I lay awake thinking of you. Wondering where you have gone. Little things happen here. Making me think you are still at home. A noise here a thump there. Noises that make me think. I wonder if you are still here. Making yourself known to me. Little bumps and a little jarring of the bed. Things you used to do. I wake up looking for you and realize you are not there. I start to cry wishing you were there. I remember all the annoying things like it was just today. But it was those annoying things that made you who you are. Those eyes you had would tell me everything you wanted me to know. It was like you could speak to me and I would know just what you wanted. You looked at me with Love in your eyes. which made it so hard to be mad at you. You knew just how to get me to smile when I was sad. How to calm me down when I was mad. Filling my world when I was lonely. Leaving me alone when I needed some space to think. You loved to play our silly little games. Chasing the ball, or playing chase. Barking at the cats in the area. And talking to all your friends too. I sometimes hear you barking and and I want to find you. But I know it was only a dream. But there are them little things that happen. That makes me wonder alot. If you are not here physically. Are you still here in the spirit? Watching over me to make sure I'm ok. I cry alot because I miss you. But it goes away quickly. I sit here feeling lonely. Then this warmth comes over me. I know you are still here. You will never leave me.