by DEE MacIntosh
Dear Petey: I miss you so much and I knew in my heart that something was wrong with you but no one would listen to me. I blame myself for going away when you werent feeling too good. I knew in my heart that you had cancer but i did not push hard enough to get the answers i was looking for.
When I fist laid eyes on you in the dog pen on the farm, we knew you were the one. You were jumping up and down like you were saying"pick me. pick me" Well we did pick you and I still remember holding you all the way home and you were crying as if to say thanks for picking me!!!
I was such a nervous new mom. I fretted about how you would feel when I had to go to work and I worried about who you were going to play with. I loved when we took you to doggy playgroup every day and that made me ahppuyy knowing how happy you were.
You were my soul mate and you were my shadow. I loved every minute of you tagging around me becaus I knew you thought I was perfect and around you I felt that way. Well Petey you made the last 9 years of my life amazing. i loved holding you and kissing your fuzzy nose and even letting you hog the balankets every night. i use to love when people would get ticked off when you would sit on the couch like you were human!
Well the last month of your life was hard i know. I dont think you suffered but Petey if i made you sicker at the end by going on the trip I am so sorry. If I could do it over again i would have stayed with you. I truly believe that you waited for me to come home so we could say goodbye to each other. I remember petting you and telling you it was ok to go to heaven and not to stay alive for me. I truly beleive you were listening to me because 5 minutes later you were in pain. I was so glad to see the peace in your eyes as you were sedated. Petey i didnt like the shakiness you had in your skin but the vet said you were relaxed. Petey i cant stop the stears and I feel like i lost my bestest friend in the world. I knew you were my comfort but I didnt realize how much. You are and were truly my soul mate and I hate this pain. Why did god take you away from me when I was closer to you then anybody on this earth. I loved you more then alot of peple that i know. now i have to live without you and I am finding it hard. Petey do you miss me in heaven. I will see you there someday. I just wish i could hug you again. I am glad you are at peace and I will never forget you as long as i live.
oh Petey.......Give me a sign you are at peace...love your mommy xxxxxoooooo