by Iovino Mary
Your death today was so unexpected. I barely had time to adjust to the thought and I am so sorry we didn't get to spend more time together-I wish I had known! I remember when I first got you from the pet store five years ago. Oh Midnight, how could this happen, you were only five years-old. Frank bought you for me on my birthday, before we were even married. You were the first cat I ever had that was a Manx and such a licker! You always liked to lick my face, those were your kisses huh. After we got you, a few years ago we got two friends for you-Shadow and Bonzai. You and Shadow looked just like sisters, all black, silky and beautiful. How will we ever survive without you? We all miss you so much already! A month ago we knew there was something wrong with you because you weren't taking care of yourself so we brought you in to the vet. We thought it was just hairballs-god I wish I had known then what was to come because I should have spent more time with you then.... but I didn't know precious one....I'm so sorry. When we took you in yesterday again to the vet, we knew in our hearts (deep down) that you were very very sick. You didn't even meow once on the way to the vet and usually you howl the whole way there. I knew then that it must be bad, there was a sinking feeling in my stomach. The doctor said it was either diabetes or kidney failure. You were to be kept overnight and given glucose to see if it was diabetes. If it wasn't we knew what we would have to do-we didn't want you to suffer any longer if it couldn't be fixed. I couldn't sleep all night and cried and cried for I think I knew in my heart. The doctor called this morning and I didn't want to answer it. She told me you had kidney failure for sure. I told her I would be right in, because I would never let you go to sleep forever without me being there for you-no matter how much pain it caused me. I want you to know it was the hardest thing I ever had to do my friend, but I did it for you because I love you my darling sweet Midnight. I hope you went comfortably and at least I can be comforted in knowing you went over the Rainbow Bridge. I can't stop crying or thinking about you, I will miss you so terrible my little friend. Why was life so cruel to take you so young? I'm so sorry I couldn't do anything for you. The other cats are looking for you, their buddy. I took your collar with me and they are smelling it right now. They don't understand why you aren't with it and neither do I. All I can do is cry and look at your picture. We will all miss you so much Midnight. We loved you so much my dear friend, see you in a later life. Goodbye.
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