To My Most Beloved Sister, Mui Mui
by Arthur
I wish to thank Rainbowsbridge.com for letting me post something here: To My Most Beloved Sister, Mui Mui Mui Mui, do you know how much I love you? Do you know how much I miss you? Ever since you left me, life is never the same again for me. Xiao Huang can never replace you. No other cat can ever replace you. How can they replace you? You are the most beautiful cat in the world. I always tell people how tame, how cute, how obedient you are, that white Persian cat with long fur, tail and large beautiful blue eyes. I miss your meows and I miss your warm fur, mui mui. Arthurs heart cries out in pain. No one can understand how sorrowful I am and have become. My tears flow down my cheeks as I write this love letter to you. Mui Mui, my family and I was completely devastated by your sudden departure. Things arent supposed to happen in this way, dear. If I knew you had kidney disease, I would have sent you to the vet 2 months ago, instead of waiting till April the 1st 2004. Fate was very cruel to all of us. That night, I brought you to the vet, hoping for a gradual recovery. But that was not to be so. The next day, you passed away, just like that. Till now, I still cannot accept the fact that youve left us, for good, forever. I simply cannot accept this cruel fact. You know I really love you very much, Mui Mui. I will never forgive myself for not bringing you to the vet earlier. Im sorry, Mui Mui. Im so very sorry. Forgive me for my ignorance. I should have known something was wrong when your fur went spiky. I should have brought you to the vet for inspection when you kept drinking water out of thirst. Your death was a very heavy blow to me and I can never forgive myself for it. Only merciful God can heal me. On the 2nd of April 2004, when my mom visited you at 11am, you still managed to struggle to meow at her. Im sure you were very happy to see her. You recognized mamas face. We all know youve got human personality inside you. My mom even stroked your chin and head. She was delighted to see you. But.. Almost 2 hours later, at 12.45pm, Dr. Grace Heng called me on my mobile while I was still asleep, telling me, Im sorry to tell you that your cat passed away. At that moment, I felt I was being hit by the worst lightning on earth. How can that be, Mui Mui? I broke the news to my mom and my dad. My mom loved you so much. She broke down completely and cried. She could not believe what she had heard. 11am, you were still alive and well, and meowing to her. 12.45pm, you were dead. My mom couldnt take it. Yes, she couldnt take it. And she broke down. My father was shocked. He was cleaning a house and rushed to see your body in the evening. Mui Mui, do you know that he was a completely devastated soul when he saw your cold lifeless body? Do you know that papa kept stroking your dead body for more than an hour, staying at the animal clinic for more than an hour, sitting beside your body? Do you know how much he love you? You are very very precious to him, Mui Mui. Papa came back as a devastated man. When he spoke about you, I could see his eyes turned red and he could not speak anymore. Coz he had broken down in tears. All of us love you so much, Mui Mui. I still remember the times when you would lead papa to bed when the appropriate time come. And you would cling warmly to his leg and sleep with him. You exhibit a most humane personality with unconditional love for all of us. I still remember the times when you would sit near the window and near the door, waiting for us to return, greeting us with your lovely meows, and running quickly and happily when you heard mom and dads footsteps. You are really very very cute and adorable. How can someone so innocent and pure like you pass away? I still remember the times when you would sit beside me, asking me for a piece of your favorite food whenever I was eating some chicken or fish. And I would feed you some. I really miss those good old times, Mui Mui. I really do. When you were laying on the floor with your eyes wide open in the afternoon of April the 1st,2004, I thought you were just exhausted. I never realized your seriousness. I am to be blamed, Mui Mui. You must have felt pain inside you, and yet, you are not able to tell me. Why? Why? Why dont you tell Arthur, Im in pain, pls send me to the vet. It doesnt matter even if I have to borrow 10,000 dollars to heal you, Mui Mui, coz I love you so. Everything I do, I do it for you, my love. Do you know that I prayed to God to take away 5 years of my life and give it to you when you were hospitalized? I dont mind living shorter, if it meant an extension of your lifespan. God love me, and so I love you, Mui Mui. You are not just a cat. You are an angel sent from God. To cheer my family and I up. To bring joy to us. But your departure was too sudden. I did not even get to see your last moments. This was a thunderous blow to me, to my family. We will never forget you, Mui Mui. Never. When I was 19, I was still in National Service. In that year, when I stared out of the window one silent night, I saw you sitting on the 2nd storey. I called out to you and you stared at me with your beautiful blue eyes. You and I were young then. The next night, I saw a white furball waiting outside my door. It was you. You had climbed up the stairs and found your way to my house. You once belonged to the one downstairs. But that night, you belonged to us. And since then, we treated you like one of our own. You were like our first born, and my very own sweet little sister. It has been 10 years. Im now 29. We had spent so much fun together, Mui Mui. And yet, you left us so suddenly. I could not take it. I still remembered the time you suffered a heavy wound on your back. Someone or something had pierced your back. And I spent 20 days at home nursing you. We saved you then. I still remembered the good times when my mom and I would put a rope round your neck and lead you downstairs at Woodlands. You would admire the scenery, smell the flowers, smell the grass and stroll around gracefully. We were happy to see you happy. We really miss you, Mui Mui. When you were alive, you would often be at the door when I wanted to get out. And I would gently push you away. Now that you are gone, everything is so empty. Not even your shadow remained. Whenever I went out, I would have a feeling of sadness coz you are no longer at the door. When I returned back, you are not there for me too. And I cry inside my heart. Whenever I eat my meal, you are no longer sitting near me. A sense of emptiness engulfed me. I feel that something is missing in my life. My life is never the same anymore. Without you, Mui Mui, my life is an incomplete jigsaw puzzle. And now, I no longer have the chance to call Mui Mui. I can no longer expect a meow back from you. And I miss you terribly. For 10 years, we have spent our lives together. And now you are gone, forever. Mom and Dad missed you very badly too. We are all very sad and depressed to have you leave us all alone on this earth. May your soul find peace and joy in heaven. If you have no soul, I pray that merciful God will recreate you and let us meet again in heaven, one day. Till death do us part, Mui Mui A business and charitable House, Office and Carpet cleaning website dedicated to helping the poor, sick, needy and weak people and animals of this world http://www.a-cubemicro.com/
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