09-04-2010 My Dearest Boo,
Its been two days since you left us and the pain I feel is unbearable. I miss you so much. I pray you are with Casey and he is taking good care of you. Please forgive me I know you suffered but I couldn't let go so you waited for me to leave and then you died. I think you knew more than I did that you had to make the decision because Mommy couldn't let you go. I love you so much Little Girl and I don't know how to go on with out you. Please send me a sign so I know you are OK. Come and visit me I look for you in all your favorite places. Maggie is so sad, she looks all over the yard for you. She doesn't understand.I need to know you are OK my best friend. I especially miss you at dinner how you'd jump up on the dishwasher so I could feed you, your little butt wiggling and tail wagging. You ate right up until the day you died. When you wouldn't eat I should have let you go because in my mind I knew but my heart didn't know. I had to tell Ryan yesterday and we cried together. He loved you so much. Everyone loved you. Boo Boo this is very hard to do because it feels so final. I will be back later and until then remember; I will always love you... Mommy
09-04-2010 I can't get you off my mind. Please send me a sign so I know you remember all the love I had and still have for you my little Boo Boo. I will always love you.. Mommy
Boo, Many people have visited you and you have so many new friends. Please send me a sign Boo. I love you and miss you so much. I know you and Casey are laying side by side like you did on earth. Please know how much you are loved and missed. Remember Boo; I will always love you... Mommy
09-06-2010 Good morning my angle dog. Have you found Casey? I am certain he was there when you arrived. Boo Boo I miss you so much I can hardly stand the pain. I know you want me to be happy that's how you were always happy especially eating your treats. You LOVED to eat and you loved your candy. That was the only time you's growl at Mags is when you were having your sweets. You loved every one of them. Yes, you had some you loved more but I think smarties and ice cream were your favorite. Please send me a sign Boo so I know you and Casey are together happy and healthy. I miss you so much I don't think I can handle this pain Boo. You were so special and I bet all your friends love you. Do you know how much you were loved? I hope you do because I loved you with all my heart and soul. I miss you more than words can tell. Please send me a sign. Remember Boo I will always love you...Mommy
09-08-2010 Good morning my angle girl. I miss you more than words can describe. I don't know when the pain will stop. Mags is so lonely without you. Please Boo come visit Mags today. She needs you and so do I. I love you little girl and I can hardly believe you are gone from my life. I never wanted this day to come. I miss you so very much. Remember Boo Boo I will always love you... Mommy
09-09-2010 Good morning Angle dog. Today we bring you home. This will be bittersweet but you will be --here with us again. I have a place for you next to Casey forever. I heard the wind-chimes last night was that you BOO? I miss you so, Remember Boo; I will always love you... Mommy
09-10-2010 Boo Boo I can hardly believe you have been gone 8 days. Sometimes it feels like an eternity and other times it feels like yesterday. I miss you so much Boo. Maggie misses you to. We are having a pretty hard time without you. Please send us a sign Boo. I love you more than life. I don't know how to go on without you.I will write tomorrow until then Remember; I will always love you... Mommy
09-10-2010 Boo I had to come visit you. I love you and miss you so much. My heart aches for you. Little girl please send Mommy a sign, I need to know you and Casey are together. Please Boo come visit, I won't be scared. I need you,if only I could hold you and have one of your puggy kisses that I loved so much.please Boo come home to me some how in some way. I love you. I'll be waiting to "hear" from you, please come. Until then my angle girl remember; I will always love you.... Mommy 09-11-2010 Boo this is a difficult day, I wish you were here lying under my desk like you use to. I know I keep asking for a sign. Maybe you are sending them and I am blind. I miss you so much and I love you more than life. Until we are together again. Remember; I will always love you... Mommy
09-11-2010 Oh God Boo I want you back at home I miss you my angle girl. I hope one day we are together forever. Until then Remember; I will always love you.... Mommy
09-12-2010 Good morning angle dog. Today should be a great fun day but it is full of sadness. Today is the first regular season Bronco game. Remember how you would hide out in the bedroom because you hated the way Ryan and I yelled and screamed for joy! I always cooked dinner during the game and that is when you'd come out God Boo you loved life and especially all the food. I feel so guilty now for feeding you so much because I probably caused you to die young. I didn't mean it Boo please forgive me. I only gave you all the treats because they gave you so much joy. Now you and Ryan are both gone, I'll watch the game
cook dinner go through the motions. But there will be no joy without you and Ryan with me. I love you always and forever until we are together again remember; I will always love you.
