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Tanky loved the water I couldn't keep her out of it in the spring and summer. She loved to go for rides, to the park and go down the slide. She loved tennis balls and toys. She especially loved her Uncle Brudders and her Brudders Drew. She was the love of my life and best four legged friend I could ask for. I miss you Tanky Ann.

~And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss the dance...~

~You were my strength when I was weak. You were my voice when I couldn't speak...I'm everything I am cause you loved me....~

17 December 2016

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Stink. Momma''s love and miss you more than words can say.
12 November 2017

It seems like yesterday still. Three years later and I still miss you! Love you forever my Stinks!

12 November 2016

Two years ago today I had to make the hardest decision of my life. I can still remember that day like it was yesterday. My heart still aches and you are still though of on a daily basis. Yes, I have Maximus, Yes, I love him. Yes, he has my heart but he is not my Stinks. You were my first dog as an adult, my best friend and loyal companion. Your love knew no bounds. I miss you today and everyday! Loving you still!


Stinks, It is sooo hard for me to come here without breaking down crying. It is why I do not come here often cause the pain is still real just like it happened yesterday. Today I was cleaning out a drawer and came across your rabies tag and some paperwork from the vet. I broke down crying when I saw it. I miss you Stinks...Momma still wubes you!


I know it has been a while since I have been on your page. It is not that I do not think about you because I do. I think about you every day and still talk to you as if you were here with me. It is just so very hard. I cry still missing you and loving you. I know you are in a better place but it is hard. Max is crazy and funny but nothing like you. Not that I expect him to be but I just still miss you. Momma loves you Stink!


Today Is gonna be a hard day Stink. I've started tearing up last night at work and haven't stopped. Today marks one year that I had to make that fateful decision to let you go to the rainbow bridge. My heart still breaks. I miss you so much. My job sent me back to Cleveland to work. I went to the park up here I took you to the last time you were here with me. I sat on the bench remembering our walks in the park. Mommas miss you and I hope you miss me too. I love and miss you my beautiful Tanky Ann. Loving you still...


Good Morning Stinka, I am sitting on the sofa looking at your picture. I still cry from the pain of loosing you. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you. How I wish you could still be here with me. I miss how smart you were. I have Max now but it is not the same and he is nothing like you all though he has gotten so much better since he has been here. He loves to play just like you did. He does make me laugh cause he is goofy. Funny thing is I think your presence is in this house. Max will be in the kitchen eating then suddenly bolt up out of there and come in the living room lay down looking towards the kitchen and whine. He has done this a few times. The last time your Uncle Brudder experienced and said he told you to let Max enjoy this life on earth to lol. I was cracking up because you never did like other dogs which I found funny but that was just who you were. I LOVE AND MISS YOU STILL STINKAS...Love Mommas.

P.S. My friends dog passed. His name is Diesel. He is a big ol St. Bernard please welcome him and show him around. He is a kind gentle, loving soul like you.

03/05/15 Thought of you today and cried a little. I still wish you where here. I got a new Labrador a male. He is wild and nothing like you at all lol. I pray he calms down. But as he was laying on the bed with me I thought about you and how much I truly miss you. RIP my Tanky Ann.

01/04/15 It is a new year Stink. I can not believe still that you are not here with me. It is a new year and I must go on. It is hard every day coming home and you are not here. I miss you baby girl. Until then....

12/17/2014 HAPPY BIRTHDAY STINKA!!!! I love and miss you every single day of my life. You brought me joy on a daily basis. I know I probably did not tell you enough but you did. Your Uncle Brudders calls you his best friend and he misses you as well. I am fighting a cold today and fell asleep on the sofa. WHO DID I DREAM ABOUT? You! You came to me in my dream happy to see me as I hugged and petted you and told you Happy Birthday! I could not ask for a better day than I have experienced today. I love you baby girl. Have fun in heaven. Ask God to give you a special treat today. If you were here we would have a doggie cake and some doggie ice cream and then go to the pet store so you could pick out your own toys. I am giving you a great big hug. Love you...Until then....

12/03/2014 Thanksgiving came and went I thought about you and how you would have been home alone watching tv faithfully waiting for us to come home. Your Uncle Brudder said he couldn't take it when he walked in the door that evening and you were not there to greet him. He broke down and cried right at the front door. I cry often as well just out of the blue thinking about you and how quiet the house is now. He bought nanners (Bananas) at the store the other day and I couldn't help but think of you and how you loved eating those as well. You are missed every day Stink. I just try and take it one day at a time. You are never out of my mind for long. Your birthday is in 14 days and I pray that on that day I can make it through. I miss you so very much. I am still in disbelief that you are gone...Until then...

