by Sarah Moore
This morning i was awoken by the worst possible ways, my father screaming and shouting, i was scared to death had there been a break in? was there someone hurting him? did somthing happen that caused him to have a heartattack since his bypass surgerys not even been a month ago.. No i ran outside to find my father crying and screaming over our neighbor's dog cocoa barely 4 months old she was given to me & my parents by my dads sister but when dad was put into the hospital i realised i was not able to take care of her and our neighbors who had took her and watched her while dad was in the hospital had started loving her, so i did what i thought was best i asked mom & dad and then told the neighbors they could have her..
Cocoa had been hit by a car while my dad sat outside in our van (he does this alot of mornings) and befour his very eyes this tiny little puppy was run over merclessly by someone driving a blue seville.. they knew they had hit her and they left here there to die did not even slow up, dad ran out to the road and gathered her into his arms, this man who just less then a month ago almost died having surgery on his own heart gave that little puppy CPR as best as he could crying over her lifeless body and trying to bring her back he dumped her into a bucket of water as he realised shock had set into her tiny body and as i was watching she started breathing, opened her eyes and i had hope she would live, if only we could get her to a vet if only we could get our neighbors (who were both at work) to come and take her ASAP.. Nomatter how hard i tried to contact Jenny, it was about 2hrs after i called her work befour she could get back to us and during this time despite me taking one of my mothers oxygen tanks and giving oxygen to little cocoa she died in my father's arms.... How the gods can be so cruel i don't understand the meaning behind this, she was innocent and sweet always happy always cute and ready to play and i loved her dearly.. i thought giving her to the neighbors she would live a long happy life how could i know she would be killed not even having lived a year on this earth.. i regret giving her to the neighbors if she were still mine she would have been on a leash and safe.. or so i believe.. i don't blame the neighbors.. i blame myself i have always believed i am a cat lover, never had a puppy had me in it's little paws like Cocoa i just wanted her to have love and care and i wasn't able to give it to her.. now she is dead.. i have cried alot of tears in my life for many reasons.. but today as the gray rain streaked skies are above me my heart and soul match the weather perfectly i never knew i could love an animal so much and be hurt so badly.. Cocoa RIP little girl... i wish i had the power to bring her back... i know she's not hurting now.. i just have to wait for my own guilt and pain to slowly fade..