by Mark Davis
Youve been gone now for just a day or two,
But I cant begin to describe how much I miss you.
I geuss, in reality we both died on that cold metal table in the vets offce you know,
My childhood died in there but I wish you had left the world, with your eyes closed.
It was so hard for me to talk to you Horse, when I knew you were not really there,
Because I was looking into your eyes, and all I got back from you was a blank stare.
My only bit of comfort is that you went peacefully and your suffering is done,
I think of you now with other dogs, chasing them in an open feild, having so much fun.
It rips me apart, wanting to go find you, to pet you and play,
I am not getting any better though Horse, but Im trying to take it day-by-day.
It kills me to know, you will never come again when I call,
And I dont have anything left of you, except for our memories, that is all.
I wish you hadnt left me Horse, but I geuss it was just your time,
It hurts going through the day, knowing you are no longer in my life.
This wouldnt hurt me so much, and I wouldnt feel so bad,
If you werent the best friend that I ever had.
Since you left me, everything around here, just seems so wrong,
Life doesn't feel quite the same, now that you are gone.
~Mark Jan 8th, 2004 1:45 AM
I know I need to give it time, but it doesnt seem any easier, I know its only been 2 days now but, each day it seems harder to deal with. I still keep wanting to go over and pet him, a few times I have just about gotten to the corner, to where his bed was, then I realized he is not gonna be there. It is the worst feeling in the world.