My little boy, it has been almost a week and not a moment goes by when I don't think about you or look at your photos. In his own way, Scottie is mourning your passing too. I know you are at peace. You no longer have any pain. Your discomfort is gone. |
I will always remember you as my special little "BoBo cakes". -- All my love, BaaBaa
August 21, 2012 -- One week without Troi. I think about you all the time and I wonder, "What would Troi say?"
August 26, 2012 -- My first dream of you.
August 28, 2012 -- Two weeks ago today.
August 31, 2012 You are in your final resting places.
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November 4, 2012 Good morning Sweet Boy. Today I am 60 years old. SIx months ago when you were alive I wondered if you would behere to celebrate with me. It was doubtful back then and unfortunately my doubts were true. I have Scottie here but not you. My friends are doing all sorts of nice things for me. Tonight I'm going out with Aunties Lynda and Margaret and even though I will try hard to smile, inside I will not be because one third of my "family" is not here with me. Some days I miss you more than others. This is one of those days. You are in a better place but for today I am going to wish you were here, for just a moment to give me kisses and make me smile. 60 doesn't feel so great right now. I will try to turn that around by tonight; I know you would want me to do that so I will try, for you. XOXOXO BaaBaa
November 18, 2012 Hi Little BoBo -- It's past the three month marker and you're still here, in my mind. It feels like forever but it's not. Three months is nothing when you think about the months and years to come. I remember that morning. It plays over and over again. I doubt it will stop for a while. It's like the morning my Mom died. I remember that like it was yesterday and it's 39 years. Now I know what Dad meant when he said he still feels bad about Teddy, our first dog. I keep thinking about another Bedlington. I love your breed. Maybe in a few years; I don't know. There's good and bad in everything: happiness and sadness. Joy and laughter. I'm finally taking a couple of trips. Scottie is easy -- no walking :-) Anyway, sweet boy, bye for now. I love you, BaaBaa.
November 24, 2012 -- My Little BoBo, It was my first Thanksgiving without you. Aunt Nicki was here and we had a good time but your absence was felt. Today in the mailroom someone asked about you. It's amazing how your short life made an impact on a lot of people. It might be because you were so cute -- the "lamb dog". I like to think it was because you were always so sweet - even though you barked like crazy at other doggies. So I keep looking at puppies. I still think it's too soon. The holidays are coming. Everything without you is going to be a first but Scottie and I are doing good. He still calls your name every once in a while. I miss you Troi and I love you -- BaaBaa.
December 5, 2012 Hi BoBo. Last week I went to visit my Dad. It had been a really long time and was good to see him. His hearing is going and he has to have his pacemaker checked. Worrying about him helped me take my mind off you for a while. Once I got home I thought about you more. I wish the morning your were put down would fade more. I still think about it and remember my last moments with you. I have a short video on my phone I look at every now and then. People keep asking me if I am going to get another dog. I tell them not yet. Are you happy? DO you feel good? I think so. I see other people here with puppies that are sick and know what it will be like for them. I tell them they will know when it's time; just like you let me know when it was your time. People always said the animal would let you know and I never understood it. Now I do. So stay and healthy and play with your furry friends at the bridge. You will always be loved here on earth and remembered fondly by me, your BaaBaa. I love you Troi boy. PS -- I'm going on a trip this Saturday. I will be swimming with the fish! Part of you is in the ocean so I know you will be with me! I will be looking for you. Kisses and hugs ...
January 1, 2013 -- Happy New Year! It's a new year and you are a part of it in memory only. I still miss year and everytime I write I realize I am still grieving. As this year moves on, I too plan to do so. Not forgetting you but continuing to heal. You will always be part of me, my memories and happiness. You are being well taken care of with your fur friends at the bridge. Be happy and prosperous in this new year (as Mr. Spock would say). You will always be in my heart - year after year. Love as always and forever, BaaBaa.
