1/3/2016 12:16 a.m.|
Oh Sissy girl I'm so upset. Everything I wrote about you and to you is gone 😫 I don't know if I can remember it all but I'm gonna try its been 4 days worth of writing. So here it goes.
Today I lost you. I'm completely lost without you but I can remember when I got you here's our beginnig:
I got My Sissy Girl as a rescue she was 8 months old and was the last of a litter of 8. She was kept at groomers kennel and was never socialized or had any human contact to speak of. The only time she had any was when she was fed. She didn't get to play or run or have love she was given the bare minimum. When I brought her home I carried her in my home and placed her on my couch she was shaking so bad from fear she pee'd right where she sat she didn't move! I cried for her. No animal should ever feel like my Sissy Girl did I was heart broken. I was determined not to fail her like the people had before me. So for three weeks I hand fed her, spoke softly using kind words and lots of love she started to trust me. After a while she trusted me completely we became more then owner and pet we became each others family. I even had to replace my couch because Sissy pee'd on it multiple times ( she was to scared to move ) I didn't care I would have replaced a million couches for my Sissy Girl. It has been 10 1/2 years since that chance meeting that brought us together. We've been through thick and thin and sickness and health but through it all we persevered. I love and miss you my Sissy Girl 😪💔
1/3/2016 1:37 a.m.
Well Sissy Girl I just simply can't remember everything I wrote to you but I do remember there were lots of kisses and hugs and belly rubs. I miss you terribly. Love you and I will write to you later on today Mira is missing you to she wants to go to bed. Hugs and kisses LoveU my Sissy Girl.
1/5/2016 10:00 p.m.
Hi Sissy Girl I've been afraid to write anything the last few days because every time I do it, it goes away and I get sad angry frustrated then I think I wouldn't be experiencing this if I could have saved you.😳 I miss you terribly theres a void that just seems to keep growing.
I got you back today and they placed you in a beautiful white urn with doggie prints made out of hearts and it was placed in a beautiful white bag made of netting with a white draw string ribbon. I know that they handled you with love and kindness. Drs. Ballard and McCloed and all the girls at the office signed and sent me a beautiful card and inside were your paw prints on paper; it made me cry all over again. Then the place they took you to sent a card in the bag your urn came in with the poem about the Rainbow Bridge on the front and inside of it was a personal note, the date you were cremated signed with sympathy but, the most surprising thing was the lock of your hair and another paw print and I cried all over again. 😭😭 I tried to show Tony but, he just kinda blew me off I don't know why but it hurt me deeply and I was angry and not having you here to comfort and love me I just feel like whats the point I want to be with my Sissy Girl and I know one day I will but it doesn't make it any easier.😭
I hope you have made a lot of great fur friends and having lots of fun, running and playing and being warm cause it's cold here. I have lots of kisses and hugs for you and you can share with your fur friends. I love you and miss you so much. I love you my Sissy Girl sweet dreams to you and nightly night 💔💔💔💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋(((((((((()))))))))) til tomorrow.
1/6/2016 10:17 p.m.
Hi Sissy Girl hope you had a great day running and playing with your fur friends. Mine was ok I thought about you all day wishing you were here. I miss the way you would follow me everywhere and be under my feet I really miss that and the way you would nudge me and look up at me with big brown eyes. I miss everything about you. Mira misses you too. She has sniffed around your cage and even went inside it the other day. I have to wipe tears from her eyes several times a day and I cry feeling bad for her and missing you.😪 Not much to say tonight so I'm gonna try to go to sleep and dream of you. Lots of hugs and kisses for My Sissy Girl. I'll love you til the end of time. Til we meet again my Sissy Girl (((((((((())))))))))💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋
1/7/2016 9:33 p.m.
Hi Sissy Girl hope your doing well, me its just been another day without you. I struggle with everything. The day started off the same way. I tell you good morning and that I miss and love you and then I become numb and just go through the paces of the day😳. I don't know if it will ever get better sometimes I don't want it to. I'm afraid I will forget and I don't want to forget ever! Mira misses you as much as I do she mopes around cries and today she climbed up in the chair with me twice. You were her adopted mom guardian protector and friend. She grew up with you and my heart breaks for her💔😪 I know that you are safe and healthy but, the ones you left behind are lost and lonely without you. Please send us a sign that you are watching from above. We love and miss you my Sissy Girl 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋(((((()))))) Sweet Dreams My Sissy Girl. til tomorrow
1/12/2016 2:47 p.m.
I'm sorry Sissy Girl its been chaotic here at home. I hope you are enjoying your new home and having fun playing with you New fur friends. I think about you all the time even when I'm busy, not a single second goes by with out you in it. I Love and Miss you my Sweet Sissy Girl I can't wait til we meet again.💔💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋(((((((((())))))))))
Hi baby girl I know its been a while and things here are ok I guess. I've been thinking a lot about you and am still missing you terribly. You left me to soon and a piece of me went with you. I still find myself crying and putting on a brave face so others think I have over come losing you and I don't think I ever will. You were by my side from the day I laid eyes on you. You stole my heart and soul and without you I am incomplete. I love and miss you my Sissy Girl there will never be another like you. You were and always will be my forever Sunshine☀ Til we meet again at the Rainbow Bridge. I love you my Sissy Girl 💋💋💋💋🌈🌈
1/23/2015 10:30 p.m.
Hi Sissy Girl its been a long day and I have thought about you all day. Every where I look it makes me miss you more. I write to you to keep you close to me. Its been so lonely without you everyone is moving on but I can't seem to. I get so far and the memory of the night I led you to the Rainbow Bridge comes flooding back and I just can't seem to move forward without you. Show me a sign or something that you are ok and that I will be ok too. I love and miss you my Sissy Girl 💋💋💋💋💔💔💔💔til we meet again.
1/29/2016 5:55 a.m.
Oh my Sissy Girl its been 1 month since you left and I'm still lost without you. Nothing is better and my heart still hurts and my spirit still fades without you. You gave a reason to go on everyday and now I have nothing well it feels like I have nothing. 😪 I lost you and that day I lost my heart and soul my devoted family member my companion my soul mate. Without you I am incomplete and will never be the same until we meet again until we are together again only then will I be complete. I love you Sissy Girl 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋((((((((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))))))))))
2/2/2016 9:32 p.m.
Hi Sissy Girl just a quick note won't keep you long just wanted to tell you that I love and miss you it still hurts that you gone from me but it seems like every where I look I see you a glimpse here or there. I need a sign that you are with me in spirit. I will be waiting on your sign. I love you Sissy Girl. Goodnight sweet dreams til we meet again. 💋💋💋((((()))))😪💔