I went to see him one last time yesterday afternoon,
I received the call at 11:25am from the vets they did all they could and there was nothing more they could do Heart could not move his bowls he was constipated and they took x-rays to find his colon was blocked and full and not able to get him to go and even when they did two enemas and also manually tried to move with warm soapy water and there fingers he was opened yesterday and it was far to hard as a rock and was not going to come out he was in very bad pain I new I was going to have to make a decision I new I would find very hard to bear,

I went to see him at 2:00pm I spent over an hr with him as he was in such pain and I seen the tears that had filled his little wide eyes knowing he and I would both hurt no matter what as I held him in my arms he pulled his head under my chin I new he wanted to say his final love and good bye I cried my heart out and wanted to understand how such a wonderful companion with so my love he gave to me when I needed him most had to suffer as he did......

I reassured him how much his mommy loved him and would never forget him and how much this was hurting me that he was always so faithful and understanding to many he was just a cat with four paws and cute but to me he was my best friend and he was more human in kindness and understanding then most humans my sadness and heart break have just be gone let me tell you more about this wonderful cat he was one of seven kittens born in my home as I adopted his mom and then his father he had 2 sisters and five brothers I wanted to keep them all I new I couldn't I chose him meaning Heart and the Runt also who I named Taz they would become what I named them they bought so much joy to my life for before adopting there mother I had two very wonderful cats they where mother and son Mousse who was the mother of 6 kittens I only kept the runt who was socksie who also was born in my house here I lost them both in Dec of 2001 and my heart broke for Socksie was such a wonderful cat so loving I never thought when I lost him I would ever get close to another cat, I went to the Menands animal shelter on Dec 10th and found a many cats but one cat reached out for me and he was a long haired tigar I said ok he will be the one I bought him home on Dec 12th I named him Tony the tiger little did I no his life would be shortened he was great well behaved we spoiled him from the start he would eat and eat the first couple of days I thought wow he can eat then something changed he started sneezing and stopped eating and wasn't drinking we took him to a vet and was told he had canal cough that we needed to go back to the shelter with him as the vet did give us meds for him they at the shelter agreed he needed to have fluids pumped into him so that they did along with giving him meds they did this for a four days and then they finally said there was nothing they could do for him it was time to let him go on Dec 21, 2001 Tony left us my heart broke again and I was told I would not be allowed to adopt of bring another animal into my home for at least four months I buried Tony in my back yard I let a month go by and made the decision I would go to another shelter and find what I was longing for my husband found me a cat that looked almost like Socksie just it was a female we thought ok we will name her after my sister my husband named her Lynn cat spelled different then my sister my husband had no clue I then said ok maybe we can get a Socksie if we find her a mate we did well Socksie died Dec 8th of 2001 and His mother went to join him on January 8th 2002 we adopted Lynn Cat of I bought Lynn cat home on January 11th of 2002 and she was a job and a piece of work but after some time she was becoming my landlord as many may be aware your pets are the landlords lol they rule they make all the rules for us a couple months went by it was time to find a companion for Lynn we went to where went back to the same shelter where we found another black and white cat he would be the one although my big mouth got me into trouble they wouldn't allow me to adopt him for my plan was to mate him for kittens they wouldn't allow that so my husband had to go back and adopt him at the time I wanted him he wasn't fixed they did fix him before my husband picked him up and we'll I guess the job didn't work at all for Toby did manage to impregnate her as soon as he had seen her when he arrived in my home he raped her over and over.

Lynn Cat gave birth to 7 babies all black and white she had a hard time they had large heads but she was a good mother I picked two of the seven my husband feel in love with another so we kept 3 boys Heart, Taz, and Doc, we had also got there very first check up and first shout before they was all to go to there new homes they was 9 weeks old as they went to there new homes Oddball went to my niece Amber and I received a call from her around 10:36pm that something was wrong with the kitten he was limping I went and got her with Oddball my husband and I took Oddball to the vets emergency hospital he had a broken leg and was under weight I said this is it your not getting him back I am keeping him I was told there was nothing they could do for a broken leg I nursed him back to health and got very attached to him I couldn't really afford four kittens and there mother also so my husband tried to find a home for him it was to late I was already attached I wasn't letting him go I went and had him fixed and said no way I would give him up it is to confusion to there mother and to the other boys to have one of them come back and then be gone again because this wasn't the first one I took back also one of the females twice I at this time say I love my them all there mother turned up missing July 10th of 2003 I still have not found her but I still loved the four boys as they became like children to me and Heart was born with his siblings May 5th of 2001 his life was shortened he was 3 years 11 mouths and 5 days old Heart born May 5th of 2002 Died April 10th 2006

I have one thing left to Say I love you Heart and may you be free and at peace my little baby boy I will never ever forget you Mommy loves you and in my heart you will always remain