My fierce little baby doll with the heart of a lion...Scarlett Cordelia, you were the love of my life. I am broken into a million pieces tonight. You died in my arms at 5:14 PM after a long battle. How ironic on many levels that you died of heart failure. |
There are so many memories that I could fill hundreds of pages but let me start with this:
You were with my Jim when he passed on March 1, 2010 from heart failure. My wonderful husband who left this world while I was stuck in traffic trying desperately to get home from work. Jim would have died alone if not for you, my brave little girl. I found you by his side when I walked in the room. How ironic that 11 years later you, too, died from heart failure. I can't understand the way of the universe sometimes.
Jim affectionately dubbed you "Shuey Sloane"...in reference to a little boy he once knew in Stranraer, Scotland. Huey Sloane was a tiny little boy who loved ice cream cones and had a lisp. But Huey could never say his name correctly due to his lisp...so "Shuey" he was...and many years later, so were you. You reminded Jim of Huey.
For 15 years you slept in the bed with me. You kept me company long after Jim died. Tonight will be the first time you are not there. How am I to go on?
I will never forget how you somehow always knew when I was upstairs...and you waited at the bottom & barked for me. Even the past few days when you were too weak to bark, you still waited for me at the bottom of the stairs.
When you got stuck on the small landing in the hall by the garage, you barked for me to come & get you...and I always said "are you stuck again?" with a smile.
I could go on & on...and one day soon when I have the strength I will come back to this page & write some more. But for now just let me say:
SUNSHINE, LOLLIPOPS and RAINBOWS...because that is how you made me feel and that is what my life was while you were in it.
Then, driving in the car tonight...listening to Sirius XM Sixties channel...who comes on but none other than Donovan. I remember how much your daddy Jim loved Donovan...this was a song I had never heard before..."Wear Your Love Like Heaven"...lyrics:
Just in case the collar with your name falling to the floor was not enough of a knock on the head to me...then this second GodWink....