MY DARLING ZOE. IT IS JULY 4TH, 2017, and I have moved my notes to another place on the computer. I pray to God I got all of them, because they tell the story of my grief and loss of one of the greatest gifts in my life. You. It has been six years and two months and the pain is still so strong. I can't smile without you. I hope and pray you are with Clyde-Bailey and are well and happy. Don't ever forget how much I love you. Daddy, Grandma and I talk about the two of you all the time. I miss you so deeply. Send me a sign today. I will be looking for it. I love you so, my Zo girl. I love you.|
MyAngel Zoe girl. It is August 4, 2017 and I am struggling with the loss of you still. I always will. You were such a light in my life and still are, after being gone over six years. I love you so, Zoe. You were such a treasure. I hope you are with Clyde-Bailey and that you see Grandpa often. I hope you met the rabbi's dog, Pretty Girl and showed her around. Grandma, Daddy and I always talk about you and Delilah is here with me, filling my heart with joy, as only a dog can.Has Remy ever come up there. She is the dog that has been lost for years that I write to each day. Let me know. She is a black chow with a black tongue and is so missed, as are you and Clydie. Please send a sign today that you are ok. I MISS YOU DESPERATELY. I love you so much. Thank you for everything. Always your Mommy.
November 4, 2017 My darling Zoe. I am crying for you. I miss you so much, my Zoe girl. I talk about you all the time. You made my life so rich. I will never be the same without you and Clyde-Bailey. Thank God you sent me Delilah. I love her so.I have never been the same since I lost Grandpa, you and Clydie. Now Daddy's brother, David has cancer and we need your doggie prayers. It's pretty bad. We are doing ok. Gram is good and Daddy is
fine. I am too and don't want you to worry if I cry over you. It's tears of love and the joy of having you in myRest easy Zo, and remember how much I love and miss you. I will forever and ever. Your loving Mommy.
It's December 4, 2017. Hi, bud dog, my angel child. Zoe, I am crying as I miss you so. We talk about you a lot, especially with Grandma. She remembered that anytime Gramps walked in, you and Clydie ran to the back door because you knew he was going to let you out. And remember the little bagels Aunt Kathi would bring you and Clydie. You loved them. The pain of your loss is never going away, and I have to live with that, praying that some day we will be together again. Please God. Promise me that and i can go on. I love you so, girl, forever and ever, Mommy.
I can't believe it's February. How could I have missed writing to you. My heart is broken over it. I am so sorry, my Bud dog. You know you are always on my mind. I love you so and miss you so much. It will never, ever be the same without you and Clydie. Please forgive me. I hope you are fine. We are all hanging in, getting older with aches and pains. Grandma isn't too well, but she's doing the best she can. She and Daddy and Delilah send their love as well. Love you forever and ever. Mommy
3/6/18 Darling I am late because we had no power or internet due to a big snow storm. Another coming tonight, but Daddy took care of me and Gram just fine, so don't worry. I miss you so much. It's not gotten easier. I love you so and talk about you much of the time. You are Clydie. What a pair. Remember how you two used to sleep on the leather couch in the bedroom. I picture you there. Delilah likes it, too. I pray that you are fine and I adore you so. Miss you forever and ever. Your Mommy.
4/4 Darling child of mine, Zoe. I can't believe that in another month you will be gone seven years. It's never any easier without you. In fact, it's more difficult. No one understands me like you did, except maybe Delilah, a little bit, but not as much. Me and Zoe. Traveled like crystal and so we were two hot girls on a hot summer night, we were lookin' for love. Remember we would sing that song? I miss you so much and talk about you and Clydie all the time. Something came up on Facebook today about this date and me saying the dogs were alright today. God, I wish that were so and I wish my heart was alright, but it will never be again. I'll love you forever and ever to the moon and back a million times. You will always be my girl. Your loving Mommy.
