by Hilary Matthews
Hey Kitty Cat, I am so sorry baby. I still feel guilty that I had to put you to sleep a few hours ago, even though I know it was the right thing to do. I spared you the pain and suffering that you might have experienced in the days ahead. Who knows... Maybe you would have lasted a few more days, but you had kidney failure. So, you had a peaceful death and you died with dignity. Or, so I keep telling myself. :(
I love you baby. And, I miss you. Its only beemI'm so glad that I was able to give you all the love and you deserved for the last two years of your life. You were 16 years when you chose me. You were old then. The fact that you lasted until almost 19 years just absolutely amazes me. You lasted longer than most kittys ever do. And, you had a great retirement home. Glad I was able to provide that for you. :)
Why did you chose me when you were brought to our house? Why - well, that I do know the answer to you. You were a 16 year out cat and wanted someone to love you and give you love. Your original owner gave you to us and our of Beth, Jackie, and I - you chose me. You knew that I wanted a cat so bad - especially a lap cat to hold and love. And, the fact that you wanted to sleep with me at night, uner the covers at times to was just an added bonus. I needed you and you needed me. So, I know why you chose me. Thank you girl... as I told you a million times this weekend, thank you for chosing me. I'm glad I was able to give you the love that you wanted. And, you were only mine, or I should probably say - i was only yours for 2 years, 2 months.
I just didn't think I would end up loving you so much. Kitty, still now, I can't believe he named you that. Ugh!! Kitty cat, you just tip toed your way into my life. I never thought I could love another cat, an ordinary cat that was not Siamese, the way I loved you. But, you had the meow of a Siamese...man, did you have a big mouth. And from such a small little girl. You might have been a small orange tabby, but you definately had the lungs of a siamese. BTW, tell Taffy, I said hello. I hope she was there waiting for you. Both of you guys were my babies...and I will miss you both forever.
Kitty, I so wish that I had you longer than the two years that I did. I bet you were so much fun and energetic as a younger cat. By the time you were mine, or I was yours, you were already an old lady. 16 is so old. But, to think you made it to a few weeks shy of your 19th birthday. Amazing. If only more cats (and their owners!) were that lucky. I'm soooooooooooo glad that I was able to give you a nice, loving home. And treat you like all kittys are supposed to be treated - spoiled rotten and loved.
You were such a great comfort to me these last few months after I found out that I had to move up here to Boston. I didn't want to leave DC. I didn't know what to do with you...to bring you or not. Glad I did....or at least tried. You still fared better than me giving you away to some stranger or having to put you asleep just b/c it was an inconvience for me. I'm glad I tried. You were old and the chances were iffy how you would fare. But, I tried. I hope you knew that. I do know that you knew I loved you. And, I know that you trusted me.
You made the trip and we made it here. We both tried. But, your poor little kidneys could not handle the move. Sorry baby. That was out of both of our control. Well, this is wayyyyyyy to long. I am glad that I had a place to say good-bye. I love you Kitty and will miss you more than anything in this world.
Love your Mom,
Hilary