2/19/11 - I miss you so much, Z. I miss you licking my face, saying good-bye to me at the door when I left for the day. I miss the sound your paws would make as you walk across the floor. I miss your meowing when you were hungry or just needed a friend. You were such a good friend to my Vixen and you were so loving to me. I love you so much and I will always remember you. Be safe, my loving friend. I will be along soon enough to find you. I love you so much, my Z! Thank you for loving me too!|
2/20/11 - It's been 24 hours since I got the call you had passed into the west. I have been reading articles about how you are near us and you are still on this Earth. Dearest Z, I love you so much. I miss you every second and my heart is breaking because of the void you have left. Please know that we WILL be together again. We WILL meet again. I know I was the only human you ever trusted so trust me one last time: "And that same sociality which exists among us here will exist among us there, only it will be coupled with eternal glory, which glory we do not now enjoy." D&C 130:2 Until then, my bed is always warm and will always have a space for you. You are in my heart, Z. I LOVE YOU!
2/26/11 - Hi Z. It's been a full week since you passed. I keep a light on for you all night. You will always have a place here safe from the cold. I love you, Z. I remember the whole chain of events so clearly. I remember feeling hope Wednesday when I found out this could be treated with antibiotics. I remember actually jumping out of my seat so happy at work when I was told you might have eaten something on Thursday. Then, on Friday, the sadness when we had to put the feeding tube in. Saturday morning at about 6:00 AM, I called to check on you and was heartbroken to find out you were put on Oxygen. My sweet Z, you died 2 hours later. I miss you so much. I can still feel you in the house and my Vixen looks for you every time I come home hoping I brought you with me. You will always be in my heart and I know we will be together again. I picked up your ashes yesterday. Of course you know, I cried all the way home. I love you so much, Z. I know now not to fear Hell. For a world without you and a world without my Vixen is Hell. Hell is right here on Earth. I miss you so much. We will be together again!
3/19/11 - Hi Z. It's been a month since I've last seen you. I have felt you every day and I miss you still each and every day. Tears still come so fast when I think of you but I know you are still around me and I know we will never be apart from each other. My sweet Z, you have given me so many wonderful things. You have taught me so much and I am so grateful for all you have done. I love you so much and I miss having you around. Vixen misses you too. I found the brush I used to brush you with and Vixen sniffed it for the longest time. I know your Spirit is watching over us and keeping us safe. I know you are still with me in bed at night and I know we will be together again. You are my love, Z. I love you SO MUCH and I miss you all the time. My world will never be complete without you. You are one of the best friends I've ever had. I miss you! I LOVE YOU, Z!!! Thank you for loving me!! I will find you and we WILL be together again!! I love you Z!!
5/19/11 - Hello again, my sweet Z! Oh, how I still miss you! So many wonderful things have happened during the three months you have been gone. For all of these things, I thank you for them. Vixen is feeling better. Because of your passing, she has been so sad and has mourned for you greatly. She got so sick and developed what is believed to Colitis because she was missing you so much. You have taught so many things since you have been gone: How to be happy. How to love. How to enjoy every possible moment. I love you so much, Z. I miss you so much and I hope you always know how close you are to my heart every day. I hope you know that I still have not forgotten you and that you are in my heart every day. I am still healing and I will never be the same again but I promise Z, I wouldn't change it for the world. I know we will find each other again! God keep us both as we find each other! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY SOUL! I am never alone because of you! I will love you for ever! Thank you for loving me! We will always be one! I love you!!!
2/19/12 - It's been a year, Z. In fact, exactly one year ago to the minute, I was at the hospital with you. Z, I have thought about you every day since that day. I have relived that week and all I did over and over and over the past few days. I can't tell you how much I miss you. I can't tell you how much I love you. I know we'll be together again someday but in the meantime, Vixen and I have a hole in our hearts. I know you have been with me, Z. I feel you everytime I find a cat on the road and I knew you were there helping Kalie (formally "Noha") find a home. I know you are still working with me and I know you are there receiving other animals who are missing their human. That comfort only goes so far, however, because there is nothing I want more than to have you and Vixen sleeping on top of me once again. I love you, Z. It's been a year but it might as well have been February 19, 2011 all over again. I love you, Z. I LOVE YOU EVERY SINGLE MINUTE AND EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! Thank you for loving me! I am so honored to be your person! I LOVE YOU!!!
2/19/13 - Hi Z! About a month ago, I sent a dear friend your way. I hope you found Betty and she found you, too. I know you will take good care of her. Oh, Z, I got so angry the other day when I realized it had ONLY been two years since you passed. How can it ONLY be two years? It honestly feels that it has been forever and I miss you so much, Z. It all seems so much like a dream and I wish you were here with me. Why do humans have to live so long? So much has happened this past year and I know you are with me. You give me so much strength. I love you, SO MUCH and I miss you, SO MUCH! It's all coming back to me - the love and joy of knowing you and being your person - and also the pain of having to live so long without you by my side. I miss your eyes, your meow, your gentle loves and the fact that you gave everything you are to me. My brave, brave, Z. I have not forgotten you and I will never forget you. Two years CAN and DOES seem like a lifetime! I know it will end and we will be together. Until then, please know I love you with all of my heart. I miss you every day. I wish you were here. My gorgeous Z. I can't wait to be together again. Stay with me tonight, Z. I need you. I LOVE YOU!!! You are always in my heart!! I LOVE YOU, TRONICS!!!!
1/25/17 - Hi Z! It's hard to believe it's been 6 years. It doesn't feel like it's been that long. Time has moved really slowly since I've lost you. I hope you know that you are loved and you are missed. I hope you know that even after these 6 years I am still teary when I think about you and visit those empty places in my heart. Those days with you and Vix were golden days and I miss you SO MUCH! It's still true, what I said all those years ago, that every day I wake up is one day closer to seeing you and I am grateful and hopeful that God will love us enough to let us spend eternity together. You are my Z-Tron and I love and miss you like no one else can. Never leave my side for you are always in my heart. I love you, Z. I miss you, Z. Please stay with me forever! I love you SO MUCH!!!