by maureen moschetti
Lola was a good girl,so many memories.As lola got older she became the matriarch of our family.lola lived a good life with Jack and Tara, her siblings. Lola especially loved to bark and take rides in the car.she was truly the boss and dictated how the day would be. She knew how to get her wants and needs known just b y a looking at me. Lola was a little girl with a big presence. She will live forever in my soul and I will honor her memory every day. I will meet you at the rainbow bridge my love.
3/10/17-Morning my love. Ten days ago you had to leave. It was so sudden. It's so quiet here without you. Jack and Tara miss you I'm trying to make them happy. I want to tell you something. Im having a bit of a hard time without you but I know you are safe and you have no more pain so that makes me happy. I hope you are barking and making new friends.Its snowing today, you didn't like the snow very much. Enjoy your day my love. I miss you so much.
3/11/17 Morning Lola love. Your beautiful stone came yesterday. It looks great. When spring arrives I will put it by your grave. I hope you're comfortable and happy where you are. I worry everyday about you. I dont want you to feel alone. You were never left alone . I miss you and love you so much. You are Mommy's girl. Have a good day in heaven Lolee love.
3/12/17 Morning Lola love. You were on my mind all night. It feels like you were trying to tell me something. I wish I knew what you were doing all day. We're going to be getting a big snow storm on Tuesday. You hated the snow. Rebecca is going today to get a tattoo of your beauty face . We're all missing you so very much. I think of you all the time and just wonder what happened that day you left for heaven. Jack and Tara miss you,I can tell. I try to keep them busy. I love you and miss you more than you will ever know. Have a wonderful day in heaven. I hope you met both my max's and spirit and roxy,misty, Marmaduke, tweety,winter wings,Penelope and of course Nanny. I love you lola
3/13/2017 Morning my lola love,thirteen days in heaven. I still can't believe you're gone. I went back to work today and all I can think of is you. You came to me in my dreams last night. You showed me beautiful flowers like a meadow. Maybe you were showing me where you are. I hope you're comfortable and happy. Rebecca's tattoo of you came out perfect.it's a beautiful tribute to you. We hope you know how loved you are and we will always keep your memory alive. Enjoy your day in heaven. I love you lola
3/14/2017 Morning love, we are in the middle of a blizzard. You never liked the snow and cold. Jack doesnt mind it but Tara is like you and doesn't like it. I tried to cover your memorial so it wouldn't get covered with snow but I don't think it's working. I hope you're comfortable and happy where you are. It's been fourteen days you've been gone. We were never apart so I worry about you alot. You and Jack and Tara are my loves,my best friends. The one's I prefer to spend time with. We miss you so much. Keep visiting me it helps me to know you're happy and safe. Have a good day in heaven. I love you Lolee!
3/15/2017 Morning my Lola, I am at work today thinking about you. We had a blizzard yesterday that brought alot of snow. Your memorial we made for you is covered with all the snow. I'll try to get through the snow to clean it off when I get home. I miss you so much and love you so much. I miss having you boss me around . I miss your bark .I just miss you and hope you're happy in heaven. I love you lola. Have a good day in heaven. Come visit me love.
3/16/2017 Morning love, today is my birthday. The first time in almost 14yrs you're not here for it. I know you're here in spirit because I feel you around. I have to bring Jack and Tara to their acupuncture app. I don't think you really liked acupuncture but it did help you with your arthritis and other problems. I love you lola and I miss you so much. Keep visiting me. Have a good day in heaven!
3/17/2017 Morning Lola, Happy Saint Patrick's day! Jack had a bad night last night. I think he was in some pain after his acupuncture and was very uncomfortable the entire night. He's better this morning. Tara seemed to like it. I know you're around us and I'm happy you are. I worry everyday about you. I love you Lolee. Have a good day in heaven.
3/18/2017 Morning lola love, I'm thinking of you as always. Some of your things arrived yesterday for your grave. I ordered a sitting bench and a little bridge that looks like the one at the rainbow bridge.I want to make your memorial so beautiful. I have to wait till the snow melts to start. I'll plant alot of flowers around the area as well. It will be a wonderful tribute to you. I hope you're comfortable and happy. I love you lola.
