Here it is my beautiful 'old man', my tribute to you, to your constant and undying love and devotion. For 15 years of joy and happiness, precious memories and unconditional love.|
You left us on 3rd Feb 2007, you finally found your wings old man, you are free. We sent you on to a place free from all your pain, not because we didn't love you, but because we loved you too much to ask you to stay. Your pain ended, ours began the day we said goodbye. I was priviledged to stay with you the night before, to hold you in my arms and to feel your warmth and your love. You passed away so quickly and so peacefully in my arms that next morning, I felt your soul leave you, I felt Harley there with us, she came to take you home, to Heaven, to peace and eternal rest.
We shared so many memories and happy times through those last 15 years, did so many things, went to so many places, shared so much love and joy together......those special times and memories we will never ever forget.
Be at peace old man, rest easy now and snooze in the shade of an old tree, swim in the sparkling streams and rivers and wait for us to come home...............until we meet again, your love will never die.
God bless you angel, and yes....we remember the love.
Hello my angel boy,
I hope and pray that one day we will be where you are, we will see you again and hold you in our arms. To feel your soft fur, smell your musky scent and kiss you on your velvety head over and over again. You were that special one we waited so long for and who gave all he had to give until there was simply nothing left, you were so tired my beautiful old man.
Come down and see us sometime, your dad wants so much to dream of you, to feel you there like moma does, how I wish it was for real. I would give my world to be with you again, you and Harley Bones.
Our hearts will never completely mend old man, but we have so many beautiful memories and so much love to keep safe and for now that is all we can hope for. We love you sweet boy, always and forever.
God rest your weary soul, until we meet again.
6 months today you left us, my beautiful old man. We held you in our arms and watched as you slipped silently away, your tired, failing body worn out and ready for eternal rest.
You travelled that day with another little one who passed over to the bridge on the same day as you my darling - Alex was his name, he was a little kitty, a beautiful little man, just like you. I remember how much you loved kitties so I know that you are together there and you look after each other. I know that Harley our beautiful staffie is with you too and of course all the other bridge babies who have become friends since you arrived. They are too numerous to name them all, but their moms and dads know who they are.
My heart will never mend completely, the pieces are shattered and broken and you took a piece with you when you started on your journey. I have your fur clippings, your old collar with your name tag on it, your old lead, your food bowl and frame, they are all safe tucked away with your memory box. The only thing I don't have is you...............the one thing in the world I would wish for above all else, you and Harley. So, until my own rainbow time comes I must be content with all your memories and all your love, I keep them safe in my heart where I treasure them.
Good bye for now old man, I shall always remember you and all that you taught me, you gave me a gift, the greatest gift in all the world .... you gave me love.
Be at peace old man, until we meet again one day.
Hello my angel boy,
I hope that you are with Harley and all your new friends at RB, I know that you are free now, free from all the aches and pains you had and that you can see again through those cloudy eyes, you can run again and you can fly.............fly free beautiful boy.
Come see us in our dreams and tell us of this new place you are in, tell us you are ok and you are happy.
Hello, my beautiful old man,
The winds of time may blow away the sorrow but the memories will remain forever.
One year ago
You left us and found your wings, hearts shattered and rivers of tears flowed freely and unconditionally, just like your love. I have cried an ocean since you left old man and I miss you so very much, much more than words can say.
Sweetheart, be happy, be free and remember this.........I will love you always and forever, my heart belongs to you, until the end of time.
See you in my dreams old man, I look to the stars and maybe one day I'll see you fly.
Love mom xx
Loving you always beautiful old man, missing you forever too. You certainly were 'the best' sweetie and we will never forget you. Not a day goes by that I don't kiss your photo goodnight or that I sit in quiet rememberance and think of you. I long for the day I will hold you in my arms once again and never have to let you go. Walk with me old lad, by my side as always, silent and true. I am so lonely without you and I would give my world to have you back, but that can never be, not in this world. So, I will wait until it is my time and then we will be together again into eternity.
Hello old man,
3rd August 2008
Today is 18 months since you left for Rainbow Bridge and also it would have been your 17th birthday, Happy Birthday beautiful angel.
I don't know where the time has gone and it seems like forever since we said goodbye to you that sad day. Through all the tears and heartache Zak you send us endless love, undying and unconditional love that will remain with us forever.
