July 11th, 2017:|
My Sweet Luci,
I came across this site last night while doing a search hoping I could find some help coping with the sadness I feel. Next week it will be two months; I feel so sad & so alone. I miss you so much. I can't bring myself to tell your story right now, but I wanted to create this memorial for you, my Beautiful Boy. Mami loves her Baby so much. I will come back to tell your story when I'm feeling a little stronger. In the meantime, if you can, please come visit me in my dreams. I need you. I love you. So much.
I am having such a hard time. I know when I created this memorial for you I said I'd be back to tell your story when I was feeling stronger. As the days have gone by, I don't feel stronger, I don't feel less sad, I miss you just like the first day. Maybe I won't be able to share your story anytime soon, but maybe that's ok for now; you and I know our story, and maybe that is all that matters. I love you so much, my Chichi; I feel like I can't find my place in the world, and it's just that I want my place in the world to continue being the same that it's been for the past fifteen years: to be your mom, to take care of you, to love you. I feel lost without you, my sweet Angel. Please let me feel you close to me. Please don't leave mami solita. Mami loves you so much, Bebe Lindo.
Hi My Chichi,
I love you Papa Lindo. I think about you every day, and I talk to you every day, just like we used to, remember? I miss you so much. No one else can fill the hole in my heart.