I found Talyn when he was homeless. He had been put out when he was around 5 months old. He was outside about three days before we met. He would not approach anyone, but that day he came out of his hiding spot, and called out to me, and reached out with a little paw. It was love at first site! I was not looking for, or expecting to have a cat, but he came out to me, and we ended up having 11 AMAZING years together! He was the most perceptive, astute, engaging felines I have ever seen or known to this day! I taught him a lot of tricks, and taught him several different games to play. I taught him how to walk with me, and to stay close by the house, even when he was outside. He had his own private little patch of woods behind my building, and he loved it out there. He was always within earshot when I called out to him to come in. He would be trotting up not more than a few minutes later. I buried him there in the place he liked to play the most. He was truly the greatest companion I ever had. Our interaction was very deep, verbose, and complex. He was head and shoulders above all others! It's unbelievalbe how suddenly he left my life, and I still play out that night over and over, thinking if I had only noticed this or that sooner...Nothing is quite the same without my feline companion. I don't know if I will ever have the same complex interaction, but he certainly changed the way I feel about many things.|
He almost left me last year in june 2018, but I got him help just in time. I told him so many times after that "Daddy will always love Talyn, no matter what happens, I will never forget you baby boy". I meant it, and I intend to keep that promise. I had several nick names for him, depending on what he was doing or how we were feeling at the time. The one I used most was 'little tiger' or 'sukoshi tora' in japanese rumaji. We wuold play together for hours sometimes. He had a passive bashfulness about him that just made him so endearing, and he was very likeable by all. Where ever I took him, someone always wanted to keep him because he was so charming, like when we went to the vet.
I love him right now just as much as when he was in the world. I really thought he would be in my life for more than 11 years.
I really do hope I see him again in the 'after'. If it's possible, that's what I want! I miss him deeply. I told him, "No matter what happens, I will always love you and never forget you". Daddy loves you Talyn, forever!
-December 28, 2019-
The holidays came and went, and were meaningless without you my precious Talyn. The first holiday season in 11 years without you there to have fun with me. I got you an early present because I had planned on getting you a few things this year anyway. It's an awesome throw pillow that I know you would have loved so much. I put it under the tree by your favorite spot and took a picture of it. I also got a new blanket that I'm sure you would have liked very much as well! I hope you are in a good place that I can see you again. I love you always my precious baby boy!
-January 4, 2020-
Well, it's a new decade, and the count-down was sad without you. It just further intensified the fact that your time in my life has passed, far too soon. I am stunned that the time has passed so quickly since I laid you to rest. I've had some dreams interacting with you. I am going to make your memorial perpetual since you are that awesome, and deserve the adulation for being such a perceptive, interactive, intelligent, verbose and amazing companion! My tribute to you at home and online will show everyone who never met you what a gift you were!
I've decided that I am going to leave out all of your stuff as you left it for my next companion, who must also be amazing, except your favorites. I will put those away in your box because it was not only the first toy I got you, and not only your lifetime favorite, but it was also the FIRST christmas present I got you, in 2008 when you were just six months old! It's still in great condition and I want it to stay that way for you. I will always love you and keep you deep in my heart, my sukoshi tora, my little tiger!
-June 1, 2020-
Today would have been your 12th birthday. I can't believe it's been a year since I made the very last video of you, and 11 months since you left the world. It is truly less brilliant without you in it! I miss you every day. It feels like it was both yesterday and forever ago that I held you in my arms, and heard your loud purrs of contentment and appreciation. As I told you so many times when we sat together: "No matter what happens to us, I will always love you and never forget you baby boy".
I sit in your chair on the balcony and look out into the woods where you loved to play the most & where I laid you to rest. I hear that same bird every morning that we both heard together before I got up for work...I hear it and look over to say 'good morning' but you are not there...I sometimes see you in the corner of my eye, in all the places you liked the most. I keep looking for you, knowing I will not find you.
I will be celebrating the amazing gift that you were to my life, on this, your birthday Talyn!
-June 6, 2020-
Today was my first birthday without you since 2008, before I found you. I celebrated in silence. The day came and went very quickly. I slept through part of it thinking of you. I think of you always. You were the most amazing gift I ever had. I am thankful for every minute you were in my life, my little tiger. Things will truly never be the same without you here, my beloved companion. I love you and miss you forever and beyond!
-July 7, 2020-
Today marks exactly one year since you left the world, and I laid you to rest. I went into the woods today and walked to the spot where I placed you. It was difficult to get to and I almost didn't find it as the underbrush (and this odd vinelike plant) has pervaded the surrounding ground. I brought a hibiscus cutting but put it in the wrong spot by mistake. It wouldn't have survived anyway. Then...I looked over about 30 feet, and saw the spot! In a span of a year the trunk had broken, and it was hard to spot as the underbrush has grown over most of it. I found your spot, it was covered in a canopy of vines that actually grew over and covered the area but didn't grow through it, like a protective shell! I was able to cut away some there it was underneath, a hollow space protecting your spot! I found the stone I placed there, then looked up slightly and saw the branch I had laid over it like a lean-to. The most amazing part...a patch of bright yellow wild flowers has grown over and around your spot! They aren't anywhere else, only around you my precious Talyn! I know how you liked the hibiscus and wild flowers! It seems so perfectly arranged by the powers that be. I know you saw me, and heard what I said so I won't repeat it here...it's our secret.
I know I will see you again up there, because I will make it so! As the old song goes, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine".
The moment that you left me, my heart was split in two.
One side was filled with memories, the other died with you.
I often lay awake at night when the world is fast asleep
and take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheek.
Remembering you is easy, I do it every day
but missing you is a heartache that never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain;
you see life has gone on without you, but will never be the same.
You will forever get a 'good night' and 'good morning' from me. As I said to you when we were sitting in our chair together: "No matter what happens, I will always love you and never forget you." I will always cherish the time you were in my life, my golden feline angel!
I LOVE YOU TALYN!