2/21/2020 - Hello my sweet baby boy. It's been two days since you gained your angel wings and mommy is just so sad. I know you must be so happy that you are no longer in pain and so is mommy. We all are. Mommy just misses you so very very much. I miss you showing me you little fat belly and your little beautiful face on the arm and cushion of the couch. Your sweet face on the green chair. Your little tiny chicken wing legs. It's been such a rough couple of days. Thank you to Sammy and Mimi for watching over daddy ins surgery today. I hope you guys are all together and that you feel mommy's love still even though your beautiful fur suit is gone. One day we will be together my beautiful, funny, happy baby boy. I cannot wait. In the meantime will you please come visit mommy. This will always be your home. I will feel you in my heart and see your precious face everywhere I go. Please don't forget me and please tell Sammy and Mimi mommy loves and misses them to. Love you so very much my little Chino Nino Bambino... Mommy
2/26/20 - Hello my sweet baby boy. Today is a week since I last held your little body in my arms and kissed your sweet little head, and held your tiny little paw. We miss you so much Chino. Especially mommy and grandma. I can't believe you are really gone. Thank you again my sweet funny, happy boy for all the laughs and smiles you gave to us. You were certainly a beautiful little soul with the spirit of a lion. You were so full of life. You were a great gift to mommy. I will never forget you. Mommy is so very sorry she made you go through those two surgeries only to have to say goodbye to you in the end anyway. You were a little trooper through the surgeries. I'm so sorry if you suffered in the very end. I know that you are no longer suffering and that you are free. Please, please my little Chino Nino Bambino, wait for mommy and show me a sign. I hope you hear mommy sing to you Sammy and Mimi every morning. I hope you can still feel my love. My heart is broken baby boy and it would help so much if you could let me know you can hear me and feel my love. I will carry you Sammy and Mimi in my heart wherever I go. You will always be a part of me and you will always have my heart. I cannot wait until you, me Sammy, Mimi are all together again. What a beautiful day that will be. Happy one week furangelversary. I miss you baby. Love you always and forever love Mommy
3/4/20 - HI again my sweet funny happy boy. Mommy came by to say hello again as today is two weeks since we said goodbye. I miss you so very much my sweet little boy. Mommy's birthday is Friday. I don't have you my sweet little Chino, Sammy or Mimi to spend it with me. I don't even care about it. All I want is you Sammy and Mimi back. Why, oh God why, did he take you from me. I have learned so much from you my sweet boy. I learned to be happy, and I am trying to be happy, it's just too hard without you. Some days are better than others, but I cry every day for you. Can you feel my love my sweet baby boy? Can you hear mommy sing to you, Sammy and Mimi? Can you please send me a sign so that I know you can? I hold you forever in my heart baby angel boy. Everywhere I go you Sammy and Mimi are right there with me. Do you know that the only one left out of your pack is Desota (Meow Meow). It was me, Daddy, Sammy Desota, you and Mimi for a long time. We were such a happy little family. Then we finally moved and Sheba and Grandma came to live with us. After Sammy passed you were so sad we had to find you a buddy and find you a buddy we did. Scrappy came into our lives and you two were so cute together. Cocoa also came into our lives after Mimi passed. Now you Sammy and Mimi have left me. I have Desota, Scrappy and Cocoa. It's not the same without you. I miss everything about you my little guy. Please come visit mommy. I need you so much. Have fun with Sammy and Mimi and let them know I miss them too. Play and be happy my little guy, because you truly were always such a happy, funny little soul. Don't forget me my sweet little Chino Nino Bambino...You are always in my heart and always a part of my soul. I will visit soon. Love always and forever, your mommy.
3/6/2020 - Hello my funny, happy sweet little Chino. Today is mommy's first birthday without you in 9 years. I so wish you Sammy and Mimi were here to celebrate with me. Instead I just wish it would pass. It's almost over. I hope you Sammy and Mimi are all playing together and having fun and Mommy hopes you can still feel my love. Please don't forget me my little Chino Nino Bambino, and please come visit mommy again when you can. Mommy will love you always and forever, love Mommy
3/11/2020 - Hello my sweet happy funny boy. Today is 3 weeks without you and its killing me. I miss you more than words can say. Mommy still cant sleep on her bed. I'm sleeping on the couch where you used to love to be after your surgeries and when you weren't feeling well. I hope you can feel my love my little sweet guy. I hope you are running and playing with Sammy and Mimi. I lit a candle for you tonight. I hope you know how much I miss you. We all di. I will never forget your cute little face and your funny antics. How do I go on without you. Everyday I come home from work I get anxiety because your not there waiting for me. You are mommy's special little guy. Please come visit mommy again sweet angel. Please let me know you feel my love. Was that you sending that butterfly today right to my car window when I was stopped in traffic and talking to you. I hope you are still happy sweet Chino. Mommy will love and miss you always. I carry you Sammy and Mimi in my heart always and forever. Please dont forget me my love. Mommy will always need you so dont forget to visit me. In sending you Sammy and Mimi all my love until we are together again. I love you for all eternity...love always mommy💖🐾😪💕
3/18/2020 - Hello my little sweet, funny happy Chino. Mommy's little baby doll boy. A month ago today at 9:22 you gained your angel wings. I cannot believe it's been a month already. I miss you so very much. I think about you ever day. Sometimes I smile with tears in my eyes and sometimes I cry so hard. I picture you and Sammy and Mimi celebrating the day when you joined them in heaven. I hope you are having a wonderful day full of treats and chasing each other around. Oh how mommy misses you. My heart still aches for you Sammy and Mimi. I love you so much. thank you, thank you for all the love, the laughs and smiles you gave us, and continue to give us through our memories of you. I hope you feel mommies love every day still. Mommy will love you always for all eternity. Please don't forget about me my little one. Please know that I still need you so much so if you could visit mommy it would help her from being sad all the time. You can visit me any time you want. Mommy needs to know that you are still with me and you are waiting for me. Please tell Sammy and Mimi how much I miss them too. I will continue to sing and talk to all three of you for the rest of my living days. Have fun today and always my little Chino Nino Bambino. You will always have a piece of mommies heart and soul. I miss you baby boy, my little buddy, my baby doll. Don't forget to come see me okay? Love always and forever, your mommy forever.
