On July 02, 2008 Zander left for heaven, my heart feels so heavy thinking about the empty days ahead without him. Zander, I know that you are now with Zar & Zia and will take care of them; Someday I also will arive in this beautiful place and you will come running all happy and excited to see me, like you did for the 8 years of your life, knowing we will never have to seperate again.|
I Love you my Boy
July 08, 2008
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July 19, 2008
07/26/2008 Hi my baby it is Saturday again, I am still missing you so. This week I was sent a link to Mac's Rainbow memorial, he was murdered and never was allowed to enjoy any earthly time; or belong to someone who would love him forever. He now has an adoptive mommy Lelja who loves him dearly. I must tell you my boy, I love him along with hundreds of other people who were sickened after finding out the abuse Mac went through in his life on earth, Please run and play and tell Mac that most people love there fur babies and show him that love. I am attaching Mac's rainbow site, and also a link to the petition , Anyone reading this please sign. Zander I love you always and never will find another you, Love Mommy (Dee)
08/09/2008 Hi my boy, it's Saturday again; there was not a lot going on this week, but I have been dreaming like crazy mostly of the people who were very important in my life, but have now passed. I also know that you were there. I believe that this was a message telling me not to worry about you, that you are fine and know that I still love you more than words can say . Well Zianna is doing better she is still so lonely but has become such a daddy girl, not that both of you were not spoiled, lets just say that she is so spoiled LOL. Run and play with all your new friends, and at night take Zar & Zia and go home to Davy he will always take care of his auntie babies, until mommy or daddy come to get you. Love you Zander Mommy XO
08/16/2008 Hi my baby, it Saturday again; today is Grandpa Frank birthday in heaven, give him a big Dobby kiss, and tell him how glad you are to finally know him. I was remembering when you were born and the breeder called me and told me that I could come and see you at 2 weeks old, I was so excited. I met you biological grandma (she was so beautiful). Well to get back to the story, the breeder also raised cockatiels. And your Dobie grandma (Shara) came down with a baby bird in her mouth to show me, the breeder was laughing because she loved the birds and would go to the Avery and visit and take them out for a little, and never once hurt one. The gentleness she showed with all 9 of you little babies and the bird's was truly amazing. It was at this point that the breeder told me if Shara your grandmother did not show me her baby birds or if she block me from her (Cheena) your mommy's babies all 9 of you little ones, I would not have been allowed to buy you, because her judgment of a person was always true and accurate and that what the breeder went by; also your full name my boy is (ZZ Rouge Guerrier Alex-Zander). You also took commands and as Papa would say spoke French it was so cute when Papa would say (s'il vous plait monsieur) you would come running. Zander my baby I brought you home at 7 weeks old and had you for 8 years you were a true joy and I love you very much Mommy (Dee) XO
08/23/2008 Hi my big boy, it Saturday again, this was a hard week for me I have been missing you so much, but I am content with knowing that you are safe and happy with so many new friends. I just want you to know that daddy Zianna and I miss you so much. Give everyone kisses for me and take good care of Zar & Zia; oh by the way if you meet two warlock Dobie boys also named Zander, they also are mommy boys, from so many years ago each of you so very handsome and loyal and meant the world to me, but you my boy capture my heart and the emptiness is so profound at times. Love Mommy
08/30/2008 Hi my baby, another week has gone by, and well let just say I miss you more than words can say. I was talking with Uncle Dave this week and he was telling me he had a dream about Grandma Anna; daddy said he also had a dream of her. In both dreams she was sad, please go and find Grandma and give her big kisses take Zar & Zia with you she knows them and she will be so happy to see them; I also know that she will just love you. That all for now my boy, you are forever in my heart, and I carry you with me wherever I go. Love Mommy (Dee) X O
