Hi My Angel Sydnie Star Tomorrow it will be one week since you left. I still see our last day together. When we came home from the Vet I took you outside so you could smell the air and feel the sun. We went inside and you sat on my lap, put your little head on my arm and purred louder then I heard you purr in for sometime. I held you close and told you how much I loved you and my tears dropped on your little head. You were still purring loudly. Maybe you knew that I realized you were tired and were content.|
Finally Auntie Stephanie came over to help you on your journey. I held you so close and felt you slip away. I just sat there and held you for hours, still telling you how much I loved you and will miss you.
The next day I held you a bit longer knowing I would be taking your physical body to your final place. I did the ugly cry in the car. I turned you over to the nice man. I didn't want to let you go Sydnie, I would have done anything to bring you back to me.
I will be getting you back soon. I sent them a couple of pictures of you and they will pick the best one and put your little face on tile and imbed it in your final resting place.
A day hasn't gone by that I don't think about you, call you when I get home, I even looked in your favorite spot in the closet when you didn't come running. Then reality hit me. I still wonder if I made the right decisions regarding your care but I felt I had to give you a fighting chance and try the chemo, if it worked we would have had another year or two together.
Rory knows your gone, he stays by my side, makes sure he has at least one paw on me. I find him sitting in your spot when I get home. He was by my side when you left and licked your head.
The sun is out and I think about how you would love it and meow until I let you out on the deck to lay in it. Oh how you loved to lay in the sun.
I gotta go, I love and miss you my Sydnie Star. I'll be back soon.
PS I hope you've made friends. I know how you don't like others. ;-)
PPS I hope you notice the ring with the ball in it in your memorial garden. I'm so glad I have videos of you playing with it, it was your favorite toy. I haven't moved them and none of the other cats have gone near them.