October 1, 2011
What can I say that I dont always say to you? I miss you so much, that will never change Steve, nor will my love for you. The holidays are coming again soon, and it will be so lonesome here without you. Your Buddy loves you too, very much. We often talk about you, remembering your facial expressions, your kisses, and different funny things you'd do to make us laugh. Three years is a long time, wish I could see you, and hug you. I'm thankful for your pictures, only wish I had taken more. We love you sweetheart, always know that. Love, Mama and Buddy.
November 1, 2011
Well Baby, its almost Christmas time again. Going to be another sad and lonely one for us. I wish I could see you, even though I'm told you are always close by, if I had one wish for Christmas, it would be to see you again. I miss you Steve, and I love you so much. Its been too long since you left us and went to be with God. Nothing has ever been the same since that last day. Thank you for all the wonderful years of love, and thank you for giving us a sign to adopt another baby. He's another sweetheart who gives so much love every day. Without him, I would probably be crazy by now. It was too hard losing you. Not a day or night goes by that I dont miss you so much. Love, Mama
November 24, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving baby to you and all your friends at Rainbows Bridge. We sure love and miss you sweetheart. Wishing you could have stayed with us forever. Love, Mama and Buddy.
December 5, 2011
I'm sorry for writing so late. I meant to write to you on the 1st, and forgot. My memory is'nt what it use to be. I have too much on my mind, and too many things to worry about. Please help the lord watch over us Steve, we are having things very hard, and I dont remember the last time either of us was really happy. Soon Christmas will be here, and it will be another sad day, except for Cooper. He will get new toys, and he'll be very happy. I want you to know that we love you with all our hearts and miss you so much. I will write to you again real soon. I love you Steve, and I will never ever stop. Love, Mama and Buddy.
December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas Steve. The holidays are sad without you here with us. Even though I know you're not suffering anymore, I just wish you were well, and spending Christmas with us. We love you sweety, and think of you every day and night. We're not celebrating Christmas like other people, but Cooper is. Santa brought him some toys, and he's very happy today. Love, Mama and Buddy.
January 1, 2012
Hi Baby, Happy New Year to you and all of your Bridge friends. We miss you little angel. Your Buddy has left for work, and your Mama is sickly today, so just wanted you to know I am thinking about you, and we love you very much. Love, Mama and Buddy.
February 1, 2012
Hi Baby, I am so sorry for just now remembering to write to you. Wow.....that's not like me to forget. Forgive me Steve, I guess my mind has been pre-occupied. I sure do love you, I dont know why I'm late with my writing. We miss you so much, and we love you so much. Love, Mama and Buddy.
March 1, 2012
Hi Baby, It's actually March 2nd. I talked to you about this last night, before going to bed. I think the medicine I'm on makes me absent-minded sometimes. Dont think I have forgotten you, as I could'nt. Fourteen years together is a long time, however it's never long enough. I miss you every day Steve, and I always will. Broke my heart to have to let you go, but we loved you too much to let you suffer. It would'nt have been right! You are in my thoughts and prayers every night. We love you angel with all of our hearts, and always will. I hope when it's our time to leave this world, we will all be together again forever. Love, Mama and Buddy.
April 1, 2012
Hi Angel, your mama remembered this time to write. I am getting forgetful, I think its because of my medicine I have to take. I just want you to know how much I love and miss you. I think about you every day and night, I miss you so much. You were and always will be part of my heart. Soon it will be four years living without you. Hard to believe. Always know you will never be forgotten Steve, and that your Buddy and I will always always love you with all our hearts.