We miss you so much my beautiful old man, we love you always and forever but it doesn't stop the pain and the heartache of losing you. There are no words of comfort today or any day that will take away the sorrow and emptiness of loosing you.
Still, we did what we did for you because you were so tired and in pain although you would have struggled on like the soldier you were. It was time to say that last goodbye and let you go on ahead. And so it goes, the weeks and months go by and another day comes and goes without you by my side.
We waited for you for so long and then, there you were, with us for the rest of your days, loved and cared for and so so special. We shared so many wonderful memories my lad, so many happy days and holidays at the beach, walking along the river you loved so much and swimming in the sea, fetching sticks and balls and lazing in the warm sunshine by your moma. Then one day - suddenly the puppy was gone, we saw an elderly dog who for so long had been the fastest, uncatchable and so so happy running like the wind. You slowed down and as the next few years came and went your eyes clouded over and your muzzle turned to grey. The days of running were over and you started to hurt. You could no longer run, even walking became painful and even though we gave you pain killers it was obvious that you were tired, your old body no longer able to stand up without help and sleep soon became your best friend.
So, it was that we sent you on your way, on the 3rd Feb 2007 we let you go and our hearts were once again lost in a sea of emptiness and sorrow. There were no more footprints in the sand, no more cuddles, no more days in the sun watching you sleeping and dreaming...............you were gone from our lives, forever.
You are never gone from our hearts though old man, never gone from our memories and we have your things. Your beautiful soft fur, your collar and lead and your food bowl - we have them all, reminders of you of our special boy our beautiful Zak. You lived a life long and well and we will never forget you sweet angel, never.
Fly high and free and be happy in Heaven with Harley and all your new friends, until we meet again one day.......................your love will live in our hearts forever.
Love and miss you - old soldier.
Hello my angel boy, it's been a while since I last posted but you are never far from my thoughts and dreams. Not one singel day passes me by that I don't think of you and wish that you were still here with me and Harley too. I have your love but I don't have you. One day I will hold you in my arms once more and I live now for that day. I wish you peace old man, no more aching bones and weary body. You are young once more and you fly through the Heavens like a shooting star. I miss you more than words can say and I have your love wrapped up in my heart forever. Sleep in peace little angel..........until we meet again. God bless you my beautiful old man. Love mama xx
Christmas day 2008
2 YEARS TODAY
Hello my angel boy,
Hello Sweet Boy,
27th Jan 2010
3rd Feb 2010 - your 3rd anniversary in Heaven
MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU
3 LONG YEARS AGO TODAY
I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS AND SAID
WHEN I THINK OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE
I LONG TO HOLD YOU ONE MORE TIME
YOUR MEMORIES REMAIN WITH ME
SLEEP IN PEACE MY BEAUTIFUL ZAK
Loving you always moma and dad XXXX
Christmas Eve 2010
You have your brother with you now, your Kip came to join you in September 2011.........oh how my heart burst with sorrow when he left, I had forgotten how much it hurt, how much pain I would feel at his passing. Such pain bitter and raw. You are all together again, Harley and Kip are with you, as it once was and always shall be from now until eternity.
I will never forget you, I will never stop loving you and I will carry my memories of you in my heart for all time. Run free my darling, fly high on skies of blue and sleep in peace wrapped in the arms of the angels safe and warm and free.
The sands of time flow as always, the breeze blows softly over the fields of gold where once we walked together, the waters of the rivers run carrying our memories and happy times along it's path.
I will walk with you again one day my darling boy.......run on ahead with Kip and Harley and wait for me at Heavens gates. I will come and we will cross over the bridge into eternal life never to be parted again.
You truly were "the best" and you always will be. Nite nite sweetheart~see you soon.
We have a new little one with us now, his name is Herbie, he comes to us in memory of your old friend Kip.......our Golden Boy, who runs with you now at the bridge. Look down on us old man and know that as we go from day to day living what remains of our earthly lives we cherish your memories most of all. We will love Herbie as we love you and care for him as we did for you ~ he reminds us of the beautiful life we shared and the wonderful life we had together with you, and he makes us smile again, just like we did when you came to us all those long years ago in 1992.
