I trapped my sweet green eyed boy with his brother many years ago. He growled at me I thought, (that's how he got his name - I assumed he would be ferocious like a tiger and his tabby stripes solidified it), until I took him to the doctor and found his growl was a wheeze from his lungs and the cold. He was the second one to jump on my lap after many an evening of reading the classics and the first one to stay there. From then on he looked for a way to be there always and when he had to share me he would jump on the top cushion of the couch to rest his sweet head on my shoulder. He could never stay away all though sometimes his cat etiquette required it. Only a second would he make me wait if I begged. He was always there when my days were bad and there to share when they were good. A constant friend, my family. |
His nick name is ol' green eyes and everyone noticed how beautiful they were. Light danced in them and they seemed to turn different shades of emerald at any given time. He was a strong silent boy with great muscles and a gentleness I had never encountered from another animal. He never bit or scratched, ever. His patience knew no end and was something I envied him for. He never complained. He showed love at all times.
His fur was striped with bits of white and beige and felt soft like bunny fur. I loved petting his stomach as much as he loved letting me.
His heart would beat hard at the thought of getting outside or even close to the window but he had made up his mind he would stay in the comfort of home.
He would always let his wild brother have the advantage and he comforted him with an arm around the neck when he needed it. He let him pretend nurse from him for much longer than any other cat would have. There were nips and tugs but they shared a special bond.
He would make me laugh so many times. I would open the bathroom door to find him completely buried in the clothes hamper with just his head sticking out or laying upside down and squished between the pillows of the couch one eye shut one ear up. He and his brother had the same movements sometimes, turning their heads in tandem when awoken in the guest bed or when they were caught off guard.
He loved chasing toys as long as they weren't moving to fast and watching large cats on t.v. and animals on animal planet.
He begged for pieces of donut and egg rolls and anything fattening and fried that would fall he would gobble up though he did love a nice pot of grass or some cat nip.
He helped his brother when he could. I tried for hours to get them in one cage to the vet as they out smarted me and out maneuvered me at every turn. Bath time no different. It was the only time they managed to make me cry. I would be soaked and they had not a drop on them.
I miss how he would follow me around into each room hoping for head pet. He had a good loud purr that started whenever a hand was on him. He would flop on his back in your arms for a long as you would have him. He was a comfort to all who knew him. He was forever loyal to me and his brother.
He would look into your eyes and you knew he understood exactly what you were thinking. Very intelligent and kind. Qualities that are hard to find.
Time went to fast. It wasn't near as long as the forever I needed. His brother and I miss him very much and I know I'll see him again sometime. Right now he is saved in my heart and though the days are long in a way I hadn't imagined without him I look forward to when I can see those beautiful green eyes again. My sweet,sweet Tiger.
It's been 2 months since you've been gone today Tiger. I miss you so much little boy. Every time I show your brother your pictures he studies them then closes his eyes and turns his head. He is still so sad but we are comforting each other until we see you again. You're always in our hearts. Finding our way in the dark is hard but we will follow your light. Thank you for your love.
It's been 3 months now and I still miss you as much as I ever did my sweet boy. Your brother does also. He's been such a good boy! I go over as many things as I can think of a day that I loved about you. It seems like it's been forever already and yet just yesterday. I'm so grateful you were allowed into our lives. Thank you for everything. Miss you very much ol' green eyes.
It's the fourth month since you left us. I feel like you were just here by my side my sweet little boy. We finally picked an urn with some of your best pictures so you can rest. We miss you everyday. I've found that if you really love someone or something, that love never goes away. I will love you forever. Your brother does too and misses you just as much. Sleep well, sweet boy.
It's the 5th month since you left us. Still missing my sweet boy! I'll never forget your green yellow eyes no matter how much time passes. I wish I could give you a belly rub. Your brother is being so good. It's still very hard to be without you! I miss your strong purr and warm fluffy fur. Winter will be much colder little love. Much love sweet thing!
The 6th month. It's seems like forever. Your brother still closes his eyes when he see's your picture and cries. I do too most times. Miss you very much. I wish I could pet your head right now and hear your strong purr. I found your kitten pictures thankfully. I have made a scrape book with some and then I found more so I will make another. I wish things had gone differently. Miss you and love you always sweet thing!
My precious boy, you are missed today! I just got some more of your pictures developed from when you were a baby and I'm making that album up. My favorite one is where you and your brother are wrapped together with arms around each other. SO adorable! I wish you were here as usual very much. You're so full of love and so loved. Miss you sweetheart! Our love surrounds you.
A different year. I can't believe your not here. I never thought the day would come and yet it did. I was so unprepared. My sweet son. Your company is missed so much. Everything is different and it's hard having known you and knowing all we're missing everyday with you gone! It was worth it though. I love you so much and so does your brother of course. Much love precious.
My sweet little son. Your brother and me miss you so. I wish to see you so much but I'm settling now for our sweet memories. I'm a year older and you weren't here. I hope to one day, to feel you nudging my hand and to finish our last kiss of three when I see you again. I saved one for that time you know. Life is different for sure. You are always in my heart. Much love.
We miss you of course. I feel like I can reach out and touch your soft fur, like your just weaving in and out of the furniture somewhere I cant see. It's very low key and quiet without your presence here though you never said much. We are taking it one step at a time as usual. I hope one day all the days your missing will be added to you. Miss you like crazy sweet love. I'm glad we got to know you. You are so worth it!
It finally stopped snowing so I guess winter is done sweet boy. I keep looking out the window wishing you were here to see another spring and summer. You should be. There are birds to see and squirrels to want and your not here. It just doesn't seem fair no matter how I think of it. Your brother doesn't chase and eat the spiders like you. He's been exceptionally good to me since you have been gone. We both miss you so much my love.
It's the anniversary of the day of your death. I don't even know what to say. I remember that horrible scary day so clear. It was a beautiful day outside, sunny and not hot when I got off work and found you hiding not able to move your back legs. I knew it was bad but I expected someone could fix it and when the answer was no I couldn't believe it. 2 doctors and there you were looking to me to save you and I failed. I am sorry. You should not have been failed that day. I kept waiting for a sign that never came or I couldn't see it. So here we are. You there and your brother and I here and I can only hope that one day God will answer my prayers. I believe he can if only he will. I miss you more than I can say always. You are in my heart and will always be. My cat angel that saved me all these years. Your in better hands now. Your turn to be saved.