by Pat
Memories of PEPPY
He was my little shadow, always with me, even when I was away. He was always
waiting at the door for me to return at the end of the day or from a short journey.
I miss him so much! I just pray that he knows how much I loved him and still love
him. I have no words to express what he meant to me, only an ache in my heart and
a void in my soul. Wait for me, my sweet baby, just on the other side of that
Heavenly door and be there to greet me when it is my turn to enter and be with
you again. Rest in peace, my beautiful baby, until we are together once again.
................... 09/25/02 - By now, my precious baby, you have probably reunited
with your little mother, Minnie, as she went to the Bridge today. I know that she
will be so happy to see you and hear all about your wonderful life that you shared
with us. She will probably want to hear all about your little brother, Poppy, too.
Remember, sweet baby, she is the one that brought you to us when you were babies
and gave you and your brother to us to raise and share our lives with. And what
wonderful lives they have been! Remind little Minnie that we will always love her,
for she gave us the most precious gift we could have ever received....YOU!
..................................................... 09/28/02 - It has been one month since you left me
and went to the Bridge, my wonderful, sweet baby and my heart still breaks from
missing you. I know you and Minnie, your little mother, are getting reaquainted and
having a good time, but don't forget to watch for your Mamma to come to the
Bridge so that I can finally feel your precious little body in my arms, again, and
kiss that sweet little pink nose and look into those beautiful golden eyes. I love
you, my precious angel. Love, play and rest during your time at the Bridge until you
can be back in my arms once again. 12/25/02 - Here it is, my sweet baby, the
most wonderful time of the year for you. How you loved the Christmas tree with all
of the lights on it twinkling and making your little eyes shine and on Christmas
morning going into the Christmas room and finding what Santa left you and Poppy.
You would lay under the tree for hours until I got the gifts under there. Then you
would move out from under the tree but stayed close to it and all of "your"
presents under the tree. You would always watch as the gifts were taken away and
looked so sad because some of the gifts were not there for you to enjoy anymore.
And on Christmas day, after all of the gifts were opened and the room was in a
complete mess, you would, again, lay under the tree with a little sad look on your
face. Your gifts were all gone and you knew that soon your tree would have to go
away, too. Well, my precious baby, your tree is up with all of its lights, the gifts
are under the tree and the Christmas music is playing. I even found a Van Craven
Christmas CD that I bought and have played over and over again. I pray that you
are able, in some way, to hear that music, because you loved it so much, and see the
lights on the tree twinkling. They don't seem as bright to me this year as in the
past, and the season isn't as joyful, because you took the joy with you when you
had to leave me. My precious angel, my heart still breaks from missing you and I
know Christmas won't be the same ever again, because my Christmas angel is not
with me anymore. By the way, your daddy and Poppy said to say hello to you and
tell you that they love you and miss you terribly. My precious baby, I hope you
will have Christmas day at the Bridge and that it is more special than any you ever
had here with us, because you deserve it. And I hope that in some way you can
enjoy Christmas here with us from the Bridge and that you can see the fun on
Christmas morning and see Poppy as he goes in to see what Santa brought him and
that it makes you happy to watch us. I know that you loved your little brother and
always watched after him. I am trying to do that for you, now, and hope I can make
him happy again. Tell Minnie that we love her and miss her, too, and I hope that you
and she can celebrate Christmas and you can show her all of the fun that you used
to have during the season. I remember that she used to go around the house and get
on the window sill and look at the lights on the Christmas tree, so she loved it, too,
my sweet baby. You brought so much happiness and joy into our lives every day,
not just at Christmas. Be sure and let her know that, Sweetsie, so that she will
know that she did the right thing all of those years ago in bringing you to us. We
love you, my angel, and miss you so terribly. Be sure to keep a close watch so that
you will see your mamma when it's time for us to be together again. You will be
here on Christmas morning, if only in our hearts. Merry Christmas, Baby.
........................... 12/31/02 - My precious sweet angel, finally, the worse year of my
life is about to end. I will always remember this year as the year that took my
angel away from me so suddenly and for no apparent reason. I will never
understand why an angel like you, with so much love and happiness to give, had to
leave this earth, but other people, who spread fear and unhappiness everywhere
they turn, are still allowed to live among us. I will never understand that. My heart
still breaks for you, my precious baby. Not a day goes by that a tear doesn't fall
and my heart cracks a little more. Soon, the crack will be so big and the tears so
plentiful that they will wash me straight to the Bridge and you, forever together
this time. I love you, my precious baby. As the years go by for me, they are but
like seconds for you. So, don't forget your Mamma, sweet one. Enjoy your stay at
the Bridge and your little mother, Minnie, and all of your new friends until we
meet and cross the Bridge together. May your new year be wonderful and blessed.
Remember I love you, my Sweetsie. My heart is now and forever will be yours.
Happy new year, my wonderful sweet baby. Your Mamma loves you so much!
..................................................................................... 02/12/03 - Today is your mamma's
birthday, baby. This is the first birthday I have had since you left me 6 months
ago. We always had a good time on our birthdays, didn't we? And you enjoyed them
as much as we did. Today will not be as special as the last 14 birthdays have been,
because you are not with me. I can't watch your little face light up when I am
opening my gifts and you attack the paper and fly down the hall with it in your
mouth. I have my memories, baby, but I don't have you. That would be the best
birthday present I could ever receive, to hold you in my arms once again. Until we
can do that, my precious, please don't forget your mamma and watch for me to
come and be with you when it is my time to come to the Bridge. Until then, I will
love you and treasure you in my heart and in my soul. ................ 02/14/03 - Happy
Valentines Day, my precious baby. My heart is still breaking on this very special
day because my special little valentine isn't with me. Don't forget your Mamma,
sweet baby, and watch for her to arrive at the Bridge to be with you forever.
Until then, my Sweetsie, just know how much I love you.
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