Love, Mama ♥
May 1, 2012
Steve, it's really hard to believe that it's been four years since you had to leave us. May 1, 2008 was the worst day of our lives. I just knew with all the praying I had done, that the doctor could help you. Prayers always helped before. It was the hardest decision to make once they told us there was nothing that could be done. I was a coward and could'nt stay with you and Buddy to the end, I could'nt handle it. I'm sorry Steve, I wish I could have been stronger. We left with you, and came home without you and cried all night long and for many many days and months to follow. I'm sorry they could'nt make you all better again. We were like the three Musketeers, the three amigos. You were as much a part of our lives, as we were yours. We will always miss you baby, and love you forever. We love you so much, Mama and Buddy ♥
June 1, 2012
Hi Baby, Mama is sick today so I cant write too much, but wanted you to know I love you so much, and miss you every day. Its so hard to believe you left us over four years ago. I try not to think about it too much, as it makes me so sad, and makes me think of our last day together. I will never forget that day, taking you to the doctor, and your Buddy and I coming home without you. That was the worst day of our lives. I often think about the first sign you sent me on the night after. Such a special and beautiful sign Steve. I cant thank you enough. We will always love you and miss you angel. You will always have a part of our hearts, and you will always be in our. We will love you forever. Mama and Buddy ♥
July 1, 2012
Hi Baby, thinking of you always, and writing like I do every month at this time. I love you Steve and I miss you so much. Please watch over us baby, I'm having alot of health problems and your Buddy is suffering too. So please help the lord watch over us. Even though you've been in Heaven for over four years, you will always be loved and missed so much. Love Mama and Buddy ♥
August 1, 2012
Thinking about you baby. Cant hardly believe its been over four years since you left us. Not a day goes by that I dont think of you and miss you. Thank you for helping the lord watch over us. You're such a good boy. I love you Steve, and your Buddy loves you too. We will always miss you so much. It helps alot having Cooper, I think he keeps me from losing my mind, ha! He's also very sweet. We have been very lucky with both our babies. If you sent me the dragonflies, thank you Steve. They just zoom, zoom, and zoom around our home, and sometimes they chase each other. I always think of you when I see them and the butterflies. We love you baby, and miss you so much. Mama and Buddy ♥
September 1, 2012
It's already the 1st of another month, and time to write to you and let you know you're never forgotten and forever loved and missed. I still kiss your pictures every night and still tell you your bedtime prayer. We sure miss you Steve, every day. I often think about that night when you talked for the one and only time. Your Buddy and I were so shocked, and I praised you and asked you to say something else, but you never did. I will always have that memory. I keep trying to get Cooper to say something, but he has'nt so far. I'm with him every day, and oh how I wished I could have been home with you too. We love you sweet angel, and miss you very much. Dont forget about us here, and keep sending me beautiful butterflies and dragonflies. I always think they're from you. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
October 2, 2012
I'm sorry I forgot to write yesterday. Our airconditioning was out, and both Buddy and I were'nt in our right minds. We sure do love and miss you Steve, wishing you were still with us. I think Cooper would love you, but not so sure how you'd feel about him, ha! He's got a very sweet personality, and seems to love almost everyone. We've spoiled him like we did with you, but he loves us very much, just like you did. It's almost time for Thanksgiving, and then there will be another lonely Christmas. We have'nt had Christmas since you left us. I remember how you loved Christmas morning. Your stocking was always full of yummy goodies for you. I wish you had been interested in toys and catching the ball, but I guess you were too sophisticated for that kind of stuff :) Please dont forget us, we will never forget you baby. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
November 1, 2012
Mama did'nt forget to write this time. I dont know what to say though, that I dont keep saying to you. I love you so much, and miss you so much every day. We wont ever forget you, and will always love and miss you forever. Soon it will be Christmastime again, and I will be thinking about you, wishing you were here with us. It use to be my favorite time of the year, until we had to kiss you goodbye, and now I dread its coming. I love you Steve, never ever forget how much I love you. Part of my heart went with you that terrible day. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
