by adg
We recently had to have our dog Toby put to sleep and the pain is just so intense. I know we did everything we could for him and in the end it was just age and disease that took him, just like it will no doubt take me and everyone else but for some reason the guilt and loss I feel is just so bad, even though I have nothing to feel guilty about. I know that guilt and death go hand in hand and only time heals the pain but logic doesn't play a part at times like this.
We rescued him from a kennel at the age of 2 and loved him for over 12 years. He almost ruled the house and was certainly no angel, always full of mischief and still being a real handful up to his last week, but this was his character and what made him Tobbo Dog and I'm sure God won't hold it against him. I know I'll see him again when my time comes.
We had him cremated and scattered his ashes at one of his favourite walks. I have a picture of him playing there and I must admit at this moment in time it is the only thing that brings me peace as it looks like he's playing in Heaven and waiting for us.
I am writing this with tears in my eyes and hoping that it will somehow ease the pain but I know only time will do that, so if anyone reading this is experiencing similar pain please let your tears flow, get on with your grieving and carry on, because one day you will be together again, but not yet.
Thank You.