09/06/2008 Hi my beautiful boy, it been a little over 9 weeks, since you left and went to Rainbow Bridge; I still am so very sad but I need to start celebrating your life. You have made so many wonderful new friends; Mac, Puck, & Lucky just to name a few. I have received wonderful messages in your guest book, and I have read so many stories about other beautiful fur angels that my heart rejoices in knowing that there are so many wonderful people who care so much for there babies, be it canine, feline, birds, reptile etc. you are all what I consider one of God's greatest gifts to us humans. September is a busy month, Daddy birthday on the 24th and Jon on the 21st. I know that you will be there in spirit you so like a good party. Zianna is such a spoiled daddy girl that I now have to cook for her, you never were a finicky eater, and I now believe that she only ate her food to spite you. After trying everything, and she stick her nose up, I started making her meals and she is doing good with them. Well today is your Granpa Dave (my daddy) birthday in heaven, bring everyone to his party and give him the biggest kiss for me. I am putting pictures of your biological mommy, daddy, granddad and great granddad on your site. Take care my sweet guy, and remember you are forever in my heart, Love you Mommy (Dee)
09/13/2008 Hi my boy, I am so happy that you came to see me, it was one of the best moments in my life; I am still trying to find out who brought you thru, it was a face from 35 - 41 years ago I know he passed in a very bad accident and I have some people trying to research it. I know where and I believe I know the family name I would like for them to know that he is ok; but for now I know you are ok and that means so much to me, Love You Mommy (Dee)
09/20/2008 Hi my big bug the phone lines on finally back on so I have so much to do. I did see you this morning, just for one brief moment when Zianna was out and you went running thru the back of the yard, she came running in the house so fast I know that she was confused and a little scared . Uncle Dave is driving to Florida if you and your friends can make the stars shine brightly for his journey please do. Daddy birthday is this week and he misses you a lot. Take care my love bug, you are never far away, always in my heart Love Mommy (Dee)
10/03/2008 Hi my boy, I am finally all set with my internet, the month of September was a nightmare. I only had my PC in work so I visited you each morning along with Mac & Puck, Lelja babies. well it is October, where does the time go; I am missing you like crazy you were my shadow and I cannot stop thinking about the void in life without you. I felt like this when my Mom & nephew Davy passed and I loved them to the moon and back so you know that you are always in my heart. Uncle Dave & Auntie Sheila went to see there retirement home in Florida, he sounds so excited about it, that makes me so happy, because they deserves some happiness; They are driving back to RI today so be there shinning star and protector for a safe journey. Love you my Bugs Mommy (Dee)
10/11/2008 Hi my Boy, this was a busy week at work, I am getting ready for holiday and trying to get everything done. I hope the weather will be good in Ft Lauderdale; Brent is watching Zianna,I know that she will be lonely, this is her first time without you; Hopefully you can let her know in some way that she is fine and mommy and daddy will be back soon. October is Mac 's marker on his passing help Puck and the other furangels know that he is so loved now. Zander sweet boy I carry the memory of you wherever I go. Love you to the moon and back. Mommy (Dee)
10/21/2008 Hi my sweet guy, Daddy and I are back from Florida, I know you watched over Zianna; she was so happy to see us, that she did not let us out of her sight. As time goes by I seam to miss you more, but I think that is natural you were so much a part of my life, you were my boy, and best friend, never leaving my side no matter what. You taught me how to be strong and how to love the simple things in life; like you and Zianna running in the back yard or a beautiful bird flying by. You taught me to Stop!! and exhale and realize the beauty around me. Love you sweet boy, your memory is alive in my heart. je vous aime toujours mon cheri amor. Mommy Diane XO (To the moon and back.)
