by Kelly
Ashes was my first cat that I ever owned. He was so cute and playful not to mention fiesty. I still can't believe that I had to have him euthanized. I agonized over the decision for over eight months. I tried everything that we could come up with but there was nothing that I could do. Everyday I help animals but I could not even help my own. I never thought that I would have to euthanize over a behavior problem but I ran out of options. I put it off as long as I could but he was destroying my house and wasn't healthy for my other animals. So I finally decided it had to be done, my heart hurt so much. I begged him to stop but he wouldn't. So the day came and I took him into the clinic. I did not realize how miserable he was until he was gone. He looked so peaceful. It wasn't until that moment that I realized how much he was truelly suffering. I felt so guilty and still do. But he is not suffering anymore. I would suffer anyday as long as he doesn't have to.
Ashes I Love You, I am so sorry.
Until we meet again,