And if I go, while you are still here...|
Know that I still live on,
Vibrating to a different measure,
Behind a thin veil that you cannot see through.
You will not see me, so you must have faith.
I will wait there for the time when we can soar together again, both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to the fullest.
And when you need me, just whisper my name in your heart,
...I will be there.
2/6/2017: Today, I said goodbye to Teddy.
My sweet Teddy Bear. My squoojie-woojie boy. My constant companion. He loved his tummy snuggles. He loved any roast beef or chicken or turkey. He especially loved cereal milk.
He was 17 years old (68 in cat years). His heart and kidneys were shutting down. We spent a large part of yesterday afternoon cuddling. He slept with me for part of last night and was eager for his treats this morning. Then, he let me know he was in pain and ready to be done. He stayed by my side here on the desk until the doctor got here. Then, as I held him, he went to sleep - very peaceful and cuddled up in his favorite woobie.
I know many folks say they will never, ever have another pet because the pain of losing them is too great. I say the past 16 years of love and laughter and companionship that I shared with that little tabby cat are worth the pain and heartbreak now. And in my version of Heaven, I will once again meet up with him and all of my other beloved companions.
2/13/2017: How is it possible it's been a whole week since you left this world? I've got your picture everywhere and I talk to you as much as I ever did. I still turn to find you looking up at me when I'm at my desk working or watching TV. I miss your insistent and indignant meows when I'm late with treats or dinner. You were such a good kitty boy. Your brothers and sisters are doing their best to fill the void and are keeping me pretty busy, especially the babies. Sophie has taken up permanent residency in your spot on the desk. Last night, I dreamt I heard you purring next to my ear...such a loud purrbox you had. I hope you're running and playing and having the best time with all of your new friends. I love you, sweet boy. I miss you so very much, Teddy. I'd give anything to have just one more day with you as long as you didn't have to be in pain.
1/8/2018: It's been almost a year now since you've been at the Rainbow Bridge. There is still a Teddy-shaped hole in my world but the sorrow is less sharp. The love? Well, the love is greater than ever, sweet kitty-boy. Be good. I'll see you again someday.