14 years, 2 states, multiple cross-country trips, 7 residences; through relationships come and gone, death of family members, marriage and divorce....all of it we have been together....I first saw you at a few weeks of age, very chubby and bright and mischievous. You never changed; from day one you were stubborn and prideful and fierce...and loved me more than anything. You were also sick from the moment you came into my life but it did not matter, we found the causes and took care of each illness as they came...because ultimately love would keep us together and keep us fighting. As the years went on and as each fight became harder I saw you struggle to stay with me. On July 3rd, 2016 I could not put you through anymore and it was time to send you to the angels...it had been time, I was just too selfish and you were too loyal to let me know otherwise. The grief is only lessened to know you no longer have to struggle to get to your feet or worry about losing your balance or have to stay on your meds and foods to avoid seizures. You can rest, and I will see you again in person as I see you everyday in my heart since your passing. I am so sorry I could not be there when you were sent to the angels but I know I would not have been able to go through with it and back to the hospital you would have went. I love you..|
8/5/16 tonight is hard. I've tried to pretend like it didn't happen and ignore it but at night when I drink wine (lol) I think of you...and I miss you and I'm so sad. You were my best friend. I knew it was time but I just don't understand why we don't get enough time together...thank you to everyone for your kind words, I will thank everyone individually I have just been in a state of denial but I'm getting there with your help.