3/25/2020 - Hello my sweet baby boy, my happy funny little guy Chino. Today it has been a month and one week since you left your beautiful little fur suit. Mommy misses you so very much. How I long to hold you and kiss you beautiful face and to pick you up like a little baby, the way mommy always did. I can't stop crying. I know you are at peace now and no longer in pain or suffering. I hope you a running and playing with your big brother Sammy and little kitty sister Mimi. I am so glad that they were there to greet you. You will always be my little baby boy. I guess you know now that we got another little doggy for Scrappy to have some company as he missed you so. She is really cute and in no way will she ever replace you. That could never happen, but I am glad that we were able to find Scrappy a little friend and that we were able to give her a new home and family. You know that the only one I have left of the original pack is Meow Meow (Desota). We were all so very happy together and I just wish that you were all, you Sammy and Mimi were still here. Nothing will ever replace any of you. You are all in my heart every day. I hope you hear mommy sing to you. I will love you forever, and I cannot wait to be with you again my little one. You Sammy and Mimi were my world and always will be. I will try to remember all the happy times we all shared together until we are all reunited. Please don't forget me. Please wait for me and send me signs whenever you can. I still and always will need you. I love you always my little Chino Nino Bambino. I will write again soon. Have a wonderful day sweet angel and please tell Sammy and Mimi hello for me. Love you always and forever, love...mommy
4/19/2020 - Hi my sweet baby boy. Today is 2 months without you, but it feels like forever. I miss you so much my Chino Nino Bambino. You were such a happy funny sweet little guy and such a fighter. You fought so hard and recovered so well after you surgeries. Mommy is always going to be so proud of you. I miss you every day with all of my heart. I miss You and Sammy and Mimi so much! I lit a candle today right at the time you and I arrived at the vets office to send you to see your brother Sammy and kitty sister Mimi. I hope you know how much it hurt me to do it but I could not see you in pain anymore. I still sing to you Sammy and Mimi every day and I always will so that you can hear me and feel my love for you always, until we can be together again. Please have fun playing with Sammy and Mimi and tell them mommy misses them too. Thank you for all of your love, and all of the laughs and all of the precious moments we shared together. I will always remember carrying you to bed to be with Daddy and Sammy. You were just like a baby. You even made baby noises. You were and always will be my little man, my baby doll, my Chino Nino Bambino. Thank you for the feathers out on the deck the other day. Please keep sending me signs my angel boy, so mommy knows you still hear me and feel my love. How I wish I could carry you to bed at night still. Please feel mommy hugging you when she closes her eyes and pictures it. I miss you terribly my little guy. Please don't forget me. I will always be your mommy. Love you always and forever sweet Chino. I will write again soon. Love you always and forever, mommy.
