by heather c
I am learning how to sleep in this bed. Your sister lays in her same spot but you are not here. I have the freedom to move to the left now but I would rather be pinned in between my two furry friends. I can't sleep. I have your photo where I can see it. I start to cry, and your sister snuggles in close. She hasn't been the same since we had to say goodbye to you. She lays by my feet. I took her into the vets to see your body. I wanted her to know that you would never come home. I stood over you and started to cry. then I held you in my arms and petted your paws. Seven years we have been together. From the day you decided to let me take you home. Your eyes sunken in, you were so thin. Yet you believed that I would be a good mommy to you. The previous family had just dumped you at the shelter. They left you running free so close to the freeway. funny how I was afraid to let you off your leash as I never wanted anything to happen to you. Seven years you were with me. You saw me through graduation, through relationships, jobs, deaths, friendships, and much more. what am I supposed to do without you now? You knew when I was happy and when I was sad. You were the only one who could get a real laugh out of me. There is a whole so great in my life now. The trees are not as pretty, the lakes not as crisp. The urge to call into work sick to take you to the mountains is no longer there. The morning love fest is gone. No longer am I awaken with kisses and laughter but now I awake crying and lonely. You were my best friend. I didn't even have time to say goodbye. I barely was able to tell you thank you for saving my life. Thank you for showing me how to love. Please wait for me and I will return to you. I love you my best friend.