I think what they say about "love at first sight" is true; that is how I felt when I saw my first picture of Sophie - I was looking to adopt a cat, and my roommate's co-worker had a cat that had just had kittens. She brought me a polaroid shot of Sophie - she was only 10 weeks old, and she was the most adorable thing I'd ever seen. No further questions asked, I said "I'll take her."|
She was feisty, playful and a bit of a troublemaker. I remember coming home one night during the holidays the first year I had her and looking all over the apartment for her. I could find her nowhere. "Where is that cat?" I found her - curled up, on one of the branches of our Christmas tree, peeking out at me.
She was always getting into things like that.
She was my best friend, my companion for 12 years. She followed me everywhere - she never wanted to be in a room that I was not in. She slept in my bed, took over my favorite chair and made it hers, survived two moves with me and always greeted me after a long day (or a long trip away from home for work) with meows that sounded suspiciously like scolding.
She loved her "mousie" and "kite" toys, and batted pom-poms around my house at all hours of the day and night. She loved treats and cuddling up on any blanket she could find.
She'd been suffering a lot this past year with severe inflammatory bowel disease and triaditis. This last relapse of the pancreatitis really threw her for a loop, and she never really recovered. I think the decision I had to make with respect to her - whether to keep trying to treat her, or humanely end her suffering was one of the most difficult decisions I have ever had to make. I am going to miss her terribly.
Sophie, Mommy's Precious, I miss you so very, very much. I love you. I'll see you at the Rainbow Bridge.
Your 13th birthday will be coming up soon and I know that will be another really hard day for me. I think about you so much, Mommy's Precious Girl. Even after 5 months, it's just as painful as the day you passed. I miss you and love you.
11/08/2012: Wow, I cannot believe it has been a whole year since I said goodbye. I miss you SO MUCH...just as much today as ever. Mom and Dad got a new puppy, I'm sure you would have hated her as much as you hated all of the other family pets :) I really missed you last week when I was stuck at home a few days because of Hurricane Sandy - you were always such great company at times like that. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you, Mommy's Precious. I miss you and love you. oxoxox
1/21/2013: The holidays were tough again this year. I found your stocking in one of the boxes when I was decorating, and cried all over again. I wanted to let you know, though, that I've adopted two kittens...they are not you - you can never be replaced - but they are sweet and loving, and they are keeping me company. I cried a lot that first night I brought them home - I felt like I was betraying you. But I know you would want me to be happy and to open my heart to another cat (or in this case, cats) who need a loving home. I still miss you so much every day, Mommy's Precious. I love you. oxoxo
11/08/2013: Today is the two-year anniversary of your passing. I really thought I might be able to get through today without crying, but I was wrong. I still miss you so much, Sophie. The two girls I adopted, Zoe and Sasha, are great company and I love them - but somehow it's just not the same. I was thinking about all the things you used to do - like pushing your way under the covers every night and the impatient way you used to wait for me to lift the blankets so you could crawl under. I look at your picture every day - I have it hanging up in my office right over my computer. It's one of my favorite ones of you sitting in "your chair". I miss you just as much now as I ever did...I don't know if this will ever get any easier. I will see you at the Rainbow Bridge someday, Mommy's Precious. I love you. oxoxoxo
11/08/2014: So, I cannot believe you have been gone for three whole years, Sophie. When I got the email from Rainbow Bridge, of course I cried, even though I thought that it would get easier with time. It hasn't. Zoe and Sasha are great - they are snuggly and lovey and really great girls and I love them so much....but it's just....different. I don't know if I will ever get over losing you and that last horrible decision I had to make. Oh, Mommy's Precious, every day I wish I could turn back the clock so I could have you here with me again. I love you and miss you every, single day. oxoxoxoxo
11/08/2015: Another year, Sophie. It hasn't gotten any easier. I still miss you so much. I still cannot get that day out of my head...I hope you have forgiven me. I love and miss you so very, very much. See you at the Rainbow Bridge, mommy's precious. oxoxoxxo
11/08/2016: I cannot believe it has been five years, Sophie. It feels like just yesterday. I still miss you so much...I hope that I will see you one day again at the Rainbow Bridge...I love you, mommy's precious. oxoxoxox