Gabrielle came to live with us not long after the loss of my unborn son. My arms were empty and my heart aching and I was feeling so alone. We brought Gabrielle home from the local pet store days before Christmas hoping she would help with my grief. Right from the start she was a one person cat. When visitors came over she would hide and would shy away from any advances from anyone else. She loved to be held and would often fall asleep on my lap. She was a playful cat who loved to play chasey and hide and seek with me. She also loved helping make the bed by jumping on the sheets and quilt while I was trying to straighten them. The years passed and we grew closer to each other and she was never far from my side. She would follow me out to the letter box and when I went out she was always there at the door waiting to greet me. It was commented to me on many occasions that she was more like a dog than a cat in the way she would follow me around. We did bring home a friend for her when she was about 2 years old. It took her a while to take to Jaime-Lee but once she accepted her they were best of friends. They would sleep curled up together and would clean each other. We also added a bull mastiff to the family. Xena weighed approx 50 kilos and was a happy playful dog who often didn't know her own strength. Even though Xena was the biggest physically, she knew her place and if Gabrielle wanted to get past, Xena would move out of the way. Gabrielle was always the 'top dog' and Xena and Jaime-Lee respected that. We lost Jaime-Lee in the Autumn of 2011 and sadly Xena followed a month later. Gabrielle missed Jaime-Lee and would walk around looking for her and it would break my heart to see the confusion on her face. As far as losing Xena, Gabrielle decided it was time she took possession of the sunniest spot in the back yard where Xena would lay. She would wander over to Xena's kennel and have a look around and then wander off again. I cant imagine what she was thinking about the loss of her sisters. I was determined to help Gabrielle through and spent lots of time with her and encouraged her to curl up next to me so she wouldn't be alone. The last few years of Gabrielle's life she was devoted to me and would shower me with kisses each night when I sat down at the computer desk after the kids were in bed. This was our time together and we both cherished our special time each night. As I would get ready for bed she would follow me in and curl up with me. Every morning she would sit on my bath towel and watch me shower and then join me for breakfast. Gabrielle was such a big part of my life and helped me cope with the loss of my unborn son by loving me and just being there.She taught me how to love again. When the time came that I had to let Gabrielle go she licked my hand and then my face before climbing up onto her favourite spot on my side of the bed. Gabrielle took her last breath in this very spot only 7 weeks short of her 17th birthday.I will never forget the unconditional love and devotion this precious girl gave me. She took a piece of my heart with her the day she left for Rainbow bridge. Until we meet again.......Forever loved and never forgotten|
It has been 4 weeks since you left me for Rainbow Bridge. I miss you so much and have cried buckets of tears. I knew it was your time and I had to let you go but life without you is so different. I can still feel you around me and take comfort in that. Take care darling girl and continue to watch over me. Until we meet again......
It is a month today since you left for rainbow bridge. Oh, how I miss your touch, your soft fur and that loving look you would give me as you head bumped me. I still look for you when I come home and expect to see you asleep in your favourite spot. My heart aches for you. I hope you have found peace. Please look down on me and send me your love to keep me strong. Love you beautiful girl.
Today would have been your 17th birthday. Happy birthday beautiful girl! I knew today was going to be hard and I am really struggling with not having you here to comfort me but hope you are happy and pain free and have made lots of lovely friends at rainbow bridge. Not a day goes by that I don't look for you and expect to see you. When I am cutting up chicken I am waiting for you to jump up on the bench for your share. Showers are especially hard as my towel lays untouched by you. I loved how you would sit on it and watch me. My desk is overflowing with photos and reminders of you and even though this helps it is not the same as having you sitting there like you always did. Little Tenay misses you and asks about you often. I know she used to annoy you but that was her way of showing her love for you. Poppy Bob came over for a visit last week and he missed having you sit on the lounge at night with us while we watched tv. My tears still flow when I think of you and look forward to when I can think of you and just smile. You will always have a piece of my heart. Love you forever....
It is 3 months today darling girl since I had to let you go. My heart still aches for you and even though I can smile at times when I think of you, it still tears me apart knowing you are not coming back. I sit at my computer desk with your photos and memorabilia all around me and find peace as I think of our bond and of the time we had together. I worked out how to activate the music on your page so when I visit you now, the music to the song 'You are so beautiful' plays and has brought me to tears. The twins just celebrated their 6th birthday and had a party. The house was so busy and loud and I thought how much you would've hated that. At least now you can look down on me and the family but not have to put up with all the hustle and bustle which you were not a fan of. We went away last weekend and took your plush look alike friend that reminds me of you with us and I am sure I could feel you near me. Rest assured she could never replace you but I often talk to her or sit her on my lap like you used to do. It gives me some sort of comfort knowing that you used to sleep beside her. Sleep well my beautiful girl and know you are never far from my heart and mind.
1st March 2015. It is six months today since I had to say goodbye to you. Where has that time gone? I have lived through Spring, Summer and now approaching Autumn without you by my side. I guess time stops for no one... I still think of you all the time and even though Ollie takes up a lot of my time, I look at him and I see glimpses of you. Thank you for sending him to me. He has really helped me cope with losing you. He does so many things just like you did yet he is a dog so I know you sent him to me as I see you in him all the time. He is a little sweetheart and even though he is Toni's dog, he has formed an attachment to me and doesn't let me out of sight. When I have to go out he cries for me.He follows me from room to room and just likes to be close to me. He now sleeps in my bed every night unless Toni is home and she takes him to her room. Most nights he races me to the bed, just like you would do. He has made me smile again and I know in my heart you sent him to me so I had someone to love again. Although you are not here anymore you will always live in my heart and mind. You were the most precious girl and I still adore you. Play nicely with the angels my darling and know that we will be together again one day. Still love you best xxx
31st August 2016. Tomorrow will be the second anniversary of you leaving your home here on earth and going to Rainbow Bridge. I am writing to you now as I am not sure if I will be able to do this tomorrow. When I realized it is almost 2 years since I held you and stroked you I burst into tears. I miss you so much beautiful girl. I look as your photo everyday and send my love to you. Ollie is still a joy and a constant reminder of my love for you. He mimics you in a lot of ways which reminds me of my love for you. He is almost 2 years old now and is toilet trained. He sleeps under my computer desk at night and then follows me into bed each night where he curls up. He sleeps up on the pillow sometimes but then will curl up at the end of the bed in your spot. This is just a new thing he is doing. A constant reminder that you are still with me everyday. I hope you have made lots of friends and are happy. Tenay still asks after you and Krissy knows how much you mean to me as if she ever sees me crying she asks if I am missing you! Take care beautiful girl. Look forward to seeing you again one day. Until then rest darling girl of mine whom I still love best!
27th October 2016. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. My mind has been on you all day. I hope you are celebrating in style with all your new friends. I am sure you have thought of me today as I have you. Oh, what I would do to hold you in my arms one more time or have you sit on my desk waiting for me to pat you. Young Ollie is keeping me company and he has stolen a piece of my heart just like you did all those years ago. As he snuggles up in bed each night I remember how you used to do the same thing. I still have your photo by my bed and on my desk and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Stay sweet darling girl and be patient as we will be together again one day. Until then remember I will always love you and still love you best! xxxx