10/25/2008 Hi Zan, well it almost the end of October; time just seams to be flying by. Well as you know November is not a good month for me, my mom & Davy both passed and as you know I cry quite a bit. You were always there to comfort me and without you now this all seams just surreal. I receive a message from my mom and it was letting me know that you are fine her birthday was on December 20th; and she told me I will call it a dream that you were born in (May = 5, passed in July = 7 both = 12) and that your birth date was the 18th and you passed on the 2nd which = 20 so that your numbers equal (12 -- 20 her birthday,) so I know that you are ok and receiving plenty of love. Please run and play, and give Lelja babies Puck & Mac a big kiss for me, also take care of our babies Zar & Zia, and play nice with all your new friends. Love you to the moon and back Mommy (Dee) X0
11/01/2008 Hi my boy, how are you doing? I am so happy daddy said that you came to him in his dreams you were in a beautiful field and there were four other fur angel's with you; from his description of the other fur angels I have a good idea who they were. He said you look so handsome, when anyone ever met you that was always the first thing they said , but daddy said this was different you had a sparkle to you that was so beautiful. Thank you for going to see daddy I know that loosing you was also very hard on him. I am so happy that what we believe about rainbow Bridge is in fact reality. Take care and please come to see me when you can, I love you with all I have and than some. Love Mommy XO
11/08/2008 Hi my sweet boy, I am going to keep it short soon I will be running out of space. Grandma Anna 15 year marker was yesyerday, I hope you and all your friends went to see her and give her big kisses. We are all doing ok here just always missing you. remember to visit when you can, I always will love and never stop missing you. Mommy (Dee)
11/15/2008 Hi my boy, this is going to be a very busy month for you, my nephew Davy and Puck birthday party's; please bring everyone to Davy party he will be so happy, and tell him about the new angel Karley I know he will watch over her until her Mommy and daddy can be with her again. Please give Puck, Mac, Karley, Lucky, Pressy, Samson and all of your new friends a big kiss from me and tell them I love them for making you happy. Love you always & miss you more Mommy (Dee)
PS I put a cake for you to bring to Davy, and I will leave Puck his own cake.
11/22/2008 Hi my sweet guy, I know that you had a wonderful time at you Davy's birthday party; tomorrow is your buddy Puck birthday, from what I am hearing it will be a great celebration. I am so happy that you visited daddy again, we both miss you so, and there is not a day that goes by that missing you is not formost on my mind. Well have fun at Puck birthday and remember I love and miss you always Mommy. (Dee) XO
12/13/2008 Well my sweet boy it almost Christmas, I am trying very hard but I have been missing you so much; I need to go to Petco and get Zianna some Christmas things. I know that she misses you, she wants to play so bad and well lets face it daddy and I just cannot play the way you two did. Please have fun with all your friends and tell Grandma & Grandpa & Davy I love them, and by the way I am so happy that you and my first Dobe boy (Zander) are together he let me know that you were, and I am overjoyed. Last but not lease I am so proud of how you take care of Zar & Zia; I love you and my other babies more than words could ever say my sweet boy Mommy (Dee)
12/21/2008 Hello my sweet baby, Christmas is just a few days away, have a wonderful time with all your new friends. Thank you for yesterday making my mommy birthday so special this year bringing Zar & Zia and all of your friends; I am sure she was so happy. Please know that I am so overjoyed that you and my first Zander are together, he has come to me and let me know that he so happy; I love you so much for making him feel that love. He was a beautiful special boy and my constant companion until cancer took him at the age of four. I remember me and my Mom driving and crying, it was a Sunday and we were going to church when the vet called to say Zander had passed, he suffered so very much but everyone even the vet, did not want to give up, he was so young and beautiful. Zander Please know that you my red boy are so smart, and gave so much love and protection to daddy and me, we both love and miss you so much. loving you always Mommy (Dee) XO