09-13-2010 I wanted to say I love and miss you. You are coming home for sure tomorrow!!! Send me a sign Boo. Until we are together again Remember; I will always love you... Mommy
09-18-2010 Hi my angle dog. I know it has been a few days since I've written but there is not a second of the day when I am not thinking of you. Sometimes its too sad for me. I am trying to be strong Boo but I am not.I miss you so much. I want to see your little face and feel your puggy kisses. You kissed me that last night I know it was hard for you but you knew I'd never see you again. I didn't know that would be my last kiss. God Boo I love you so. I will come and visit you tonight. Until then remember; I will always love you...Mommy 09-20-2010 My little girl. I love you and miss you more than I can say with word.There is an emptiness inside my heart that only you can fill. I love you BOO. Until we are together again. Remember; I will always love you... Mommy
09-25-2010 my angle Boo oh how I love and miss you. Boo there are days I don't think I can go on without you. I miss you more than words could ever say. I got your paw print from the vet office yesterday and I can't look at it without crying. Boo I love you. I talked to my friend you sent to me yesterday and I trust you, Casey, and Tori have a plan to help us,you brought us together in our darkest moment. Even in death my angle you are still here for me. Until we are together again; remember I will always love you.... Mommy 09-30-2010 Hi my angel girl I love you and miss you more every day.I am on the phone with Ryan right now. He loves you Boo. Today is 4 weeks since you left us and not a day goes by when you are not on my mind constantly. Boo I can't stop crying. I miss you so much and I love you more than the world. I don't know why you had to leave Boo I can't stand the pain anymore. Until we are together again, Remember I will always love you.... Mommy
10-02-2010 Good morning Little Girl, I have been listening to your song and crying all morning. Some days I can't stop the tears from flowing. God Boo I miss you so much,Mags is sitting in my lap and you should be under the desk just like it use to be. I don't know how much more pain I can stand. This sadness is forever. I know you want me to be happy but you made me happy Boo. You were the joy in my life. When you were a little girl you had a friend Brandy she went to the bridge many years ago. You use to snuggle in her long fur.I hope you and Brandy have found each other. If you find her tell her Mommy loves her. OK Boo. I have to stop writing because I am crying so hard. Until we are together again, Remember Little Girl,I will always love you... Mommy.
10-9-2010 good morning my angle dog. Boo its been over a month since you left and I miss you more with every passing day. I love you so much. I know you sent the 3deers Boo. I have been praying and there they were 3 of them in a neighborhood in the middle of the day. Thank you Boo, I think you and Casey did that for me. I miss you so much and I miss sleeping next to you,I miss everything about you. Please visit me when you are ready I am always watching, listening, hoping to catch a glimpse of you. Until we are together; Remember, I, will always love you... Mommy
10-10-2010 Boo Boo I love you. Mommy
10-14-2010 Good morning my angle dog. Boo I miss you so much, the pain is deep and it feels like it will never end. I love you little girl and God how I miss you. 7 weeks today you have been gone. It feels like an eternity as my days are so long without you. Yet in my heart it feels like yesterday. I am taking Mags to the Vet. today because she is still-so sad and she grieves for you every minute. Please ask God to look after her. I don't want to loose her too Boo Boo. I think by now she will need some medicine to help her feel better. She is still not eating Boo please tell God to protect her. I know you are looking out for her, and I think you have been coming to visit. Sometimes I hear you scratching on my door and I feel you walking on our bed. I look around I don't see you yet I know you are never far. Boo Kelly is very sick again, please talk to God and ask him to take away her urge to drink. If she keeps this up it won't be long before I loose her too. I couldn't stand it a daughter should NEVER die before the parents. Please Boo tell God she really is good and her kids need her so much. Tay knows and she is scared. She tries to be brave but inside she is dying a little each day. I figure you and Casey are the closest to God and He will hear you as He pets your little Pug head. Our family is a mess how I wish I could hold you, you always made the pain feel less. Until we are together again, Remember I, will always love you.... Mommy
10-17-2010 Good morning my angle girl. I Love you. Another day with out you. God Boo I miss you. The Bronco's are playing the 6th game and you are not here its these moments when I miss you most. I think about you with your Bronco shirt and how you'd hide because me and Ryan were so loud. The house is quiet Boo for I have lost both you and Ryan. I am deeply saddened. I miss you both so-much.
