01/11/2004 Well Baby Bulldog, here it is, we have now been in Phoenix a year and it seems like we just got here. We have missed so much of you and you missed out on my belly. Less than a month after we let you go Grant baby came and he had a bulldog baby to greet him too in your honor. We also had your picture in the delivery room as our focus. I remember all those times you would crawl onto my lap (if you could call it that) and your would rest your head on my belly and you would snore and Grant would kick, and that would go on for hours. He is getting so big, and so is Ginger. She is our new bully baby, although she will never replace what you are and always will be to us, we agreed that we wanted another bully in your honor. We even want to breed her. She isn't as quick witted and gracious as you were, in fact she's kind of a goof and she snores SOOO much louder than you ever did. In fact, it is kind of nice though. We had such a hard time sleeping until Grant came since it was so quiet, without you snoring under the bed. Grant had a little cold that he got from daycare and it reminded us of you, he snorted and snored in his sleep and breathed like you used to. Daisy still especially misses you, no one to keep her ears and eyes clean, she still sleeps on the couch waiting for you. But everyday I look at Grant and see that we had to let an angel like you go to bring our healthy angel into the world, GOd had to make room in the world and unfortunately you were the ultimate sacrifice for your Dad and I to have such a beautiful son. You would have had so much fun with him, he likes to pet Daisy when he can get control of his arms, she licks his baby food off of his hands. We know you would have been so patient around him and guarded him. Ginger has a lot of your bully traits, she is learning to talk to us like you used to, she hasn't quite got the "gotta go outside" talk down like you or the "you're going to the fridge" talk but she is getting there. We miss you buddy, in a few weeks we are going up north to see Grandma, Mark and everybody and we are taking a small bit of your ashes up there as well so you will always be in the mountains like you loved it. But we have you in the living room to watch over us and I have you also by my bedside, like you used to when you fireman crawled under the bed. Dad's buddies even did a Memoriam site, you know the one's he games with online, it was pretty darn cool. Anyway, we love you, always have, always will and it isn't the same without you. I miss you the most. I still remember when we picked you up the first day we got you, you just crawled into my lap and I knew you were the one, and you are. We love you, don't go too far, we will meet you soon. I know you were always so patient. Love Mom.