5/19/2020 - Hello my sweet funny boy Chino. this morning was 3 months without you. I lit a candle, held your diaper, your teddy and your little shirt by my heart and cried my eyes out for you. I miss you so very much my little Chino Nino Bambino. I hope you felt my love and felt me holding you with my heart and soul. I wish so much that you were here with Sammy and Mimi, but I know you are in heaven with both of them. I hope you hear mommy singing to you and talking to you every day. Oh, Chino, how I wish you would send me a sign to let me know you are still with me. You seem so far away, and my heart is still completely broken. How I miss my little happy funny little snorere, my baby doll boy, my little chicken wing legged man. My trooper and fighter. Mommy will never stop loving and missing you. I hope you are playing with Sammy and Mimi. Please tell them mommy misses and loves them so much. I cannot believe 3 months have gone by. It seems like forever. I cried for you the first moment I was told you had cancer. Then we did the surgery and everything seemed liked it would be fine. You were a trooper. Then another mast cell tumor appeared and we had a more invasive surgery done and again you were a little trooper. Then the 3rd time, I did not want you to have go through that again, so mommy put you on all of those herbs hoping it would help, but it didn't your tumor grew and grew and there was nothing we could do. I wanted Lap of Love to come here and help you cross easily but you could not hold on any longer and mommy had to rush you to have Dr. Elmer ease your pain and send you to see Sammy and Mimi. I'm sorry my love. I did everything I could for you and I would do it a thousand times over if I could have you back. I know one day, I will be with you Sammy and Mimi. Everyday that goes by is a day closer that I get to be with you and hold you and kiss you. Please don't ever forget about me. Please send mommy signs that you hear me and feel my love. Please my love know that I will always love you and cannot wait to be with you Sammy and Mimi again. I'm holding you tight in my heart until we meet again, sweet, funny, silly Chino Nino Bambino....love always, you mommy
7/19/2020 - Hello my sweet boy. Today Mark's 5 months since you left this world a wsnt bw with your Sammy and Mimi. You fought so hard my little, and mommy misses you every day. I still remember your little prance, your snores, how you always wanted to show mommy your precious little belly. Mommy caries you Sammy and Mimi in my heart everywhere I go. I still sing yo you. I hope you feel mommies love my precious little babydoll. You were such a happy little guy so full of life. You had the heart of a little lion. I know you are no longer in pain now, but mommy's heart hurts everyday, since you left and it always will until we are reunited again. You,Sammy and Mimi. Please dont forget me my little diaper boy. Dont forget how much mamma loves you. Please come visit me in my dreams and please bring Sammy and Mimi with you. I will write again soon. I love you forever and all eternity, love your mommy
8/19/2020- Hello my little funny, silly happy baby, Chino Nino, my bambino. I cant believe its been 6 months since you gained your little angel wings. Mommy misses you terribly. Every morning I wake up, you Sammy and Mimi are on my mind. Same throughout the day. At night time, I miss carrying you to bed to be with Daddy and Sammy. You were such a happy little guy. Full of life. You will always be my little lion heart. I guess you know by now uncle Roger's dog Max has joined you Sammy Mimi and Barney. I hope you are all playing together as you used to here. I know Sammy will show him the ropes there where all my beautiful babies are. I miss you so much ny little happy baby. I hope you still feel mommy's love and I hope you still hear me sing to you, now that you can hear. I pray every day, that we will all be together again one day, and we will play and hug and kiss. Thank you for being my little Chino Nino Bambino. Thank you for all the laughs and all the happy memories. Mommy will carry you, Sammy and Mimi everywhere I go. I love you and miss you so much. It's still quite painful, but I know you are free of pain and you are with your big brother Sammy , who you adored and love so much as well as with your little kitty sister Mimi who you liked playing with. Mommy hopes with all her heart that you dont forget about me. Please send me signs so I know you are with me always and forever. Please help Sammy show Max around. I miss you soooo much. Always know how much I love and miss you my sweet little funny happy guy. Love you always and forever, love mommy💗🐕🐾🐈💕💜
9/19/2020 - Hello my happy, funny little boy. My Chino. It's so hard to believe that today is 7 months since you left your oh so cute little fur suit. Mommy misses you more than you can ever know. I just want you to know how grateful I am that you came into our lives. Those times you ran away, and we found you. When you almost ran into traffic, and mommy grabbed you just in time. You Sammy, Mimi and Desota made up mommy and daddys beautiful little family. We all had so much fun together. I know you are now running free with your big brother Sammy and little kitty sister Mimi. I still think of all three of you everyday, and always will, until mommy's soul turns into spirit form and we can all be together again. I have to take care of Grandma and Desota and all the other little ones for now, but every day that goes by is another day closer to being with you. You always made me laugh and smile. Your beautiful snores and grunts. Mommy misses you always. Even you peeing in the house. Oh what I wouldnt give for you to be doing that again. But mommy understands, it was your time to move on. You fought so hard for mommy, and I thank so much. I tried everything I could for you, my sweet little guy. I know you know this. I hope you are still visiting mommy and Scrappy and Desota, and grandma and daddy. Maybe you have even met Sweet Pea and Sophie. Run free my beautiful little angel. Run free with Sammy and Mimi. Always remember how much mommy loves you. Please dont forget me, and please dont forget to come visit me. Mommy will write again soon, my silly, funny sweet, Chino Nino Bambino. Love you always....your mommy.
10/19/2020- Hello my sweet funny happy little boy. I hope you Sammy and Mimi are having fun with all your new friends. Mommy misses you so much. So many things are happening and I wish you were here to comfort mommy. I need you so much. I heard your bark last night while I was sleeping. Thank you so much for letting me know that your spirit is with me. Thank you for all your goofiness, and your fisty little spirit. I hope you still here mommy sing to you and talk to you and call out your name. Not a day goes by where I dont think about you, Sammy and Mimi. You were my spunky little guy, so full of life. You made me laugh and smile. I still can picture your little prance, and I can still remember your snores that were so loud coming from such a little guy. Thank you for loving me Chino. Thsnk you got making mommy laugh. Thank you for loving mommy. I cant wait until you Sammy and Mimi are all together again. Every day is ine day clos