December 5, 2012
I'm sorry I'm a few days late. I think it always happens when December comes around again. I get so busy, and have too many things going on at once, and I forget alot of things. I'm sorry baby, but I'm here now and I sure do love you. Wish you were here with us for Christmas. It will be our first since you went to Heaven. We will think of you all day, and of course we miss you always. You are always in our hearts. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
December 25, 2012
Merry Christmas in Heaven Steve ♥ It's just not the same without you with us. I miss you baby, wishing you could have been here with us, even though I understand why you could'nt. You're missed every day and loved year after year. Merry Christmas Baby, we sure do love you. Mama and Buddy ♥
January 1, 2013
Happy New Year to you in Heaven ♥ We sure wish you were here with us. I would have fixed you a little plate of New Years Day goodies. Another Christmas without you has come and gone. It was a nice Christmas, but you were missed very much. In a few months it will be five years, and I miss you every day of my life. Wherever I was, there you were. Last night was fireworks, and made me think back about how they scared you so much, and now they scare Cooper. I love you Steve with all my heart and always will. I wish I could get another sign from you like that first one. That was a gift I will never forget. With all our love, Mama and Buddy ♥
February 1, 2013
It's that time again. Mama always writes to you on the 1st of every month. Cant forget my baby. Another sweet baby went to Rainbows Bridge yesterday. Her mama is very sad, and how well I know that feeling. Her name is Millie, and I hope you were there to greet her, and make friends. I know she's a cat, but she was a very special cat, and sweet like you. I will never forget that time your Buddy and I were walking you down Crystal Lk. and a cat came up and kissed you on the cheek. That was so sweet, and do you remember the cat who was going to have babies? All you wanted to do was get close to her, and check her out, so I let you. She was ok with that, and so were you. You had never gotten to get up close before. I have my memories, but I sure do miss my baby. We love you Steve, and you will never be forgotten. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
March 1, 2013
I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and had'nt forgotten about today. We miss you very much Steve and love you. The months are going by so quickly, and yet it seems forever since you last sat in my lap or snuggled with me on the bed. You are very much missed. Love you forever, Mama and Buddy ♥
April 1, 2013
Mama tries to never forget to write to you every month. I sure do miss you Steve ♥ Next month will be five years since we last saw you, and not a day goes by that I dont miss you sweetheart. I kiss your pictures and urn every night before I go to bed and still tell you your bedtime prayer. You will never be forgotten, and will always be missed and loved. Your Buddy is alot stronger than I am, but I'm certain that he misses you just as much, and I know he loves you. I guess just mama's think about writing. I hope you had a Happy Easter in Heaven with all your friends, and my friend Elizabeth. She's a very sweet lady, and loves all the sweet babies. We love you Steve. Please never forget us. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
May 1, 2008
Today is your fifth year marker Steve. It's hard to believe that it's been five years since we had to make the hardest decision in our lives, and let you go to Heaven. Such a very difficult and heartbreaking day and night for us both, and years to follow. I wonder if you know how much I miss you baby, and wish I could still hold you in my arms. I love you with all my heart, and miss you every day. I wish you could have stayed with us forever, but we could'nt let you go on suffering. Bless your heart Steve, I will never forget what you were going through that last day, and how both your Buddy and I prayed that God would make you better. My prayers were always answered before then, and I just knew in my heart, everything was going to be ok, but sadly was shown the xrays and told it was possibly cancer. I'm so sorry baby. I try not to think about the last day we had together, as I cannot help but cry when I do. We will never forget you, always miss and love you forever and ever. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥ Please dont forget us.