Run free darling boy, knowing that when we meet again it will be forever......always yours, your loving Moma xxx
Hello my darling boy. Another year passes by further away from the day we set you free 6 long years ago and closer to the time we will hold you again in our loving arms. I have tried to be brave today but still the tears have come in memory of you. I saw your star last night shining so brightly over me and I knew you were there with me, your sweet soul soaring high over the Heavens free from pain, renewed and young once more.
I remember you struggled at first when your time came, you were frightened of leaving us and wanted to stay. But then you began to fall asleep, one last time into my arms and as the nurse gave you that final injection I held you and whispered 'it's ok my darling, let go now, Harley is here, she has come to take you home to be free. Go find your wings my boy, let go my sweet Zak we love you beautiful angel' Finally you were gone, you became a memory. Oh how we sobbed, how we wanted to bring you back how we wanted you to run again how we wanted to feel your sweet kisses.....but all that was gone, in the blink of an eye, you were silent and still.
We must celebrate your life now, not dwell on the day you left us because there is so much more to your life than one day. There were 16 wonderful years, 15 of which you chose to share with us, our beautiful Battersea Boy. No regrets, no more sorrow, joy and smiles, for the way you lived, the life and love we shared and the wonderful happy memories we made through those long and fruitful years. We have your fur, we have what remains of your earthly body but most of all we have your precious love.......treasured forever, safe in our hearts for eternity.
One day we will walk again through fields of gold, we will swim in rivers with you and we will hold you so tightly in our arms and never have to say goodbye again.
Thank you for being you my Zak, thank you for everything ~ you were one dog in a million.
The day my world fell apart once more. Where have all those years gone my darling, passed by so quickly. Reading through all the messages I have written to you through those years I see nothing much has changed. I still love you more than words can say, I still miss you so very much, I still long to hold you and smell your scent one more time and my heart is still broken for your loss.
Not one day will ever pass that we will not remember you and the things you gave so unconditionally to us both, to all who met and knew you ~ everyone was your friend and you loved everyone and everything you met, that is one of the reasons why we miss you so much, your joy for life and your happiness to be with us. Today I am remembering all the things we did together over the 15 years you were with us 20/8/92 - 3/2/07. Remembering the joy you gave, your love of life and how much you fought when the time came to remain with us, I'm not sure you were ready to go that morning or were you afraid of the strangers in the room with us? I go over it again and again and still I do not know. One thing I do know is how tired you were, the light hurt your beautiful cloudy eyes and you could not stand up for long or get up without some help and that told me you were suffering my darling, something I had promised the first day that you would never have to do, never suffer so that we could keep you with us.
I know you knew how much our hearts would break and you tried so hard to remain. We could not see you hurting anymore beautiful boy, we loved you too much and so we helped you to cross the bridge into eternal life and youth. You gave us everything you had to give and in turn we gave you the greatest gift we could ever give you ~ peace and our everlasting love.
My tears flow again as they do often and I am told, control your emotions, but I can't my love and grief is too deep and I can't let go. It's your time now, 10.00 am as I sit here holding your collar and some of your fur clippings the tears roll down my cheeks and I pray that one day I will hold you in my arms again and we will be together forever, wherever that may be.
Fly high, run free my beautiful Angel boy and live on in all that is good and beautiful ..... forever free and forever in my heart, loved beyond mortal words. Farewell my Zak, tell Harley and Kip how much I love and miss them too and that I see you all each night as I look to the stars and listen with my heart to hear you happy and free, playing ~ over the rainbow.
Our eternal love and gratitude for all you gave to us.
Where do I start, what do I say that I have not said before, over and over again my darling Zak. I love you and miss you with all my heart, each and every single day, not one day passes by that I do not think of you or look at your photos or tell you how much I will always love you.
It is nearly your time ~ 10.30am ~ the time I last held you in my arms and felt your warmth, your love and kissed your beautiful face and breathed in that beautiful musky scent from your fur around your head......you were scared and we should have held you tighter but I cannot change what was and you left so quickly my darling, you were gone in a few seconds, you were so tired and weak. There have been times when I wondered if we did the right thing and should have let you stay longer because it was clear you did not want to leave that day, but when I look at the photos of they days leading up to that day and see that you could hardly stand or remain sitting and your eyes closed at the light I know in my aching heart it was your time. No matter how long you are gone we will remember you with pride and love always and some days even smile now at the memories we made together for 15 years, for the joy you bought to our lives and for the love you gave us to keep forever.