3/19/2017 Morning love. I miss you Lola but I know you are around us. I know you have no more pain from arthritis and that makes me feel better. I worry if you're okay and if you're happy. You were such a strong and determined little girl till the very end. I love you more than you will ever know. Have a good day in heaven Lolee. I love you.
3/20/2017 Morning Lola, happy spring!it feels like you have been gone so long. Its been twenty days since you left. It is long to me because I am so used to seeing you and taking care of you and although I have Jack and Tara to take care of there is still a void,an emptiness without you. You were very bossy Lola and I miss you. When the snow melts I will begin making your memorial beautiful. Have a good day in heaven Lolee. I love you
3/21/2017 Morning Lola, Tara made it up to your grave this morning. The snow is starting to melt so she was able to make it through. It was cute to watch her stand there for a few moments. We all love you and miss you so much. Keep visiting me it helps me to know you're happy. I love you lola and have a good day in heaven.
3/22/2017 Morning my lola love, it doesn't feel much like spring today. We all love you and miss you so much. I still call your name out. Sometimes Tara looks like you and I call her Lola. You are always with us. We will never forget you because you're with us in spirit. I love you lola and have a good day in heaven my love!
3/23/2017 Morning Lola love, I'm late today writing to you because I had to bring Thurston for his neuter operation. He was very nervous. I'll pick him up at 1pm. Jack and Tara keep visiting your grave. They sit by it for a while. I can't wait for the spring so I can make it so beautiful. Your stone will look wonderful. I love you lola and I miss you so much. Have a good day in heaven Lolee.
3/24/2017 Morning Lola love, not much new here. I think of you everyday and how I wish you were here. I still don't know what happened that day, I asked the vet yesterday at Jack and Taras acupuncture app.She doesn't know either. What matters is that you are happy and comfortable now. I look at your pictures and they are so lifelike. I love you lola and I miss you. Have a good day in heaven my love.
3/25/2017 Morning Lola, Everyone is doing ok.Thurston seems back to normal after his neuter operation.I love you and miss you so much. It's just so strange you're with me everyday for almost 14yrs and than one day you're no longer here. How is one supposed be okaywith that? I'm really not. I miss you everyday,I always will. You were always there I wish you still were here. I love you lola and have a good day in heaven my love.
3/26/2017 Morning Lola, in a few days it will be a month since you left. I still can't believe you're gone. The thought of you not being alive anymore is sometimes just to much. If I only had a way to have you back again. You and Jack and Tara and me were always together. Now that you're gone it's just so different. I hope you are having fun and barking and making new friends.I love you lola,more than you will ever know. Have a good day in heaven Lolee.
3/27/2017 Morning Lola, tomorrow is one month you're gone. I can't believe it. I love and miss you more than you will ever know. I miss your bark and running after me all the time. I wish I still had you. I love you lola and have a good day in heaven today.
3/28/2017 Morning Love, today is one month since you left for heaven.I really can't believe you're gone. I knew you were getting older and some days you struggled but I guess I just thought I would have you for a few more years. It happened so fast.at first I just thought you weren't feeling well but when I looked again I knew what was happening. As the day went on it became a reality you were going to leave me. Saying I love you and miss you is not enough to express how I feel about losing you. I remember our second ride to the vet that day. You were in bad shape. I knew it was time because the look in your eyes. I told you it was okay to go if you had to leave to heaven.I'll never forget how you rested your little head on my chest. You hung on all night in the oxygen tank but when the girls and I saw your little face and how you smiled with such love and peace in your eyes,again I knew what you were saying to us. I'm ready to go and its okay. You told each of us how you loved us. You looked so peaceful and beautiful and then we sent you to heaven. You were my first little girl pug. You will always remain the matriarch of our family.you will always be so special to me. You were my very best friend Lola. I miss you terribly and I miss you barking at me and bossing me around. You're always my little girl. I love you lola with all my heart and soul. I will always keep your memory alive. Have a good day in heaven. Be happy and keep barking my love!
3/29/2017 Morning Lola, yesterday was a hard day for me. It's hard without you but I know you are safe and you have no more pain. I just miss you and I want you to know how much we love you . Jack and Tara visited your grave this morning. I'm thinking of changing Drs for Jack and Tara. I love you lola. Have a good day in heaven Lolee.
