my stomach keeps on hurting. i feel like vomiting almost. or crying. one of the two. ill stay on the outside and isolate myself if i have to. my stomach hurts so bad. i want him back. i want neka back. i want to hold him again.
there was an aspca commercial that came on the other day ago. you know , the sad dogs in cages... cats w one eye... wordings that make you cry yourself to sleep.
i dont know how i can go about this. im listening to "love , hate , react , relate" by trash boat on repeat. my stomach feels empty and nauseous. i just want to sleep. to forget the world for a while.
i cant care about anything anymore. the grief is consuming me. why couldnt neka stay ?