01/01/2009 Happy New Year my sweet boy, I was thinking about you yesterday, and I know at Rainbow Bridge time is not like it is on earth. I will always love you Zar & Zia & my other two Zander's; I know that you are the strong one so please stay close and take care of them. Also please give everyone of your friends Puck, Mac, Karley, Sasha, Faith, and all the babies who parents come and visit you a big kiss from me. Love you my baby now and forever Mommy (Dee) X0
01/17/2009 Hello my sweet guy, I hope you had a great time at Grandma Emma birthday yesterday. I was so happy to see you and Zar & Zia with grandpa Dave; Zia let me know that she is the boss. I was laughing because she always was my little fresh girl. I know that you are happy and having a wonderful time with all of your new friends amd my two other boys. I am missing you so very much and I know on earth what seams like forever is most likely just seconds in your realm, Please come and see me when you can I am forever grateful to God that you were my boy. Love you forever Mommy (Dee)
02/07/2009 Hello my angel, how are you doing, there is not a day in my life that I do not think of you; I miss you more than words can say. The sorrow is better but always close to the surface of my emotions. I am having a picture made into a portrait, it the one that is on your stone and they will take all the background out, they sent me a draft to aprove and it looks wonderful. Daddy & I are off to Florida on a short holiday and cruise; Brent will be taking care of Zianna for us, if you can give comfort to her in any way please do. Well all for now sweetheart give Zar & Zia and my other two Zander's my love. I love you all forever mommy (Dee)
02/22/2009 Zander my beauty, I have been missing you like crazy, and than I saw the sunrise and the opening in the sky with a rainbow for a brief moment; I was in the middle of the ocean on a cruise ship, but knew instantly it was a sign that all life goes on. I have always known this but it gave me such comfort. I have exchanged email's with so many people who have just lost there furbabies; I know that the conection we all share is love in the pureest form that we received from our babies that are now waiting for us in the beautiful land before you reach rainbow bridge. Zander you always were a very strong but gentle boy if a furbaby need help be there for them and please know that You are always in my heart along with Zar & Zia and my other Zanders's. Love you Mami. (Dee)
02/26/2009 Hi baby, the portrait that I had made of you in now on uour stone. I love you sweet boy. Mami (Dee)
05/05/2009 Hi my big guy how are you doing? I am doing good, I just still miss you like it was yesterday. I know that it your birthday this month, oh what fun you will have with all your friends; I know that you are with my dad, along with Zar & Zia and my others boys. run and play and never forget my heart is always with you I love you my red beautiful boy. Mommy (Dee)
05/18/2009 Happy Birthday Zander I wanted to let you know that I celebrate the day that you were born because I received from God the gift of love in the most perfect form. I know that your birthday celebration at the bridge will be great with Puck, Mac, Sasha and Faith and all the other babies. I know that myself Tony & Zianna always think of you so much of the times, the tears are close to the surface but behind the tears as Lelia wrote is the smile of rememberence and the love we have for you. So run and play and have so much fun my boy, because today is your day. Love mommy (Dee)
06/03/2009 Hi my boy, just stoped by to tell you I love you, but than you know that; Daddy Zianna and myself are doing ok just miss you so much. Well uncle David will be moving to Florida soon, and it almost a year that you went to the bridge, time just goes by so fast. I had another portrait of you and Zianna done the one that you are slepping with daddy it came out so nice, I am trying to upload it but am having some problems, the old picture keeps coming up, I will have to work on it. Rember you are always in my heart Love mami (Dee)
07/02/2009 My sweet beautiful boy, one year ago today you went on your journey to Rainbow Bridge; I know that this year brought so many new friends into our lives. Lelja, George & Margaret for me and Puck, Mac, Sasha & Sam just to name a few. I do have a certain peace knowing that you are ok, but in some ways I just miss you something awful. Please know that you are always loved, and someday we all will be together again. I Love You Mami (Dee)
08/12/2009 Hello my beautiful boy, just stopping by to let you know that every day of my life I miss you so much. Your uncle Dave has moved to Florida and I know that he wiil just love it. I will write more later just missing you so much Love (mami Dee)
08/16/2009 Hello my boy, I hope all is great, missing you like always but know that you are fine. I hope that you are having a great time; Zianna is doing good just went to the doctors and everything is fine with her. Take care and give everyone a kiss for me Love Mami (Dee)