Until we are together again. Remember I will always love you.... Mommy
10-21-2010 Hi my little girl.I love you.Its been a really hard week and I have missed you more than ever. I love you so very much and life is not the same without you Boo. Please baby come visit me and Mags we LOVE you and miss you. Until we are together again; Remember, I will always love you... Mommy
10-24-2010 Good morning my angle. I miss you more than ever. Boo I know you don't want me to be so sad but there are days I can<t stop crying. I miss you so very much, Hey Boo send me a sign from heaven so I know you are OK and you are with Druffus, Casey, Sam, Dino, Brandy, Honda, and Gretchen all the babies I have loved. Boo there is one special baby who was only 12 weeks old when she died, her name is Biscuit please find her and tell her mommy loves her. She went to the bridge nearly 24 years ago. I will never forget the joy she brought me. Every night I sneak her in my bed and daddy would get mad like he always did, she would pee and every night I'd tell him I spilled water. At least he was gone when came in my life and never had to put up with the abuse. I love you little girl and God how I miss you. Until we are together again; Remember; I will always love you.... Mommy
10-31-10 Happy Halloween Boo. Remember how you use to run to the door for each child? They always wanted to pet you you were the cutest in your princess outfit. Everyone loved you especially mommy. I miss you so much little girl, the pain is so bad I don't know if I will ever get past loosing you, you were the best friend I ever had. Until we are together again; Remember; I will always love you...Mommy
11-6-2010 Boo, I love you. I am sorry its been a few days since I visited. I think of you constantly and the pain never ends. I miss you so much. Mags has been so sick since you went to the bridge. She misses you deeply and doesn't understand. I know you talked to God and told him it's not time for Mags to go to the bridge; she is beginning to get better. Slow but sure Thank you Boo, I couldn't bear losing both of you. I visited Ryan on Thursday, I know you must have talked to God. Thank you Boo you always were there for me and still are.I gave him the biggest hug ever. I love you my angle girl. Until we are together again; Remember; I will always love you... Mommy
11-13-2010 Good morning my angle girl. Danah was married yesterday, I wish you would have been here. It is so sad not having you here for the events of life. I trust it was you who sent the two deer that were standing above the church. Thank you Boo every time you send a sign it gets me a little closer to believing you are in heaven with Casey. I miss you so much the pain is unbelievable and I hate every second I am not with you. I miss you so much. Until we are together again, Remember Boo I will always love you.... Mommy I SENT YOU A BIRTHDAY CAKE AS MONDAY WOULD HAVE BEEN YOUR 13TH BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE GIRL. WE LOVE YOU, MOMMY, MAGS, AMANDA, AND RYAN.
11-15-2010 Happy Birthday my angle girl. Boo I was remembering the day I brought you home. I went to the shelter without the kids "just to look" I was supposed to be at the mall Christmas shopping. I told the lady I wanted a little lap dog, but since I had only loved big dogs I told her I did not want a nippy yippy dog. Out she came with you an 8 week fur ball. As she placed you in my arms she said;"then you want a pug they are like big dogs in small bodies". I picked you up and it was love at first sight. You licked my face as if to say "pick me" and I did. I called the kids and told them I had a big surprise, they asked if it was a dog because they heard all the dogs barking in the background. I of course I said No. It took nearly 2 hours to get home as I had to stop and buy you lots of food, treats, and everything I thought you'd need. I literary was giddy with joy on the
ride home. Yes, Boo from the moment I saw you and held you in my arms I loved you and you, my friend you, brought me intense joy for 12 years and that is why losing you has caused such unbearable pain. I will NEVER stop loving you. Go now Boo Boo, run play, celebrate your birthday. Have fun and wait by the bridge for me, for I will always love you.... Mommy Yes Boo I loved you from the very moment I saw you and I have never stopped loving you.