3/30/2017 Morning Lola love, I hope you're having fun in heaven and you're happy and comfortable. I worry about you everyday and hope you're not lonely. Nothing is new. Just waiting for the nice weather to come so I can work on your grave. I want to make it beautiful. I love you lola and I miss you. Have a good day in heaven. Keep barking!
3/31/2017 Morning Lola, I hope you are happy in heaven. Please watch over all of us now that you're our Angel. I still miss you terribly. You were such a big presence barking and running After me all the time. I miss you doing that to me. I love you so much I hope you know that. I love you Lola my litte girl. Have a good day in heaven
4/1/2017 Morning Lola,It has finally stopped raining.I have to do some touching up on your grave. The rain washed some dirt away. It's strange if you think about the way I communicate with you now.I come to this site and right you all my thoughts. It makes me wonder if you can really hear me and understand me. I love you so much and have a good day in heaven my love.
4/2/2017 Morning Lola,Its a beautiful day today. The sun is finally out.it rained so hard the other day that we hadto add some dirt to your grave. It will look so beautiful when I put your stone there with the bench and plant flowers around. I hope you are happy in heaven. I always worry about you everyday that you're not alone or afraid. You were never alone or afraid. It's difficult for me because I always took care of you. I worry you're not being taken care of. I love you so much and I always will. You're always my Lola. Have a good day in heaven my love. Keep barking:)
4/3/2017 Morning Lola,Tara visited your grave this morning.Jack was busy sniffing around. It was as if she was talking to you. It was nice to watch. We all feel your loss. I sometimes look at Jack just looking in the back yard at your grave. I know he misses you terribly. You both grew up together. You were his leader, his best friend. We all love you Lola. Have a good day in heaven my love. Keep barking!
4/4/2017 Morning Lola, another rainy day here. We took the bench out of the box. Its very pretty. It will look so beautiful by your grave. I still wish I could get you back somehow. I miss you so much and I don't like that you're not with us anymore. I love you so much and I miss you. Have a good day in heaven my love.. Keep barking Lola!
4/5/2017 Morning Lola love,thinking of you today as always. I hope you are happy in heaven. We all miss you so much especially your high energy. Always running around barking. I love you Lola so very much. Havea good day in heaven my love.
4/6/2017 Morning Lola, I miss you alot and it's difficult to accept that you're not here anymore. You and Jack and Tara are my loves, my best friends,now that you're gone it doesn't feel right. I hope you're having a better time in heaven and you don't feel what I feel without you. I hope you are happy in heaven. And it's as beautiful as everyone says. Bark as much as you want all day long if you want. I love you Lola. Have a good day in heaven my love.
4/7/2017 Morning Lola love,it finally stopped raining. The sun hasn't been out in a while. I remember the day you left for heaven,it was a beautiful day. The sun was out and it was warm. I still wish I could have you back. I don't like that you're not here with us.I often look at Jack and Tara and wonder if they really know where you are. It's sad that they have to feel such sadness. Life is hard that way.For the one's left behind after losing someone you have loved for so long.It teaches us to treasure the time we are given with one another because at any moment the time together can end. I hope you know how much I love you Lola.I miss you so much. Have a good day in heaven my love.
4/8/2017 Morning Lola, it looks like it's trying to be a nice day today. The sun is finally coming out. I wonder what you do all day and who you are with. Do you check on us frequently? I hope you know how missed you are. I hope you come visit us soon. I'm lonely for you. I love you Lola.Have a good day in heaven my love.
4/9/17 Morning Lola,today is palm sunday. I have a palm cross for your grave.next Sunday is Easter, our first Easter apart. I still don't know what happened that day you left for heaven. I just know that I miss you following me and barking at me or looking at me to try and get a piece of pupperoni.when we would take car rides,you would just bark the entire ride barking at everything and sometimes nothing. I just hope you know how much you are missed. You were my first little girl pug. I will always love you Lola. Have a good day in heaven my love. Keep barking:)
4/10/17 Morning Lola,it's a beautiful day today. We put your stone and your bench by your grave yesterday. It looks beautiful. Jack and Tara sat by it fot a long time. We love you Lola so much.Have a good day in heaven my love.