5/4/18 Tonight it will be seven years ago that you had to leave me. Tears are flowing and I miss you so. There are no words to describe life without you. I remember that I made you breathe into my mouth so I could keep you inside me. It was the worst night, Zoe. I speak about you all the time with Grandma, Daddy, Delilah and Linda Carrier, who even wrote your name down on an appointment for Delilah. Thank God she is here. You know I have to have the love of a doggie. There is nothing like it. You were regal, my darling and really mine. I miss you so and love you always. I wear your name along with Clyde-Bailey and I will never take it off. I hope you are comfortable up there and know that you are loved and your name written by me every day. Forever and ever, your Mommy
6/6/18 Zoe. I am two days late. I am so very sorry. I don't know how the date got away from me. You know that's it's not for not thinking about you. I think about you and Clydie all the time and my life is so much less without you. Tears are flowing done my cheeks and the pain will never go away. i love and miss you so and hope both of you are ok. I will always be your loving Mommy. You will always be my doggie.
7/4/16 My Zoe, my life is nothing without you. Things have changed so much since you had to leave. I am so sad all the time. I miss you and Clydie terribly. Thank God for Delilah. NO ONE BUT YOU AND HE UNDERSTANDS ME. I cry every day over you, even if it's been seven years. How are you, my darling friend and doggy? Please send me a sign. I need to hear from you? Do you see Grandpa? He is so missed. Oh Zoe, what I would give to see you two again. My leg, my arm. You already have my heart. I miss you so, girl. Don't ever forget how much I adore you. I carry you around in my heart every day. Be well. Your loving Mommy
8/4/18 My angel Zoe, I miss you so much. I write your initials along with Clyde-Bailey's on my shower door every morning when it steams up. I also have Gramps, Aunty Clare and Uncle Mitch. Then I write Delilah and Mommy in a heart shape with a little window. Funny, huh? But you are never out of my mind. Life is just not as beautiful without you two here. Never will be. Losing you two was such a dark time in my life. My heart is permanently broken. I just pray that you are both ok. I love you so much, my dog. My girl. My friend. My everything. Forever and ever, your Mommy
DEAREST ZOE, I am one day late. It is the fifth of Sept. 18. My days are crazy as I am having surgery tomorrow. I know you will be with me and I love you so for that. How is Clyde-Bailey? Do you see Grandpa? I miss you so,, Zo. It's awful without you. I love you so much and hope you are doing fine and forgive me for being late. You're my girl forever. Mommy
10/4/18 My dearest darling Zoe. I am crying, I miss you so much. You were my true companion, my soft place to fall along with Clyde-Bailey. I lost both of you within 28 days. It was the darkest time of my life. I know you are always with me, and I will always keep your memory alive. I hope you are fine and happy. I will love you with all I have forever and ever. Your loving, Mommy
November 7, 18 I am so sorry I am late. I was in Spain with Jordan and the kids and couldn't get this on my phone. I love you so. I was thinking of you as I always do. I hope you are well and with Clydie. I love you , Zoe girl, forever and ever and it will never be the same without you. Forever and ever, your Momm
1/4/19 Happy New Year and no, it can never be happy without you, my angle chilld. Tears are falling and they never stop for you and Clyde-Bailey. I miss you so. I can't believe you are not here with me. I took in your breath so that I would keep you inside forever and ever. You are always a part of me, my darling Zoe girl. I love you so much. Life will never be the same without you. Forever, your loving Mommy.
january 155, 2019 My friend, Mike's black pomeranian names Reno, is getting his wings any moment. His name is Reno. I need for you and Clydie to be waiting at the gate for him and keep him safe. He is a precious dog and has been in pain. No he will be all better, but everyone is heartbroken. Look out for him, please. I love you both. Mommy
2/4/19 My angel child, Zoe. Life is so hard without you and Clydie. It will never be the same and I will never stop crying. I hope you are fine and enjoying the Spring up there. Here it has been brutally cold, but today is beautiful. Aunt Kathy Waring lost her dad yesterday and everyone is so sad. he was suffiering so he is better off. Loss is never easy. God, I miss you, Zo girl. My Zobiede. My heart is broken. I wait for the day we will be together
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