My darling I am too shocked to write. My eyes are wet and I can hardly see. I will try to write later my precious. |
Sept. 28, 2012 My darling Iam so devastated and picture you all around me. I at times do not feel I can make it through another day without you. But then I look at Soffee and Sarrie and know I have to for them. I
Why did this have to happen. I will never know the answer.
You had your pillow along with the others on my bed and on the couch and your baby quilt.
You and Soffee were best friends and loved each other so much. Today and everday since you have been gone Soffee keeps smelling and looking for you. Do you remember when I would go upstairs or go out to get the mail how you and Soffee would do your famous howling for me together until you saw me again. Oh my darling I can't bear it. without you, too.
I thought as did others that we had conquered the Cushings disease, but we had not as you from what the vets said must have thrown a clot to the brain and before we knew it passed away at the ER.
You deserved better in life an innocent beautiful little fur baby who I was so lucky to adopt. You were my princess and how you loved to sit and lay by me and me you and the others.
How am I to live without you,' am I to go on without you, yes, I know I must for Soffee and Sarrie and the family., But deep inside can I?
First just 10 days after we lost your "brother Spunky" God decided to take you too. And on the 9th anniversary of Sassy's death.
I was so lucky and so honored to be your mommy. There can never be another you or any of you.
SUNLIGHT STREAMS THROUGH WINDOW PANE UNTO A SPOT ON THE FLOOR....
Your heartbroken mommy
I will forever miss your kisses and your little body next to mine. My God has thou forsaken me? I loved and love her so. I will always carry you in my heart.
My little darling, oh my God how am I going to go on without you. I can not stop crying. Today your ashes will be picked up and I feel I can not bear it. Why Dear Father in Heaven did my darling little girl have to leave me too. Rest well my darling, run and play with Spunky, Sassy and Sissy and all the rest of mama's precious fur babies
Let the Angels hold you and let them give you a kiss and let that kiss be from me, too. I will hold you in my heart forever and will miss you forever. I love you more than words can ever tell. Your heartbroken Mommy
Oh how I wish I could just go and get you and bring you home to me, all of you, Sassy, Sissy, Spunky, and you. And all the ones before years ago. I love you all and will forever, Mommy
A million times I needed you,
In life I loved you dearly,
If tears could build a stairway
Our family chain is broken,
-- Author unknown
Oh my darling I could not write on the 26th as my eyes could not see because of the tears. Oh my Dear G-D how I miss you my darling. MY heart is so broken. I see you in my heart everyday where you lay and where you walked and where you slept with me Soffee and Sarrie. Our darling Spunbky had already left us 10 days before. Oh I can NOT bear it. I need you so. II want you. My darlinbg you were taken from me so quick. I never would have dreamed it. Oh my darling I want to hold you and kiss you and pet your beautiful fur. Please send me someone like you. Oh but therre can never be another like you. Soffee misses you so badly. She has changed in her demeanor. She just lays and I know she looked for you for weeks. My G-D I feel as if I can not bear this pain of not having you near. Please go to G-D and the Angels and let them hold and kiss you for me. Please know that someday we will be together again. I must stop as the tears are blinding my eyes.