Morning Lola love,today is going to be 80. You didn't like the heat.you would pant alot. Yesterday Jack and Tara and I were driving in the car with the windows down and for the first time since you left I saw happiness on Jacks face. He was hanging out the window sniffing and truly enjoying himself. It made me happy to see him having fun. Tara was not having the greatest time,she was very hot and was panting like you would. I put the air on and soon she to started to enjoy herself. I know you were watching us yesterday,you were with us during the car ride.I know this because it felt normal like it used to when it was the four of us. It felt good like nothing was missing.it felt familiar and just so happy! I asked God for one more day with you. Was it yesterday? I didn't realise until just now. I wasn't supposed to know because it would have changed the carride. God is good Lola. He loves us and I know you're okay. Thankyou love for droping in yesterday. I hope we can do that again. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven my love. Thank you God for one more day.
4/12/17 Morning Lola,Jack was up all night because Tara was snoring so loud. I switch rooms with Bridget today. I hope we have a better night tonight. Maybe you can somehow help with that. You're always on my mind Lola and I miss you very much. I hope you have a good day in heaven my love and keep barking! I love you Lola
4/13/17 Morning Lola, Jack wasn't very comfortable last night in our new room. Up most of the night. I don't think he likes the dark. We all miss you. Its our first spring in almost 14yrs we're not together. I wish you were here. I love you Lola so much. Have a good day in heaven my love.
Morning Lola,it's a beautiful day today. This weekend is Easter Sunday. Our first Easter apart. I miss you so much.I hope you're okay and looking after us now. Send me a sign you're okay. Keep barking my love. Have a good day in heaven.
4/15/17 Morning Lola love,tomorrow is Easter Sunday.I left a little Easter basket for you. For your grave here at home I have a palm cross and a little Easter toy for you. We miss you so much.I know Jack and Tara miss you,I can tell. It's so sad to wonder what they are feeling about you. Especially Jack.He was 8weeks old when he met you. Jack doesn't sleep well at night anymore.Nowthat I think of it,maybe it's been since you left for heaven. The both of you grew up and grew old together.Tara included. She came to us when Nanny died. Tara was only 4yrs. You are Taras second loss.I know she misses you. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven my love.
4/16/17 Morning Lola,Happy Easter!our first Easter apart. We will miss you today. It's still not normal without you, but how can it be? It never will be the same. I wish I knew what happened that day you left for heaven. Drs don't know either it wouldn't change anything but at least I would know.I just miss you.your little body running around after me. It's very different without you. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven Happy Easter Lolee.
4/17/17 Morning Lola,yesterday was a beautiful day. Easter was ok.I thought of you many times during the day. I love you so much and I wil always keep you in my heart. I love you and have a good day in heaven .keep barking Lola!
4/18/17 Morning Lola love, thinking about you as always.I miss you very much .I hope you're okay and you're happy in heaven. I wish I could hear you bark. I love you Lola so much and have a good day in heaven.
4/19/17 Morning Lolee,everything is ok here.tomorrow we go to the new vet.a hollistic dr. I hope you are okay and you're happy. We miss you everyday. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven my love.
4/20/17 Morning Lola,It's a rainy day today. I take Jack and Tara to the new dr today. I wish you were coming with us. I still feel like you should be here.your leaving just happened so fast. What bothers me is no one knows why. I miss you everyday.I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven my love.
4/21/17 Morning Lola,another rainy day.yesterdays visit to the new vet was good. Jack and Tara seemed to like it. I haven't heard your bark in a while.I miss you constantly barking. You would look out the window the entire car ride and just bark. I miss you Lola I miss you riding in the car. Have a good day in heaven.I love you.I hope you're barking in heaven.
4/22/17 Morning Lola love,I miss you.another rainy day today. I always wonder if you are having fun in heaven and if you are watching over us. I hope you are. I wish you would send me a sign. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven my love.
4/23/17 Morning Lola,It's a beautiful day today. The sun finally came out. I love you so much and I miss you everyday.I will always hold you close to me. I love you Lola and have a good day in heaven.
4/24/17Morning Lola, we started putting thelittle bridge together for your grave. In a couple of weeks I will plant flowers all around your grave. I miss y