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Memories of Bretta
We did not go anywhere away from home without you. You had the most beautiful heart. I am so lost without you right now but you were so tired and couldn't keep going anymore. With fighting cancer on your spleen for eight months, you fought the greatest fight. The vets gave you six to eight months and you made it into the eighth month. We fought for every inch of keeping you with us. I have never felt this love for any other dog. You were my special babe who came to us through the ESRA all the way from the western slopes of Colorado. It took five drivers to get you to us. I will forever be grateful to the ESRA people that helped get you to your forever home. You went to the lake with us and sat on the back of boat like you were the queen of the lake. You made two trips to South Dakota to pick up your younger sisters. Bretta, you will always be in our hearts. We love and miss you. Pepper, a younger sister, is on a hillside near the Rainbow Bridge. I hope she was there waiting for you. You two can play together again.

04/13/2019 - You've been gone 5 days and my life has been shattered. I keep wanting to do the special things I made for you to keep you alive. I find myself standing trying to think what to do and then it dons on me that you are not here with me. We will receive your ashes soon and I have ordered 8 x 10 pics to put on table with Pepper's ashes and pictures. A lovely lady on FB painted a gorgeous pic of you and we are getting it framed and will somehow hang from the ceiling above the large stand where you and Pepper will be looking back at us and reminding us how much we loved you. You had such a big heart and loved all of us right back. I am lost without you and I don't mind being this way as I know it will get easier for me. You fought the good fight to stay with us as long as you could. For a Springer, 14 1/2 years is good. Play, play, play with the other beloved pets that surround the RB, then rest and take care of yourself. You are so loved.

04/19/2019 - Bretta, Bretta, Bretta. I miss you so. It is almost Easter and I can't imagine a holiday without you. You were so beautiful and perceptive. You knew when I was down and would come put your chin on my leg. When I let you outdoors, your head would go up to catch the wind. You had probably been someone's hunting dog when they found you in Utah and you were so aware of your surroundings. I miss those almond shaped eyes looking back at me. There was a bond between us that I will never find again in my lifetime. You loved me so unconditionally as I loved you. I am lost without you. You were my Angel here on earth and I know you are an Angel now but there is such a distance between us. I have your wonderful pictures to remind me or your love and beauty but it's just not the same as having you here. Run across the meadows with your sister Pepper and enjoy your freedom. I love and miss you.

04/22/2019 - Dearest Bretta. Our first Easter holiday without you. I miss you so so much. I want to see that beautiful face and eyes again. You were the wind beneath my sails. You made every day a good day even if I wasn't feeling well. All I had to do was look into your eyes and see the love we shared. I don't know what to do without you. You were so special. You were Mom's dog and followed me everywhere. I can't even think of camping or boating without you. I am so lost. I try to give the love I had for you to the other furballs here but I just can't get there yet. I know you are getting the long rest you needed after your long journey here. You were so brave with the benign cancer growing on your spleen. Now, I wonder if we and the vets made the right decision to not put you through such an operation at your age. I've never known such a terrible loss as you leaving us. I hope some day I can accept that loss. Right now, I just want to hold you again. I know you knew something was up those last few weeks and you became even more dependent upon me and came to me to get even more loving than before. I hope you are meeting new friends at RB and are playing as you did when you were young. Mom misses you so much and each day is a struggle but I know there are many other moms and dads missing their beloved furballs.

04/27/2019 - My dear Bretta. Mom will never get over you. You were the perfect dog. You pranced around the yard like a queen, your nose in the air and you were beautiful. I don't know if that was because you were a field springer or not but it was an endearing quality that you had. I love your sisters that you left behind but they do not have the endearing qualities that you had. They each have their own personalities but they do not have that light in their eyes that you had when I talked to you or looked at you across the room. You can never be replaced because you were special. I have your ashes back and have set up your memorial with Pepper's memorial. You are both together in a special wooden box and with big pictures of you both. The painting that Linda made of you is hanging above the memorial. Others were captured by your beauty and painted portraits of you. That's how special you were. I had to work on taxes during your last week with us. I wish I would have said to heck with the taxes and held you that last week. You came to me in the computer area that last day when you could no longer hang on. I am so sorry I left you to lie in your bed alone in another room. You were still drinking and eating hard treats so I didn't realize the end would come so soon. You mom will never be the same without you. I want to see that beautiful face and glistening eyes again. I have had a back procedure so have been sitting a lot and I can't get you off of my mind. The story of you coming to us was so special. So many people wanted you to get to us. I will always be grateful for the work the ESRA did to get my sweet Bretta. Maybe, they thought with your benign tumors that you would not live to be ten but you made it to 14 1/2. We had some tumors removed that were on the outside. I hope that didn't make them start growing inside which finally took you from us. Mom will never forget your beauty and companionship. I do hope you are making friends around the RB and prancing around like you did here on earth. You were a sight to behold. Such beauty. I love and miss you so much.