Run free my beautiful boy, run through the fields of gold and swim in the silver streams and rivers with Kip and your new rainbow friends. You have many that much I know because everyone and every creature was your friend ~ you loved them all. We will meet again one day and I will see you run to me, the one thing I long for again ...... until then we love you ~ always and forever, sweet dreams, happy memories beautiful Angel.
Love you puppy ~ Mom and Dad xxx
My beautiful boy 'Zak' I sit here typing through the tears even after all this time, 9 years ago today you fell asleep in my arms and danced away with my heart to the bridge and to Peace.
You truly were the best boy we could ever have wished for and you made us so proud that you chose to come and live with us for nearly 15 years. Those years passed so quickly and suddenly one day the puppy was gone and we saw an old man frail and tired and ready for your final journey.
And so we carried you Home in our loving arms after saying the last goodbye and sending you on ahead to make sure the way was safe for us when its our time to return to you. I would give my world to put my face into the soft thick wondrous fur on your sweet head, to soak up the fragrance of you around your neck and shoulders and to hug you again and let my tears fall on to your sweet soft beautiful black and tan ears ..... oh my darling boy how wonderful it would be.
I have your photos and our memories and your ashes ~ but I can never have the one thing I long for again .... my ZAK .... my friend, soul-mate and my son. These things will have to do for now for they are all I have along with the tears that fall in your memory and the smiles you gave us for 15 years of joy. You danced away with my heart that morning and you are dancing still among the stars .... free from the aches and pains you had a young dog once more, I see you there when I see a shooting star "thats my Zak, dancing across the heavens sending me his love to keep and to treasure"
I am not 'over' your loss, I never will be truly, no matter how many books I read or how many people tell me to 'get on with life'. But I can smile now through the tears and remember the love we shared that grew into something many never have ..... we are the lucky ones you and I our love will never die, it lives on forever in our hearts my beautiful Angel.
God bless, sleep peacefully in my heart, sweet dreams my darling ~ until we meet again along the path through the fields of gold that leads me Home to all of you .... I love you my beautiful boy .... yours forever Moma xxx
We have a secret, you and I
And who but I can reach my hand
And only I walk woodland paths
And only I can see you swim
I love you into eternity my boy, always and forever my beautiful Zak ..... loved and missed beyond measure.
10 LONG YEARS WITHOUT YOU....
Loved and missed always ~ treasured memories and photos of you remain sacred in our hearts. There are no more words I can say than I already have, over and over again I have said how much we miss you how much we love you and how we long to be with you again. Memories are all that are left, hopes and dreams long gone but you and your love and remembering the joy you gave to us for so long will have to see us through the years to come until we meet again and hold and touch you in loving arms once more.
This poem is for you, I do not ask where you are because your spirit is free and your soul transcended into beauty and light. Please just know our love like yours, is eternal and it will never die ..... God keep you and love you like we did and you watch over all those in need and suffering on this earth. You are charged with their care and I know you will carry them Home to be free.
God bless you and thank you for everything you did and everything you were ..... our beautiful sweet loving Zak.
WHERE ARE YOU NOW MY FRIEND ~ I MISS YOU?
WHAT WORRIES DO YOU HAVE ~ TO SHARE OR NOT?
WHAT FATE HAS LAIN IN WAIT ~ HORIZONS BLUE?
YOU PROMISED YOU'D RETURN ~ OR DID YOU?
WHEREVER YOU ARE NOW, MY FRIEND ~ I BLESS YOU
To the memory of a life, so beautifully lived
Sweet dreams ~ until we meet again beautiful Zak xxx
HAPPY EASTER MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL ~ APRIL 2017
Happy Easter beautiful boy, remembering you today and wishing I could just spend a little time with you to sit and hold you and talk to you one more time. God willing one day I will, all my prayers will be answered and I will find my Peace, as you have found yours. Tell my Sam how much I love him and Kip too please. I miss you all so much and send you all my love and kisses every night to the stars. Sweet dreams little man, until we walk together again, through fields of gold and woodlands of blue. I love you to the stars and beyond.
Have fun and play with all your new friends ...... until we meet again <3
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