February 5, 2013 -- Hi Sweet Boy, it's time for my monthly check-in. I still miss you a lot. There is a terrible sense of melancholy over me so I know my grieving has not stopped. I still look at your photos all the time and can smell you in the throw on your leather chair. It's starting to fade but there's is still a slight hint of it. Am I crazy or is this normal? Most people I speak with say it takes a lot of time and when you least expect it, something happens and you feel worse, then better. That's the way it's been. One friend, Linda told me that she thinks the only way to get over your loss is to get another dog. She said many people have told her that. Others have said the same thing to me. Shaina's dad told me to get another dog just the other day. "They are a pain in the ass, but they're worth it", his words verbatum. So I watch the Bedlington sites every day and look at animal resuce too. I know I can never replace you and never would but when/if I do get another puppy you will always be present in my heart and mind. See you next month! Baa-Baa loves you...
February 12, 2013 -- I have big news my little Bo-Bo -- I just bought a new puppy. Shes looks just like you and I will call her Princess Chewie. It's almost nine months to the day since I lost you and I realized that because of you and all the love you gave me I wanted to have that again. You were a beacon of sunshine in my life. You gave me a reason to get up and get moving in the morning. You made me more social. You added to our family and added a new aspect of love to what Scottie and I already had. These past few months without you have made that more and more evident. Chewie is not a replacement. She will be a new member of the family: A different puppy. As you watch over us from the Rainbow Bridge be happy that I have taken a another step forward in my life. It validates everything I felt for you and everything I will be able able to give to this new dog. You have shown me so much and helped me become more tolerant and loving in many ways. I will always love you, my sweet boy and I know you know that too, Baa-Baa
March 8, 2103 -- My little Bo-Bo, tomorrow is the day we welcome a new puppy into our home. She will be Bo-Bo to Scottie and Princess Chewbarka (Chewie) to me. I am excited for this new addition -- along with the walking and cleaning up after her. At times it felt like like a chore but it took a long time to realize this "chore" was not work, it was done out of love and a commitment to make your life better. In return you gave back to me ten fold. I don't how this dog will be different from you but if peopple are different, so are dogs. So the next 24 hours will be very long. She flies in tomorrow at 2:40 pm. As I send you my love today I will continue to do so every day through this new little dog. Sleep well Troi -- you will never be forgotten. Baa-Baa
March 16, 2013 -- It's been a week with Chewie. She is a wonderful girl. Sometimes I find myself referring to you: calling her "he" or "Troi". She is getting into everything -- I think she's finally starting to feel at home with us. Scottie has been great with her. He gives her kisses and calls her. Potty training is a challenege! She doesn't like the grass. I hope this won't take too long. We started puppy classes. She is going to be a star in the class too. She is filling the void that happened after you passed. She will never replace you my little boy. She is a different dog and you were my special Bo-Bo. I know you are happy that I found her and want her to be happy with me too. I will make this a good home for her just as I did for you. You are everywhere and I know she senses it. So my sweet Bo-Bo, play at the bridge and remember how much I loved you and still do.
April 2, 2013 -- Hi Bo-Bo, How's my sweet little boy? At peace? Time keeps flying by and as we start appraoching your one year mark it's hard to believe it's been so long since you've been gone. Chewie is wonderful. I think even you would be able to get along with her. One thing for sure, she is a different dog. I am trying make sure she gets socialized. I'm sorry I didn't know better about that when I had you. You were so sweet and wonderful with people but not with other dogs. Somehow I know that has changed now that you are at the bridge. You are with all sorts of new friends aren't you? Yesterday Chewie was on your chair. She could sense you smell and was "chewing" on the elephant's nose that sits there now. I have your hoodie on it. She gets into everything but so did you at this age. I think I will always miss you little Bo-Bo. Nothing can change that. I have very happy memories of you and I will always carry then with me. Now off to play! I will check in again. I love you Troi! Baa-Baa
