by Deanna
I remember the day we met. You were home with Miata and Max. You were so big and beautiful that I fell in love with you immediately, but you already had a special human in your life, Mama Beth. She loved you too. You were inseparable. She had lots of dogs but you were her special boy. I loved to watch you and Miata run in the yard and play. You always favored the girl dogs. Your mama and daddy were my best friends. Parents to me. Unfortunately the both got very sick and left us. I vowed I would take care of you, but you had lost the one special person in your life. You didn't want to be left alone for fear of us never coming back just like mama Beth didn't. You hurt yourself badly to get out of the house when we weren't home. You just could accept that she was gone and that I loved you as much as she did and wasn't leaving you alone forever when I left the house. Watching you hurt yourself killed me. I would cry and cry, and try to understand what you were thinking. But it was beyond any human to understand the pain you were going through. I had to make the decision to let you go and be with your mama. Yesterday we woke up and you played wity Casey girl. I was so sad because I knew that you were in pain inside. We only had you for 8 months but, I knew you for 7 years and you were different since mama died. You seemed to always think she was going to walk through the door. John and Casey-girl loved you too. He wished you would get better and be able to live with us longer. I held your head and kissed you goodbye as the vet pushed in the needle. When he said "He's gone" I bawled. I laid your head down and said "You get to see mam Beth now. Tell her I miss her." Give Max and Tigger a big kiss for me too. Know you are missed and I will see you again one day. Love Deanna, John, Casey, Winston, Ashley.