09/07/2009 Hi my sweet boy, I so am missing you my heart ache; I have notice at times that Zianna is so sad without you she lost her playmate & best friend. Time moves so quickly it been 14 monthes but sometimes it feels like yesterdsy. The truth is that the reality of you not being here gets easier but your memory gets stronger; which makes your lost so very hard, for me anyways. Please always know that you are forever in my heart. Love mami (Dee)
10/26/2009 Hi baby, I know that you are doing good and have many new friends; remember I love you so much you meant everything to me. Well it almost November you know that is a bsd month for me, my mom & Davy passed and well, just not a lot of happiness associated with November. I love to welcome all the new angels that cross over to the bridge. I have talked with so many wonderful people that loved and miss there babies. Please give Mac a special hug and kiss for me his marker is very soon. I think of you always and love you forever. mami (Dee)
10/31/2009 Hi my baby, just stoped by to change your flowers, have great fun at the party tonight and do not eat to manny sweets; Love you my boy mami (Dee)
11/21/2009 My sweet boy I am so sad, today is my nephew Davy birthday than on 11/28 it will be his 9 year marker; he was only 31 years old. I miss him so much. He came to me yesterday and told me that he is great and that every thing is so beautiful, and that you are fine and mostly with my dad. Please know that I love you so much; as I have also so loved all of my babies there is something that makes my heart so ache with losing you. Please go and give everyone a big dobie kiss from me and have fun my beautiful boy. Love mami (Dee)
12/20/2009 Hi my boy, today is a very special day my mom Anna birthday. I could have never had a better Mother she taught me how to love and never lose sight of what is truely important. Zander go to your Grandma and give her the biggest kiss for me and I know that she is with me always. Well this is my 2nd Christmas without you and I always miss you, but know that you are ok; but Davy told me you are quite a handfull. Have a wonderful Christmas and give Little a special kiss this is her first Christmas at the Bridge. Tell Mac, Puck, Karley, White Dog, Faith, Trail Of Tears, God's Gentle Giants, Jessie, Peppy, Tiger Lily, and so many more I love them and will never ever forget them. Merry Christmas sweet angel. mami (Dee)
01/31/2010 Well how my boy, Zander I love you so much; this January has been so amazing I have felt your presence over a dozen times I feel such peace knowing that you are in paradise waiting and watching over us. I sent away for this book "Cold Noses at the Pearly Gate" they say it is very good. Well you know that mommy has always had a spiritial connection with love ones; I truely believe that the spirit of our loved ones get stronger once you release them, & accept that they are not lost forever, they are just not on an earthly plain, you will someday be together forever. I have started saying the Rosary daily and great things and such inner peace has come to me. I sincerely believe that your presence this January was a gift to me from our Blessed Mother. Run play have fun; tell my other boys I love them; and my Zar & Zia I know that she is the little boss. Love You Mommy (Dee)
10/17/2010 Hi my beautiful boy, I just added some information about Jack on your web site, his passing was so sinful a true crime against nature; welcome him and share with him all you have because that beautiful boy had nothing. I love you and I know that you are with me in so many ways. Tell Jack that he has Lelja on his side and there is not anyone better than her to make sure his life was not in vain. Love Mommy
06/14/2011 Hi my baby, it been a little while since I posted on your page I think of you every day just don't want to run out of room. It is almost 3 years since you left, and well some days my heart feels like it was yesterday. But you always make your presence known and life goes on with the blessing of your memory. Please teach your new friends how to send messages to there love one, it helps so much. I am doing good, daddy & Zianna are great. Now there also is a little Maltease boy name Zack! Zander he is a handful, you & Zianna were so easy to raise 99% housetrain at 8 wk. This one is one tough little guy and more work than 4 of you would have been. Please always stay with me, my life was the best when you were here. Be good kiss my Mom & Dad & Davy and all whom I love that have passed. Stay strong & guard all who need your strenth Love You Mom(Dee).