11/23/2014 I saw you this morning right before I woke up. You were at the bedroom door wagging your tail not for sure if I was awake or not so you just stood there like you would do when you were alive and I would be pretending to be asleep. Right after I realized it was you I woke up. I hope you come to me again and stay longer this time. I love and miss you so very much Stinkas....Until then.

11/21/2014 Stinkas, Yesterday was not a good day for me at all. Besides being irritable I missed you a lot. It is not the same coming home from work and you are not here to greet me. I cried myself to sleep. I have been using the fireplace a lot your Uncle Brudder and I laugh at the memories of you running into his room as soon as we would open up the gate on the fireplace. I miss you so much and wish I you were here. Love you...Until then...

11/18/2-14 Good Morning Stink, They say that time heals all things but you never forget. I am getting better I can tell. I still cry tho at the thought of you not being here. But I no longer carry your ashes all over the house with me. There is and always will be a hole in my heart cause you are no longer here. I pray that you're safe and you've met some new furry friends. I love you always....Until then....


Good Night Stinkas, Mommas misses you more and more. Did you see the candle I lite for you tonight? I went to the ceremony. I am getting better at eating today I ate without talking to you. It was hard but I made myself do it. I love you more than anything Stink. You will always be my first fur baby love but I am sure you know this already. Well I am headed to bed. Hugs n kisses...Until then...

11/17/2014 Good Morning Stinks, I woke up to a winter wonderland this morning. You loved the snow. I would have took you out and you would have ran and ran in it playing and rolling. Then looking for snowballs that I would throw to you. I miss you so much my lil mommas. You were a great dog, a great friend. I hope you get to play in the snow in the sky. I love you always and forever...Until then....

11/16/2014 Goodnight my sweet Stinka. Mommas wubes you. I am going to head in early tonight hoping you come to me in my dreams. I can not say that each day is getting any easier. I do not think I will ever get use to you. But I can feel the wounds of your absence healing some. I love you more than words. See you in my dreams...Until then...

11/16/2014 Hey Stink, I just left a chat room for people who have lost their pets. They suggested a book I am going to order. I also joined another group. I am glad to know I am not the only one that is going through this. I still cry at just a thought of you. I still see you every where here and it makes me miss you oh so much more. You were my beautiful smiling Stinka Pots. Mommas wubes you please have fun where ever you are now. I refuse to believe that you are not in an afterlife because of how wonderful you were here. Until then my beautiful Tanky.....

11/16/2014 Good Morning Stinks, I have to make myself get up and out of bed every day now cause if not I think I would just
lye there and wither away. I see you every where in this house. I mean everywhere. Every time I go to the restroom I see you laying there just waiting. I see you running to the corner of the dinning room whenever your Uncle Brudders lights a fire in the fireplace. I see you laying on the floor at the sofa as I lay on it and flip channels. Your Uncle Brudders brought me breakfast I told him I am going to try and eat without talking to you but I can't bring myself to even pick up the spoon. I keep looking at your urn that I carry with me everywhere in this house and I can not bring myself to even eat. I know it is a coping mechanism I wonder how long will I have to continue to talk to you and pretend you are here just so I can eat. I asked you uncle if he thought I was crazy he said no it is just the way you grieve. He said it has only been four days so it is to be expected. I miss you so much my Tanky. I hope you miss me to....love ya mommas...Until then....

11/15/2014 Good Night My Stinka, I was able to eat a little more today but the only way I can get through it is by pretending you are here. Sometimes I think I might be going crazy. I never thought I could love someone as much as I loved you. The pain of your loss is sometimes more than I can bare. I do not think I can ever get another pet but I never say never so who knows. But just know that Mommas wubes you the most and always will. Rest well my Stinka...Until then...

11/15//2014 I am watching college football. Your Uncle Brudders was here and we laughed at the memory of you going into his room whenever football was on cause you didn't like me yelling at the tv. Oh how I miss you stink. I would give anything just to have you here so I could hug you again and tell you how much I love and miss you. Tina and Dori called me today they are coming up to see me cause I was crying when they called. I can't help it anytime I talk about you or think about you the tears just come. I pray that I get to see you again. I just want to hold you. You were the best dog anyone could ever ask for. So gentle and kind. I love you my mommas....Until then....