June 1, 2008
I sure do miss you baby. A few nights ago there was a dragonfly on our balcony sitting on the porch light, and I felt like you sent us a sign. I'd like to think so, since it's been so long since your last one. One day a long time ago a black and white butterfly followed me in the parking lot, til I got to the end. When I was coming back from the store, once again it followed me almost all the way home. Of course I said "hi Steve", and went home to tell your Buddy about it. Later, he had to go to the store, and the same butterfly followed him. I just wish we would get more signs from you. I think about you every day and night, and hope one day we will all be together again. I love you Steve, and Buddy loves you too. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
July 1, 2013
Well, it's the first of the month, and here I am as always, writing to you. We're doing ok, not much going on these days. I don't work anymore, so I have a lot of time to spend with Cooper. I wish I could have been home with you more, but back then, I had no choice, but to work. I still wish it could have been different though. I'm still seeing lots of dragonflies zooming around, and always think of you when I watch them. One time one was chasing another one, and that was funny. I've also been seeing a pretty yellow butterfly lately.......wondering if you sent that to me? Well, I sure do love you sweety, and miss you so much. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
August 1, 2013
I wasn't sure if I could write to you today using my tablet. Both computers had to go get fixed the other day. I dont know what to write. Everything is about the same here. I'll write again when I get my computer back. This little tablet is so slow. We love you, Mama and Buddy.
September 1, 2013
Well today I write to you as it is the first of the month again, and also add you to Monday night's candlelighting ceremony. You are never forgotten, and always missed. I hope you've made lots of friends in Heaven. We are ok, but having a hard time. I'm sorry I don't have much to write to you about, but nothing has really changed. Your aunt Dorothy is sick all the time, she is old now. I remember when she forgot to bring you treats one time. You went through her purse looking for them, and got so mad when you didn't find anything, and pulled out all of her Kleenex's, then didn't have anything to do with her the rest of the day. Ha! She never forgot again. Lesson learned! We love you baby and miss you every day. Love, Mama and Buddy.
October 1, 2013
I don't know what to write, as I just wrote to you in the candle lighting service, lol! I think about you every day, miss you so much, and I always tell you that. Its been so long since you sent me a sign, unless all the dragonflies are from you. I guess there will never be a sign like the first one, the night you went to Heaven. I keep hoping for more like that one. We love you sweet boy. Please help the Lord watch over us, as we are really having a difficult time. Love you always and forever. Mama and Buddy ♥
November 1, 2013
It's been five years and six months now, since you went to Heaven. Such a long time ago, yet when I think of our last day together, it still feels like it was yesterday. I miss you Steve, and every night I kiss your pictures and tell you I love and miss you. I never fail to tell you your bedtime prayer every night before I go to sleep. Please never forget us, we love you so much, and always will. I don't know if you think about us, but you are always in our hearts. I love you with all my heart and soul. Love, Mama and Buddy ♥
December 1, 2013
Sometimes it's so hard for me to think of something different to write to you. Hardly anything ever changes around here. Soon it will be Christmas again, and I'm just not looking forward to it at all this year. Last year was our first Christmas since you left us, and it was nice, but this year we just cant afford anything. We love you and miss you and wish you were still here with us. I'm sorry this is so short, but have to add you to the candle lighting service too. Love, Mama ♥
January 1, 2014
Here I am again with the same problem I had last month. Not knowing what to write to you about. Your buddy and I have been having a lot of problems lately and we didn't have Christmas this time around. I wish I could think of something happy to say. There is one thing though, your buddy got a new job which starts soon. It will be a learning experience, something different, and I'm hoping he will enjoy it. I don't feel good tonight, so I cant be on here too long. I love you baby, and miss you every day. Your mama still tells you your bedtime prayer every night just like always. I remember how you would listen to your prayer, then we'd kiss each other goodnight. So sweet! Don't ever forget about us ok, and please help the lord watch over us. We love you, Mama and Buddy ♥
February 1, 2014
Here I am again on the first of the month. Thought I better write a little note before I go to bed. I'm not feeling too good tonight, so sorry that this will be short. I don't know what to write, other than my usual, that we miss you and love you very much Steve. Cant hardly believe it will be six years on the first of May. Just doesn't seem possible, nor does it seem possible that Cooper will be five this month. Not much going on here, other than your Buddy has got a new job, and I'm hoping that someday he will like it, lol! We've really gone through a hard time, and I'm hoping things will fall into place soon. Well baby, I don't know what else to write. Just didn't want you to think I had forgotten. We sure do love you. Mama and Buddy ♥