One of my cats, Max, had this skin allergy and it started in January. He has been to the vet 4x in that period and taking diff meds. Finally the vet said he had no clue and suggested we take Max to see an animal dermatologist. I decided I was taking him to his old vet even though it was quite a bit away. So his appointment was last Saturday, 6/10/2006.

In the mean time Sheeba, another cat, (my favorite) started appearing real out of it. She slept with me for 16 yrs and suddenly last Thursday, she slept in the closet, and didn't get up for 12 hrs. When she did, she had a fever so I called the vet and they said bring her in same time as Max.

We were there for 15 minutes and found out Max had skin cancer, there was no medication or magic elixir to fix it...he was hurting...and I then decided I had to have him euthanized,
I couldn't let him hurt. I have had him for 10 years, he was 12 years old. I stayed in the room and said goodbye to him.
I thought my heart was breaking...I never expected he wasn't coming home anymore..
I am not prepared for this.

They decided to keep Sheeba overnight. I called the next morning (Saturday) and found out she had diabetes, was anemic, low electrolytes and her muscles were giving out. She would either need to be on 2 shots a day of insulin and weekly monitoring for the
rest of her life (the vet said the rest of her life meant 6 months to a year), or I could let her wait it out till the end, whenever that may be but she will be very sick.
She was 19 years old. I couldn't do either of those to Sheeba.

I asked the vet if I could come and get Sheeba and bring her home
for a couple of days just to say goodbye...

All I could do Saturday and Sunday was just lie next to her and talk to her...
She became weak so fast that she could barely turn over in the bed...
I had to pick her up to go to the bathroom. She stopped eating and drinking.

This is all happening so fast! Too fast!!!...I cant even think straight...I just lost Max so unexpectedly and now my Sheeba, my best friend...??
No this can't be happening...please, someone...wake me up...

I had to take Sheeba back to the vet this morning and I stayed with her until the end...
and my heart hurts so much...

This is so painful for me...I prayed to God to let me stay strong and I have been for about 10 hours, but now its sinking in...If someone would of told me 4 days ago that I would only have 3 cats left, I would of told them they were crazy. And now, I cant stop crying...

At one time I had 7 cats They never asked to be born, they all ended up strays, until they found my house...and I loved each and every one...they had such different personalities.
I thank God for the years I did have with Max and Sheeba and all the love and laughter, and tears, and worry (just like our children).
I just wanted to share this with you...Maybe its my way of trying to heal, but it hurts so much.
I swear my heart is breaking... Thank you for reading this.

Lori L Klocek