11/15/2014 Good Morning Stink, Mommas misses you sooo very much. I miss our Saturday morning routine of you jumping up in the bed so I can give you wubbings. I woke up and looked down at the side of my bed looking for you but you're not here. I miss you more than anything. I would get up and you would follow me to the bathroom or go sit at your Uncle Brudders door waiting for me to open it so you could go into his room. My friend called me this morning and told me I need to get out of the house. I explained to her how I wanted to move from here cause all I can see is you everywhere I look. I finally ate last night but the only way I could get through the meal was by talking to you and pretending you were here and I was feeding you from my plate. If not I would have lost my appetite. They say things will get better and that time will ease the pain. Does it really? I keep praying for a sign you are okay and for you to come to me in my dreams. I just want to hold you once more and tell you I love you. I never thought you would leave me so soon. I mean I know you would go one day but why couldn't it have been from old age not cancer. I wonder if I didn't have them debulk that tumor would you still be around? I think about a lot of things... a lot of what ifs? I wonder if you are playing, if there is someone there with you that you can snuggle with? Someone to pet you and give you lots of kisses like I use to do? I hope you don't forget me. I know I never will you. You taught me what it is to truly love unconditionally. I think if the world was like dogs it might be a better place. I miss you stinka pots and love you so very much. Until then.....

11/14/2014 I tried helping Uncle Brudders clean up but couldn't bring myself to even move. I did gather up your toys and put them in your bin to put in the coat closet by the front door. I put your food bowl and water bowl in there as well. Your uncle brought me your blanket that you would sleep on in his room. I could still smell you on it. I haven't moved your bed away from my bed yet. Don't know if I ever will. I keep praying that you show me a sign you are okay or come to me in my dreams just so I can hold you once more. You are missed so much Tanky. My heartaches. I keep your ashes in the bed with me surrounded by your blankie and your babies. It is the only way I can sleep if you are near me. I miss you baby girl. See you in my dreams...Goodnight. Gives you kisses and wubbings.

11/14/2014 I can't bring myself to eat yet. Everyone keeps telling me I need to. I try but all I can see is you. So I just drink my tea. I know one day the pain of you not being here will become less and I will be able to start eating again. I took out your collar from when you were a puppy and put it around my wrist. I miss you Stinkas you were mommas baby. Your "Uncle Brudder" got up and started cleaning the house up. It has been out of place since you got sick and we were busy taking care of you. Kenny came by to bring us some firewood for the fireplace saw the house and said he understood. Kirsten cried when she heard the news of your passing. She came over and gave me a hug. We are in the process now of cleaning up the carpet where you would bleed. You know I never cared that you did that my main concern was for you and trying to get you better. I knew it was time for me to let you go on Monday when you had come into the room and I laid on you and cried and told you I loved you and it was okay for you to go. I would be sad but I would be okay one day. I am getting your paw prints tattooed on my arm with your name. I prayed last night to God to show me a sign that I made the right decision by you and he confirmed I did when I saw this poem that said "and pain should keep me from my sleep". I knew it was meant for me to see that because you would be restless at night and get up and move then lay down and just stare into space. It killed me as I held you in my arms as you passed. Just know that I love you more than anything and I hope you are having fun.....Loving you always!

11/14/2014 We went and picked your ashes up at the pet cemetery. The lady said you were a beautiful dog. I knew this already because I was lucky enough to be your owner. I broke down and cried as she handed me the box. I opened it up and she had clipped some fur for me. I am going to go to the craft store and make a shadow box to put upon the mantle. I am going to add your photos, the fur, a piece of your blanket, your tennis ball and one of your babies. I miss you so much Stink. The house seems empty without you here. I see you in every room. Especially the kitchen when we were in there cooking. You would be right at the door waiting for one of us to say "find it, find it". You would come in sniffing all around until you found the morsel of food that we had dropped on the ground. I am having a special urn made for your ashes. I am ordering a different kind for your "Uncle Brudders". He asked me yesterday if he could have some. He misses you as well. He breaks down and cries as much as I do. We both misses yous....Love you Stink!


Trying to eat dinner baby girl and all I can see is you sitting here waiting for me to feed you some and it's hard. I can barely eat I loose my appetite because I want you to be here putting your head on my knee looking up at me like umm HELLO FEED ME! I love you Tanky Ann


My Stinka Pots, Mommas misses you so much. I miss you giving me wubbings and showing me your belly so I could rub it. I miss sharing my food with you and going to the parks. I miss you laying at my feet. I just miss you so much. I know you had to leave me but you will be forever in my heart....Mommas wubes you always baby girl.

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