My Sunny, ~ its been just a week & I still look for your kisses in the morning & your warmth at night. If there ever was a soulmate in this world for me, it was you. I had you from birth, almost 19 wonderful years. I just wish it was the 93 yrs that you really are in cats life, & even that would not have been enough. You were my little guy, my pal, my Mr Magoo.... my Sunshine, my love. I hated to see you go the way you did, but if it had to be the 'shot' or die on the bed. I chose the bed, you died just a 1/2 hr before I was to take you to the vet to do the thing that I worst feared all your life. So I prayed that you would die at home, in your world. We talked about it, you & I, and just as you did all the time, you listened to me, one final time. I hope that I was not selfish by doing this, & did not cause you alot of pain, it was only because I found it so hard to let you go. Your body was beautiful, but your insides were sick. There was no time to even let it sink in that you had cancer. it took you in 4 days. I am sorry from the core of my heart if I let you lie there in pain, but I just did not know. I miss you terribly & the house is not the same without you. Kitty does not protect me the way you did, she does not kiss me the way you did. She is eating your dried food, but refuses to go into the kitty litter. I know she misses you too, but NO ONE misses you like I do, & I know you miss me too. Come visit as often as you want, theres always a bowl of food for you & ice cubes for your water, and a spot on the right side of the bed for you to lie on........ I wish I could touch you & stick my head into your chest & you hug me back...... & get kisses from you & give you your milk & ice cubes. Like we did everyday we were together. There'll never be another SunnyDay in my life. I love you..... look for the Balloon in the sky that I am going to send to you, with a aluminum foil ball at the end of it on the next SUNNY day.