07/02/2011 Hi my sweet boy, well today marks 3 years that you left for Rainbow Bridge I still cry but that is normal; there is always a smile inside of those tears. I have been very lucky to feel your presence many times & also dad says he has; you were our big beautiful boy. I use to call you my big love bug, you were always happy & wanting to meet & be friends with everyone lol. I have journey for 3 years on Rainbow Bridge trying to give some comfort to other people who have lost there special someone, I do it in your memory & I know you are at the Bridge helping that new special friend on there journey. I love you always Mami, I will put a cake on your page so you can celebrate your day, I am with you in everything beautiful & happy that you see & feel LOVE Dee..
01/22/2012 Hi my boy, I always have you in my heart and think of you daily; will be back to write more later. I love you! so much.
02/13/2012 Zander love you always, Please watch over all of the new furbabies they will be missing there family and you are such a great protector & friend. Love you so much my bug, life sometime is so hard without you; but I always have my memories. Until we walk together again.
03/11/2012 Hello my sweet guy, we know that you Zar & Zia have been around a lot this month, what a wonderful birthday gift; what is so funny is that we know which one of you that it is. Our little Maltease boy Zack goes crazy, Zianna will go over to the area she knows that you are still with us. Zander there are no words that can explain how much I miss you, but I know that someday there will be a happy-ever-after. Now go run & play and know that you are so loved. mami (Dee)
07/02/2012 Hello my sweet boy! four years ago today you left for the heavenly kingdom, now you have Zianna & so many family members that I so love with you. I have never stoped missing you & while I am here on earth that will be always. I cannot believe that both you and Zianna are now gone; I feel such sorrow at times but than smile with the memories, that you & Zianna have left in my heart. Go and celebrate your 4th aniversary, and smile down on me and papa. amour mon coeur, mommy
12/17/2012 Hi my boy, well it almost Christmas I am missing you & Zianna something awful there is a new little girl we named her Ziva she is a handful reminds me of you in a lot of ways. she not a Doberman will most likely be about 6 pounds, but she is a little mighty might. A lot of children from CT. went to Heaven friday if by chance you meet any of them love them & cuddle them with lots of Dobie kisses. I will never not think of you & love you to the moon & back: kiss my mommy & Davie for me. amour mon coeur, mommy
Big Boy Kitty Mommy (Annette) shared this with me and it touch my heart in so many ways that I just want to share.
2 Corinthians 4:18
I am thinking that this may mean, this Earth/this world we live on, is temporary.
But Heaven is permanent
The Broken Chain:
I Haven't Left At All
i saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
on those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
I know your heart is hurting; it's like an open sore
Excerpt from an adaptation of Eugene O'Neill's "The Last Will and Testament of Silverdane Emblem O'Neill" .......
"...I ask my Mistress to remember me, always, but not to grieve for me too long. In my life I have tried to be a comfort to her in time of sorrow and an added joy in her life's happiness. It is painful for me to think that even in death I shall cause her pain. Let her remember that, while no dog ever had a happier life, I have now grown ill and pained. I should not want my pride to sink to bewildered humiliation. It is time for me to say 'Good-bye.' It will be a sorrow to leave her, but not a sorrow to die. Dogs do not fear death, as men do. We accept it as a part of life, not as something alien and terrible that destroys life. What will become of me after death? I would like to believe I will be in a place where one is always young. Where I will someday be joined by companions I've known in life. Where I will romp in lovely fields with those who have gone before me. Where every hour is mealtime. Where in long evenings there are fireplaces with logs forever burning and one curls oneself up and remembers the brave old days on earth and the love of one's Mistress. This is much to expect, but peace, at least, is certain...and a long rest for these weakened limbs...and eternal sleep which is, perhaps, the best......"
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