Sweety Gould's Memories
by Dianna Gould
The Story of a Very Special Lady > > Sweety Gould > > Not just a dog, but a Real person to me. > > > > AUGUST 15, 1989 AM , - JANUARY 3, 2004 12:18PM > > > > To my dearest little Sweetie, you were the cuttest little black on white > shih-su, with those great big brown eyes that when you looked at us, you > absolutely melted our hearts. You were my very best friend, ou were > happy to be a part of our family and I thank God for sharing you with me > for almost 15 years. > > > > Sweetie, you were a happpy surprise, notexected - but we welcomed you > with open arms. Your being kind of started like this: Your Mother > "Princess", also a classy and special Shih Su had became a part of my > life very unexpectedly, but a bond grew and grew, and I loved her to so > very much. She wanted so much to give me something special, after going > through two false pregnancies, and finding out from the doctor that many > dogs do that when they want to give their master's something special, in > this case she was trying to give me, as I call myself her Dady, just as > I am yours. > > > > It was very early in the morning and we heard Princess under the > bed with it sounded like she had a mouse, which was not at all like > Prince to catch a mouse. I bend down to look under and much to my > surprise - their you were, the cuttest, most addorable little thing I > have ever seen. > > > > Sweetie you were so very tiny that it was almost impossible to see > the little tiny wholes that were your nostrils, as you laid in my hand, > so tiny, so soft and with those beautiful brown eyes, it definitely was > love at first sight. At that time your first mommie,Rose my wife who > passed away in 93, her first words to be when she saw you was "ISN'T > SHE A LITTLE SWEETIE", and that is how your life, your name had it's > first beginning. > > > > Well Sweetie, even though you were very tiny your mother had > complications which caused surgery and you were unable to nurse from > her, but we handled it. I used to get up every two hours, no matter, > day or night and Princes and I became a team taking care of our precious > little Sweetie. > > > > As I would feed you with a tiny baby bottle, Princes would do her part > by licking you and showing you how much she loved you. > > I > > Sweetie you followed me every where, outside, inside, up the stairs, in > the bath room, you even participated in exercizing - if i layed down to > excercize you were on top of my chest to be a part of that too. I > never had to beg you when it was time to go to work, here you came > running down the stairs and you were ready to go - you were my little > helper. When I would fly the plane you were ready to get in it and be > of help any way you could, you just loved the airplane - and were the > best co-pilot I ever had. I guess people can say, we were inseprable. > > > > When people called you a dog, I would say NO Not my sweetie, she is a > classy little lady, and has a heart of gold. You were, and always will > be my life dear girl. > > > > Sweetie, in the evenings you had a special spot in the chair with me, > and I remember how you used to snug up and push your little behind to > get closer to me. I miss those nights that you would look at MOMMY > Dianna, you always knew evenings were snack time - you would sit on my > chair and talk to her, and get louder, continuing to stare out her til > she would get up and give you a snack too. > > > > Sweetie I miss those mornings when we would get up, I would tell you how > much you meant to me, and the louder I got the louder you got, and your > lips would try to form words, and I know if you could talk you would > have had alot to say. So many moments that I did not capture on a > video, or a camera, of those precious moments, but I know how much you > hated camers, as it reminded you so much of lighting, that freightened > you so much, so I will keep those memories in my heart, and my mind - > and meditate about them often. > > > > Sweety you were always with me accept for rare occassions, and now I > wish I would have taken you then, but it was really hard to take you > into a convention, or a restaurant, but the joy of seeing you when I > came home made everything better for both ofus. > > > > Even before I pulled into the driveway - you would be peeking under the > fence, so I always had to get out of the car and besure my nands were > emptied to greet my lilttle Sweetie. I would open the gate, and you had > a cute little richal that you did - You would first start to un tie my > shoes, then jump up on my pant legg, and before we got to the back door > you were in my arms with both your feet balancing by stuffing them into > my belt to hold you up - what a sight, and then the sugars would begin, > you were always so happy to see me. > > > > I have never had anyone idolize me like you did, with the exception of > your mother "Princess", God rest her soul, and I pray Sweetie your mommy > was their to greet you, and Rose is their at the rainbow bridge to walk > you till I meet with all of you one day. > > > > It has been very hard, and painful as their is such an emptiness within > me - When I go out to get in the car, and I still say comeon Sweetie, > and even after you couldnt hear any more, I pounded on the steps and you > felt the vibration and was ready to go. I can still see you sitting in > the back window of