6/29/2021 Star I lost you in the early morning hours today and it was so unexpected. This hurts so much! It feels so empty and lonely here now, this pain is awful. You know people always say it is just a horse, but they don't understand the bond that is created, the love that is there for this fur baby. You carried me over miles of trails and listened to all my concerns, worries, hurts, and happy moments, you were my therapy and my best friend. You were in good care at the vets and had other horse friends around you. I was told you didn't suffer when you went and I am so sorry you didn't get to come home. I knew this morning before they called that you had gone because there was such a feeling of emptiness in me. |
God granted me the honor of having you in my life for 14 years and I cherish every moment and memory of it. We had such a nice and relaxing ride the last time we went out, little did I know that it would be our last. I was looking forward to this weekend because we were going to hit the trail again. Your field feels so empty out there. I loved to look out and see you grazing with your little goat friends, there was such a sense of peace about it. It is so painful to go in the garage and see your fly mask, boots that I used on you to ride, your lead rope and halter, your reins, and saddle and so much more that reminds me of you. Your little goat friend, Oscar, will miss you.
I hope Russ, your trail dog buddy, met you when you went to the Rainbow bridge. Now you two can be on the trails together again. Now you can graze on all the green grass without that grazing muzzle on, you are free now. I am thankful for the time I had with you yesterday at the vets. I got to feel your soft fur as I laid my head on your shoulder and smell your scent as put my face in your neck, I will miss your scent and the feel of your soft coat. Matt will miss you too because you always helped me find my smile when you and I went out for a ride, he said I always came home relaxed, dirty, and happy. He loved you too very much and misses you. He thought he would be bringing you home today. I will miss your beautiful face and soft gentle eyes. I love you so much and will miss you forever. 💞🐴🐎💔❤️
06/30/2021 - My Star I miss you so much. I look out to your field and feel so much loneliness. The pain of losing you weighs on this place like a weighted blanket. You were such a good horse, you had such a kind and gentle nature. I don't understand why God took you because I still need you here. It is not even about riding the trails, it is you I miss, I miss your presence in my life. I slept with your fly mask last night and will again tonight because I can smell your beautiful scent on it. I love you my beautiful fur baby. I will love and miss you forever. 💞💔
07/05/2021 - Hi my Star. It is a week ago today that I lost you and I miss you so much. I will be doing ok and then all of the sudden the pain from losing you hits me like a wave. This is the first 3 day weekend that you and I haven't gone for a ride and right now with other stuff going on I could of used the time with my friend. I should never have lost you like this. Your field is so lonely and your goat friend, Oscar, still calls for you sometimes. I miss you so much darn it! I love you and will miss you always. 💞💔
07/19/2021 - My beautiful Star, it will be 3 weeks tomorrow that I lost you and the pain is still so fresh. I went to Tractor Supply for the first time since you passed and it was very tough because I use to go there to get the things you needed. I still have your fly mask in my room and I smell it everyday so I can feel close to you. I have photos of you now on the wall and I had a coffee cup made with your pictures on it so I can see you all the time. I could of swore that I heard you whinny last week when I was starting to fall asleep, it was so stange and comforting at the same time. It is a beautiful sunset right now and I can picture you out in the field peacefully grazing. I miss you so much and I wish you were here. I love you my friend, you were my heart horse. 💔💞🙏
07/29/2021 - My Star, it is a month today that you left me and I miss you still so much. I still have your fly mask by my bed so I can smell your beautiful scent. I really wish you were here because life kinda sucks right now and it would be so nice to go for a nice ride with my best friend. I am still so thankful for our last ride together, it was such a nice ride like God was giving me one final memory. I bet you have found Missy and Sierra there and you three are running across the meadow like a bunch of young fillies with no more pain and you can eat all the grass you want and not get a stomachache. It is still so hard to go out in the field because you are not there, it feels so sad. I thank God for letting me have you in my life and for his presence with me when he took you. I love you and will miss you always. 💔💞🙏
09/02/2021 - My Star, you have been gone 2 months and this still hurts. People will ask me about you and I break down crying. They say time heals, but it doesn't, the pain of lose is always there, it may not be as bad some days, but it is always there. I have good days and bad days and I think it will always be that way. You are so special to me and always will be. I wish you were here! I love you and will miss you always. 💔💞🙏