by Chas Mauch
Toby,
I was thinking about again today as always. I feel so guilty about what happend,like i should have done more. We all noticed you had an upset tummy but thats all we thought it was. We had no idea how severe it was. I thought your gums looked pale but part of me said I was overreacting because you just had a little vomiting. I should have known,I should have done something. You seemeed better on that Saturday night,you even wanted to go for a walk like usual. I am so glad I took you,but i had no idea it would be the last time. You were your normal self,carrying sticks and tail wagging like crazy. Then all the sudden early Sunday you got worse,you wouldn't drink or stand up or anything. We tried to help you hold on those few precious hours,we know you you tried baby. You just couldn't do it. The vet would have opened in only two hours. You couldn'y do it though. There was no emergency vet open around here. Had we realized on saturday how bad you were we would have driven you to any vet we could but you seemed okay. We are all sorry, we let you down. You depended on us and we blew it. All the love and affection you gave and all the times you were there for us. The one time you truly needed us we failed you, horribly. Know all we have are memories of you. Like your beautiful voice,your high fives, hugs, handshakes and the fact that you were the sweetest dog we ever met. You were a beautiful dog lab/rott but you looked like a purebred black lab. I hope someday you can forgive our stupidity and the fact that we let you down even thoughwe will never forgive ourselves. We should have known more and done more. Now we are being punished with trmendous guilt and pain. We love you Toby moose and always will. Please forgive us.