my car looking at everything, it was your favorite > spot - even when you couldnt do it any more you would look up as if > today, Im sorry Dad, cant guard the car any more. You did love to bark > at those motorcycles, and I thought you were quite a character - Sweetie > you were just the perfect little girl. > > > > I will miss you under my desk at the office, where if anyone put their > shoe to far you would nip them on their toe, not to hurt them just to > say , This is my poperty, as I'm sure that is the word you would use. > > > > I will miss you in the factories, and warehouses where you would get > in the little cart, and look around like you were the boss, and not > matter what I did you got right into what it was watching every move, > and participating - you were like my own personal little helper - > > > > You gave me so much joy Sweetie, you never complained even when it got > close to the end, you were a very classy little girl. Sweetie, I was > never alone and those years on the job in San Francisco, you were the > one who helped me get through it - I couldnt have done it without you - > > > > I'm looking up at the top of the steps, as that was your little spot > no matter what was going on around the house, you could see in all > directions from the mirror right below the steps - you never missed > anything. If I went in the back yard you could follow me, on the side, > or in the front you could follow me - I was never out of your site, and > if I was you would come down to see if everything was ok - you were just > always their. When we would have dinner, you were such a lady - I would > set your dish down, and no matter how hungry you were, I would have to > put the food in your mouth 2 tmes, and give you approval to start eating > before you would even take a bite out of your dish, what a class act, > such mannors you had, she was not like other dogs, she was almost like a > person, loving caring,polite, compasionate - she just couldnt give us > enough love - > > > > The hardest thing was when you got sick, coughing, and we removed your > lung in April, you still held up good never complaining - you were so > perfect, but we could see even when your sickness got worse your > hearing, left, your eye sight was blured but you still didn't complain, > and always had plenty of love, and sugars to give to us. > > > > I will miss the times in the shower when you loved to play towel, you > would grap it and run from side to side so happy to play towel, and even > tried a couple days before you got to sick. > > or you loved to have me rub your ears - which I did that all the way to > the doctor for you. > > > > Sweetie when we take our trips we will remember our little girl who we > would slip into hotels, with the words NO PETS, you would slip into your > little carry on bag, not making a move, or a sound while we took you up > in the elevators to our room - what a jewel you were. > > > > I remember last month in Las Vegas, the maid saw you sitting on the > chair, barely seeing you look up you were so quite, she didnt say a word > and you got to enjoy our little trip, which was the last trip you were > able to take. > > > > Sweetie, I know it was unberable in the end, but I know that Rose, > Princess, Houndog and maybe even your babies were waiting for you at > rainbow bridge with their arms open to you,and lots of love- and sugars, > and remember Sweetie, you will not suffer, or hurt any more - your pain > is gone, and I pray that you will forgive me, but I just couldnt see you > suffer any more. Your last night was so hard, Mommy sat up with you all > night and we had the oxygen on you most of the night - you finallly when > to sleep with Mommy rubbing your little head and telling you it was ok > to go- My heart aches for you and always will, to see you leave this > world at the doctors office broke my heart - and holding you in my arms > to the cemetary, with your soft little limp body - but I knew I would > ache, but your pain was now gone. Forgive me for being so selfish and > holding on to long - but my love was to strong go let you go. > > > > I hope that I did the right thing Sweetie, and I look forward to the day > that I will be with my little girl once again - when I carry you in my > arms when we walk through Heaven Gates, together for all eternity. > > > > Sweetie, I know that your spirit will always be with me,and I know when > I feel a breeze, a little wind like a feather on my arm, or legg, and > your visits in my dreams - it is your way of saying - it's okay Dady, > becaues Ilove you too -and I am with you always. I love YOU Sweetie girl. > > > > > > Her spirit will always be with us, and her memroy will last for ever - > not a day will go by that she won't b ein my toughts and prayers - and I > look forward for the time she will visit me in my dreams letting me know > that she is at piece - and pain free, and letting me know that she is > waiting for her daddy (Orval), thank you Lord for that promises that we > will all betogether again, happy again. > > > > WE LOVE YOU SWEETIE - Mommy, & DADDY - You are missed. > > > > She was the perfect friend, and will be missed depply - > > You are so loved Sweetie - You are loved by your Daddy, and Dianna and > once we get through the tears we can think better > > Love you Sweetie Gould who passed away 1 /3/04 in our arms. >


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