05/11/19 - My sweet Bretta. It has been over a month since you've been gone and I am miserable. I have no will to keep living without you. I'm a lost soul looking for a way to stop living and join you. I don't enjoy life without you. Each day is a long string of going through the motions but not enjoying anything. I've asked not to have a Mother's Day celebration. I have nothing to celebrate with you gone. You were my life and there is nothing left. I have been so hurt by the people you left behind. You were the only one that gave me unconditional love. Tammy tries to take your place but her personality is not like yours. Flye tries also but they are cold where you were warm and your eyes were always glistening, looking me straight in the eyes which made you almost more than animal. You had a spirit that no one could hide. I want to be with you. Life has no meaning anymore. Your mom misses you more than you will ever know. I can barely look at your pictures because it brings back what I had and no longer have. Life was glorious with you. Now, it is only sadness. I don't know how to find you. I'm hoping the Lord will bring me to you somehow. I don't want to go on without you.

06/09/19 - Oh my beautiful girl, it has been almost a month since I stopped in to see you. I still can't get over you. I will never get over you. You were my child when my only child was lost to us. He's back in our lives now but he will never take the place in my heart that you have. I wonder often if I want to live without you and have been reading and finding that animals do have souls. Think of Jesus' birth. He was surrounded by animals so you can get to heaven. Maybe the Rainbow Bridge is close by or part of heaven where we can pick you and Pepper up and be a family again. I may have tried to hold on to you too long. I know the last several weeks were rough on you. I'm so sorry if you were in pain and I didn't see it. I want to see you again. I love the other girls but we do not share the bond you and I shared. You were the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. You had the long flowing tail that many Springers do not have. You were the love I had strived for all my life but could not find. U gave that love right back to me. I miss those almost shaped eyes looking back at me. I will love you forever. I am so sad and lonely without you. Miserable, really. You were a Princess. I won't be away so long from now on. (((()))) Hugs for you. Mom

07/30/19 - I'm sorry I haven't been here lately, dear Bretta. I have been down myself with exhaustion. It is so hard to keep up the house and take care of your three sisters. I wouldn't give your sisters up for anything as you dogs have been my life. I miss you terribly. That long flowing tail that none of your sisters have. There is such a difference in a field and bench spaniel. I love your sisters in a different way than you. You were so wise and conscious of human feelings. I know I kept you a week too long and may have made you suffer in the end. I couldn't imagine that you were so close to leaving us. I have your pics all over the house and I look at them and can't believe you are still here. There is nothing in this world better than the love of a dog who understands humans the way you did. i get so down and I know I have to come visit you, let the tears roll and then I can take on the world again. I will always come back to you. You were my baby and I was so lucky to have spent five years with you. I don't know how I got so lucky with you to get you from Colorado. I had so much praise for the ESRA. They have too many restrictions for we elderly anymore and the senior dogs have been 12-13 years old and I can't take a dog that age and lose them so quickly as Springers life span is 12-14 years. I have seen some of your field sisters and brothers on ESRA again and I wish we were able to get one but three is all we can handle now. Derek is back in our lives and getting the house remodeled to take him in has been so time consuming plus it is summer and grass and the yard takes up time we need for remodeling. The misery of losing you will never leave me. I should say almond shaped eyes looking back at me. Got it wrong the last time. Your mom misses you so very much. I still want to be with you but know you will be there to greet me when I pass. You are the wind beneath my wings. I love you so very much. Mom

08/29/19 - Dearest Bretta, it has been nearly a month since I last visited you. I can't stay away any longer. It has been a wild and fast summer. We had no spring so we went right into having all the summer chores. Taking care of your three sisters and cleaning the much too big house is all I can get done. I think of you often and checkout your pics in every room. You were my earth, moon and stars. I know by my mood when I visit as I get so depressed without you. You are probably the only field spaniel we will ever have. They aren't as easy to adopt and with our age, the ESRA doesn't want us to adopt as much any more. I worry about this thread being kept up when I'm gone but, hey, we'll be together by then. Won't that be grand. You are the smartest Springer we've ever had, especially to me. You knew each day how I was feeling with my chronic fatigue and eye problems. You stayed as close to me as you could get. I sometimes think I see a glimpse of you going around a corner. I know you are still with me and I wish I was more clairevoyant to see you when I wanted to. To have you by my chair at night. I so miss those eyes looking back at me with such love and knowledge. We're still remodeling the basement and I remember the times you were determined to be with me and came downstairs but couldn't get back up. I'd get you back up two feet at a time. You were never going to quit following me. We haven't been camping this year. It wouldn't be the same without you. You were the only one who would climb the steps for us or climb down skipping the bottom step when it was time to go out. We could leave you off the leash and you would stay right with us. Not so with the other girls. We would have to watch them closely and keep on a leash. Sitting on the back of the boat was your favorite place. What a brave and calm soul you had. Nothing bothered you. I love you and miss you as much as the first day you left us. Mom sends loads of hugs and kisses.

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