by Marie Carter
It's been exactly 3 months since I saw you on your journey over the Rainbow Bridge. Not a day goes by I don't think about you and shed years for you. I just want you to know that I did this for you, not myself. I pray that your last thought wasn't "What did I do wrong? Doesn't Mummy love me anymore? Doesn't she want me anymore?" In the end it was for you. You looked so tired, so sick, so ready.It hurt me to see you that way.
I'm sorry for not spending enough time with you...when Grandma was ill, when I was out at a friend's for heaven knows how long, when I was out running errands. Just know that I was thinking about you the whole time, and missed you. I hope that the time we spent together was as much fun for you as it was for me. Like when you were a tiny baby and climbed up my leg, when you "helped" with the laundry and making the bed, all the walks you went on with me. I treasure these memories above all else. I'm sorry for all the nonsense you had to put up with with that silly roommate and all her friends. You were a better sport about it than I was that's for sure!
Have you met my parents yet? Are Grandma Grandpa and their friends there too? I bet Grandpa can walk again and you guys run races! I hope my friend's bunny made it there ok. His Mom really him. Maybe he's helping Harry Houdini with magic tricks for all the little kid angels.
Have you gotten to meet any cool famous people? What's Vincent Price like? He's one of my favorites. Are there dinosaurs? I'm sorry for all the questions. I've got to stay here and look after your brothers and sisters, your aunts and cousins, so I'm just curious.
I know you come here from time to time. I've felt you and I think even seen you once or twice. I'm not afraid, you can come and go whenever you like. No more waiting for me to put the leash on you!
Raven, just know that I'll never,EVER forget you. I'll always love you. I'm trying my best to be like you, always kind and loving to others. You were my teacher, my inspiration. You rescued me, took care of me, although at the time I thought it was the other way around. For this I can NEVER thank you enough. For this, I chose to give you a dignified, peaceful way out of your pain, for we loved with a love that was more than love...
My friend, my dearest friend, my girl Raven, thank you for this. We'll meet again and have more lives together. I know we will.