30-10-2017
we let toby outside while the garage door was open. he heard a dog barking from outside so he stormed outside and i was scared to death that he was gonna get hit by a car, so i yelled TOBY!!!
and he came running back. i mean toby never listens to me. this is magic

08-01-2018
"i should retake that picture one day"
- photo of me with puppy toby'

18-09-2019 13:33
singing careless whisper to toby
the only man i can serenade

wijkinspecteur op de fiets controleert of ik hondenzakjes heb
'toby was pooping and this lady who like
inspects the town kept looking and i was like
sorry i dont have any bags w me i will pick it up later

like she was biking
and literally stopped at this pole
and just looked back and kept staring
until toby was done poopipng
and after i said that she was like
okay make sure you actually do that
and hten biked away'

22-09-2019
my parents were fighting downstairs. toby got scared and climbed on me and started shaking

14-12-2019 21:32
i remember toby and i once encountered a fox
on a walk and i just ran away

23-12-2019
mom: does toby want to be santa?
me: does he?
mom: he took this hat out of a plastic bag by himself, after giving it to him he already started destroying it

28-02-2020 22:32
toby is playing with the frisbee but doesnt
know how it works

07-03-2020 14:35
toby lost half a kilo 🥳

25-03-2020 22:11
is toby hiding ?

22:32
yeh he loves being under my bed

19-04-2020 23:00
toby just walking around thw house bored
he has been in quarantine his whole life

24/11/2024
Dear Toby, I miss you. Sometimes I still feel guilty for letting you suffer so. Please forgive me. I love you. I was selfish and unable to let you go. Thank you for staying with us until your last breath. You are so strong. Our whole family misses you. The house feels empty without you and I often feel sad when I go back home. I feel regret for not being there for you when you needed me. I hope you can forgive me. Life has been different without you. I'm thankful for all those years. How did 15 years fly by so quickly? I hope you're having fun up there.

07/01/2025
Toby my beloved, I wish you a happy new year! I came back home yesterday from my trip from Denmark. Mom often talks to you. She caressed your picture that's hanging on the fridge. I can tell she's still hurt and misses you a lot. We all miss you. Most of the times when I think of you, especially at nighttime I find it impossible to hold back my tears. I can't believe it's been almost 4 months since you left us :(

I hope to see you again. I'll keep my chin up. I hope you're having fun up there!

14/01/2025
My dear beloved Toby / 弟弟, it's now past midnight. Yesterday marked the 4th month of your passing. I have lost count of the amount of times I cried missing you. I get scared when I think I've forgotten you. What your cute little face looked like, what your fur felt like, what it was like to walk with you around our neighborhood in good or bad weather... How could I forget you, if all those grieving tears testify my love for you? I don't need to kid myself. My love for you is real. Meaning your existence also must've been real. The biggest gift life has given me is now gone. And though I'm struggling to find reason to keep living now that you're gone; I must be patient and keep living well. As if I'd still take care of you every day. I'll keep my body intact until it's time to see you again. I hope my kisses and hugs reach you. Love, from your 姐姐 / older sister.

29/01/2025
Dear Toby, It's almost been 6 months since you crossed the rainbow bridge. Lately, I noticed my sadness has more been replaced with a type of fulfillment when I think of you. I know how much I miss you, but I understand that you are living a better life now. I am thankful for every minute we spent together. Lately your 姐姐 has been feeling a lot of stress. I find I'm constantly doubting myself, nothing feels secure, except my love for you, however cheesy that sounds. I hope you know that! Please send lots of love and courage down to me. In exchange, Mom and I will continue donating apples to you at your altar. I hope you enjoy them as much as we do. It is apple season after all. Happy Chinese new year, my love. I wish you a year full of abundance up there <3. Eat lots of yummy food, play as much as you can, and take all the walks and naps you like. I love you sooooo much!!!

17/02/2025
My sweetest Toby, the weather is very cold lately. I'm glad you don't have to feel this winter right now. On another note, by the end of this week it will be 16 degrees Celsius, so that's some good news! Spring can't come any sooner :'). Oh Toby, I've still been thinking of you daily. Yesterday I cried again looking at pictures of you. You were just so sweet and loveable. I can't help but miss you during difficult times. When I felt sad or upset, you could instantly tell with your doggy instincts, and you'd come running to me!! How I'd like to hold you again. You were so huggable my sweet friend. My big boy. Lately mom has been getting impatient witg my jobhunt although I've only been looking for 2 months. I wish she'd give me a break and have some trust in me. I wonder why she doesn't believe in me? Do you think she does? All I know is, you'd believe in me. That's all that matters. I am still trying to find my reason and purpose through it all. It's not as easy as you had it. I wish we were together right now, but I need to be patient, and simply know that we will meet again one day. Love! 姐姐

18/04/2025
My dear beloved Toby, I'm sorry I haven't been writing to you. But rest assured I still think of you daily. A lot has happened in my life and I wish you were here to cuddle with me. I'm kind of having a hard time. I also found a job! I'm starting next week, so I'm feeling kind of excited about that. How's it going up there at the rainbow bridge? Hope you're eating well and having a lot fun walks. Take care and much love, your jiejie