11-20-2010 Good morning my little angle. I thought you'd like to know Mags is getting better. She really misses you. But I asked to talk to God as it is not Maggie's time and you did. thank you Boo I know you understand I still need her. You are the best there ever was and God is lucky to have you. I miss you so much little girl. I can't stand this pain. I want you, Casey, and Ryan to come home to me. I love you all so much. I realize in this life I will never be able to hold you again.
I miss your kisses and the cute little face that I feel in love with. Please visit me Boo I won't be scared. Until we are together again; remember I will always love you... Mommy
11-26-2010 Good morning angle girl. Yesterday was Thanksgiving one of your favorite holidays. I decided to go to the prison to see Ryan, so he wouldn't be alone. We talked about you Boo and how much you looked forward to dinner time. God Boo I miss you and I don't think the pain will ever stop. I miss you so much I can hardly stand it. If just for a MOMENT I could hold you, touch you and get a puggy kiss from you. I sure miss those kisses Boo. I love you so much. Until we are together again; remember I will always love you... Mommy and Mags
11-27-2010 I have been crying all morning for you little girl. I miss you so much, Boo when will the pain subside? I can't take much more. I love you with all my heart. Until we are together again, remember Boo; I will always love you... Mommy
11-28-2010 Hello Angle, I sure miss you and I have been crying so much for you. I miss you so much Boo Boo. I don't think I'll be better until we are together again. You sure are the best buddy anyone ever had and I love you so much. I need to "see" you in some way, please come to me. Remember Boo; I will always love you... Mommy
12-4-2010 My darling Boo,how I miss and love you so much. Life is not the same without you. I miss you every second. Tomorrow Mags and I are going to Ft. Logan National Cemetery to visit Grandma and Grandpa (mom and dad) Monday is grandma's birthday.I am bringing a few of your ashes o put there with the cross I have. I hope you will like this idea. Boo please come to me some how in some way so I know you are happy. Until we are together again remember; I will always love you... Mommy
12-05-2010 Hi Boo I just wanted to tell you I love you so much. Mommy
12-11-2010 My little girl how I love and miss you. Boo sometimes I feel you walking on my bed when its late at night. Is that you Boo? You've been gone over 3 months now and the pain in my heart feels like it was yesterday. I can't move past this pain. I love you. Until we are together again remember; I will always love you... Mommy
12-24-2010 Merry Christmas Boo Boo oh how I miss you. This is our first Christmas apart. I sent you a present. Boo I can't stand this pain. I love you so much. Can you ask God to make Kelly stop drinking, I am so scared she will die please Boo I can't lose her too. Until we are together remember; I will always love you... Mommy
12-25-2010 MERRY CHRISTMAS LITTLE GIRL. I LOVE YOU TODAY AND FOREVER; REMEMBER BOO; I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU... MOMMY
12-31-2010 Happy New Year Boo Boo, my little girl. I will be thinking of you and how I wish you were here to welcome a new year. Oh Boo I miss you so much. I will be sleeping when the new year comes,It's just me and Mags we will lay together talking about you. Does everyone in heaven know your name is Lizzie and then we called you Lizzie Boo before long it was Boo Boo and that was the only name you knew. Well you were and still are my little Boo Boo and I miss you so much. Until we are together remember Boo; I will always love you.. Mommy
01-09-2011 Oh Boo Boo how I miss you and how I love you. Kelly tried to kill herself but I think you were there and God saved her. Boo I can't take this much longer, her alcoholism is killing me a little more every day. Please ask God to get her in treatment. Please Boo I can't lose her too. I wish you were here life was so much better with you. Until we are together again Remember Boo; I will always love you... Mommy.