April 21, 2013 -- Hello little sweet boy -- I'm checking in. Things are hectic here. Chewie is a handful but so were you at this age. She is into everything but that's OK. We graduated from puppy kindergarten a week and a half ago then she was spayed. She bounced back really fast. Right now she's into the "digging" stage. I am determined to keep up my memories of you. There's no way I can't -- you are everywhere here! I can't turn around without seeing your sweet little face looking at me through your photos. I am making this short because I can't take my eyes off her for too long. You take care little Bo-Bo. Sleep tight and dream about me. I love you! Baa-Baa
May 24,2013 -- Hi Little Bo-Bo, It's been over a month! That's a long time but it's not because I've forgotten you. It's hectic trying to train a puupy. Last week I was so upset with Chewie I sent a leter to her breeder that she may have to go back to Minnesota. I was serious. She's been hell to potty train. You had accidents but you would go outside. She will not go outside unless I make her hold it all day! She held it for 15 hours one day. I've decided to let things take their course. She likes the balcony but if push comes to shove and it's been a good 8 - 9 hours she will go in the parking lot or the driveway. I'm fine with that. Poop is always the balcony which I'm fine with too. Her breeder was taken aback. She said that had never happened before. Probably because she had never had a puppy as long as she had Chewie and she didn't do her any favors with the diapers. But we are working things out. She is a smart dog. I talk to her and she tilts her head and looks at me like she processing my words. I've never seen that. SO, for the time being she staying but the breeder is on notice. Last week a new doggie came to the "Bridge". His name is Barney, a Corgi. He had been sick for a long time and his parents were taking him to the vet for chemo treatments. He's actually pretty famous; he wrote a blog about his fight with cancer. Look for him. He will someone for you to play with along with all the other friends you've made.
August 5, 2013 -- Little Troi-Boy -- I know it's been the longest since I've talked to you. I feel bad but you know you are always in my thoughts. It's getting close to the one year mark that you went to the "Bridge". I still miss you. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. I can still remember that terrible morning I took you to Dr. Prior and said my last good-bye to you. It's like it happened yesterday. I never thought that a year later I would have another "Bo-Bo" after having to let you go. I know in my heart that you are in much better place than you were a year ago. My poor little boy, you were so sick and never getting better. Everyone says that it took a loving act to do what I did. I know that too. It doesn't make it any easier and a year later I still hurt. Not as much but at times I think of you and now more than ever. So go play with your new friends at the bridge and I will light my candle on the 15th and check back to see how you are. I will always remember and love you my little Troi-Boy. No longer at my side, forever in my heart. All my love, Baa-Baa
August 13, 2013 -- Little Bo-Bo, Tonight I light your candle. I still miss you very much.
August 14, 2014 -- my sweet boy, it's two years! I can't believe it. I think of you all the time and your photos are all, over the house. You'll be happy to know Chewie has become a wonderful pet. She likes your chair and probably smells your scent when she lays there. Scottie is, well, Scottie! I lit the candle in your memory this morning. It's amazing how time plays tricks. At times , like now, it seems like yesterday I had to take to you to the vet and at the same time it feels like forever. But no matter yesterday or two years you will always be my forever "Bobo" and I will love your memory as I did you, for the rest of my life. Sleep, play and bask in the sunshine at Rainbow Bridge. Kisses and hugs. All my, love, BaaBaa
August 14,2015 -- I can't believe it's been three years! I still think of you all the time. Today I realized it was almost eleven years to the day I brought you home to live with me and Scottie. I know I gave you a good home and lots of love. We had a lot of fun together and I cherish every memory. I'm sad today. Your light is on and I've been looking at old photos. You will always be my "bestest Bobo". I loved you when you were with me, I love you know and will always love your memories. Sleep well little boy, in time we will see each other again but not for a long time. Many kisses and hugs. BaaBaa.
June 11, 2016 -- Today my friend, Sunny, lost her little Bella. Say hi to Bella and play with her. Her mommy misses her a lot. I know how she feels because I felt the same way almost 4 years ago when we said goodbye. Today I'm thinking about you and how much I loved you. You're still my "bestest BoBo". I,love you, always. BaaBaa
August 14, 2016, Four years.... I can hardly believe it's been so long. I know you're happy, healthy and resting peacefully. I still think about you all the time but today more than ever. Sleep well little boy and remember Baabaa loves you now and forever. XOXO
July 18, 2017, Our five year anniversary is getting close my little Bo-Bo. You will always be remembered. BaaBaa