Since we only lost Tibbie less than 2 weeks ago, I am still too raw and exhausted to fill this in now. I hope to return to this page frequently, when I will slowly add stories about my special little girl.|
Tuesday May 29, 2012 - I am very touched and grateful for the outpouring of support for us and Tibbie on this site. There are too many of you to reply to right away, but I hope to get to all of you eventually. Your support is a tremendous help to me.
Tuesday May 29, 2012 - I'm a freelance science writer who works at home, and my bird's cages are right next to my desk in my office, and have been for as long as I can remember.
Tibbie and Beeker's cages are next to eachother, Tibbie's on the left and Beeker's on the right. I've not removed Tibbie's cage because it seemed to make Beeker (my surviving cockatiel and Tibbie's "husband") more anxious than just having the empty cage there. But right now I'm sitting at my desk alone; at this time of the day, Tibbie and Beeker would usually be in here, and when I worked at my desk, Tibbie immediately started pacing back and forth in her cage so that I would pick her up and put her on my lap. When I have time I will download a picture of her on my lap at my desk. Beeker also had to sit on my lap, and somehow we managed. Beeker spends most of his time on his favorite place in our living room now, and doesn't really want to come in here. I can't believe Tibbie is gone. Just thinking about her and that she's gone now, and thoughts of her pop into my head all the time, it just gives me a sick feeling in my stomach. I am bearing a heavy burden of sorrow. She did die way too soon - she was only 8 years old, and most cockatiels in good homes live longer than that. I just feel so sick.
June 8, 2012
I have to go pick up Tibbie's ashes today and I think it's making me feel very drained. Tibbie's mate, Beeker, seems to be unable to stay away from mirrors - I think it comforts him to see a second cockatiel, even if it is only his reflection. We're hoping to get him another play mate soon.
Once again, I'm going to thank all of you who have sent us your condolences. Please know that we think of you also and send you Tibbie angel wishes.
December 25, 2012 - It's been quite a while since I visited Tibbie's page and I'm way overdue. I still think of my little girl every day and miss her so much. I just got a sympathy card from a dear fellow guardian and it meant so much to me. We still haven't gotten Beekie a new friend because we're going to hopefully be moving soon and we have to watch our money, but Beekie is, thank G-d, doing so much better. G-d bless all of you, my fellow guardians and visitors and their feathered and furry family members, with a very happy holiday season and new year from me, my husband, Beekie and Tibbie z"l. We love you, little girl, and hope you're having a great time with all your friends at the Rainbow Bridge. I hope you can get this message from me.
February 3, 2013 - Hi Sweetheart, I still think about you and miss you every single day. I love you.
May 13, 2013 - Tomorrow will be the 1 year anniversary of your one-way trip to the rainbow bridge. I know you'll be waiting for me and your Daddy and Beekie so we'll see you again some day. In the meantime I hope you're having lots of fun, with lots of great friends, in a place much better than this world. We love you and miss you so much. My precious little girl.
November 12, 2013 - So much has happened since I last wrote here. We bought and moved to a new house, so we don't live in the house where my little Tibbie left us anymore. I still have her little pink blanket and treasure it. I guess I'm finally beginning to heal from the trauma of losing Tibbie, but the pain and sorrow will never leave me. However, I have some good news- we are finally adopting a cockatiel as a new friend for Beekie. He (or she, we're not sure) will never replace my little girl, although I'm sure "Gino" will find a new little corner of my heart to live in. I don't think Gino will be cuddly like Tibbie, but we'll see. I still can't stop hurting from the loss of my little Tibbie girl.
May 15, 2014 - It's been a year and a half since I've written in here. Yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of my little Tibblet's flight over the rainbow bridge. I miss her so much. I used to call her my little yoga birdie because she would climb all over me when I was doing yoga at home.
May 16, 2016 - My sweet little girl, I think about you every day. Beekie is getting old, I'm afraid, and little Gigi isn't proving to be a good match for him. No little cockatiel, no matter how cute, could ever replace you. I will always love you. I miss you so much.
May 14, 2017 - Here I am again, sweet baby girl. I'm so glad I have this yearly reminder of the day you crossed over the rainbow bridge. I know you're happy now and one day we will see each other again. I love you so much and I miss you so much! 💞 I think of you every day when I see Beekie. I'm glad he's still with us.