, run and play at the Bridge and someday in the future we will all be together forever. I love you both so much. XOXOXO Mom
April 14, 2012 - It was 6 years ago today that you crossed the Bridge, my sweet boy. You are still in our hearts and we miss you so. I know that you and Murphy are happily running and playing while you wait for us to join you. I think of the two of you so often, remember your sweet souls and wonderful, happy spirits and am so thankful for the many years of love and devotion you gave us. Love and kisses <3 <3 <3 Mom
April 14, 2013 - Today is seven years without you, Sweetie-pie and we miss you still and always will. I feel your and Murphy's presence often and know that you are looking over us while you wait patiently for us to join you. Give Murph a kiss for us and know that you both will always be in our hearts. I love you, Mom.
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