I don't want you to go
but I know you cannot stay
they all think they know
we needn't say goodbye
it's better this way
I long for one more
hug one more sound
one more nothing
ever stays
and the glitter
tends to fade
and your eyes
when they looked
at me that way
and that tiny body
so solid and strong
and that glistening
midnight fur
streaked with
whitened tones
and the way your
tongue flicked the air
tasting all of life
and a wet nose
and ever running paws
those tummy bubbles
that glooped as you dreamed
they all thought you lacked
part of your brain
but I know the truth
because we're the same
you hide behind
your smallness
and I hide behind
the same
I named you
for the chippette
long before the name
became a fad because
of some silly teenybopper brat
I even miss your yucky habit
the way you held onto things
just like me, only yours
was food and mine was...
everything
my sweet brittybear
I miss you and don't
feel you with me here
the steadiness of your
breathing coming from
beneath my bed
it soothed my weary
worrying head
that shooting star
that fell before
was just the sign
I needed and more.
They tell me where
you took your final nap
there was a reason
and the place meant
something to me
as if you were waiting
for me to log on-line
and you in your chair
or in my lap.
I knew since months before
that it would happen like that
sooner than I thought
at home I knew and
in your sleep it's true
and I knew, and I knew
and nothing could
have prepared me
and I'm glad
that last detail
of when was left out
my loyal and soothing
playful friend, my furbaby
daughter of my own
My BrittanyBear
why do I feel so alone.
Play now with no more pain
and no more aches
and play with the angels
the li'l spirits in my life
and play with your pals
and play with that special
li'l one for me and I know
once you've settled
you will visit and comfort
as you have always done.
I love you and miss you
my misunderstood small one.