4/23/22: Oh my Sasha baby,,,,,I am so sorry for you,,,,since yesterday you had crashed and were in such misery,,,,,I had just lost your sister two days ago and was praying so hard that you would make a turn around and start to get better,,,as losing any of you is just too hard, but so close together is not something I could handle. But as I looked into your eyes and spoke to you, I knew I had to be strong and let you go,,,,,,,all I can hope is that you met Tasha at the bridge and you are together again,,,,,|
I am so shattered by all of this, that just like I told Tasha, I just don't have the strength of heart or mind to complete your full memorials just yet, but wanted to at least put your page up to honor you,,,,,I will be back to finish both you and your sister's memorials within a few days, after I've had a little time to try to accept this,,,,
I love you so much my baby girl,,,,,Love and Light XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX
As Tasha was a very shy girl, and you were very bold, I could not adapt you into the rest of the group, so you guys ended up sharing the main house with Thomas and Precious. You and Tasha became so close, sleeping together, sharing the window perches,,,,,anywhere you went, Tasha went too,,,,she loved you so much. Sadly, I noticed as Tasha was here a while, that something must have happened to her at birth or shortly thereafter, because her one eye was a bit smaller than the other and she seemed to have trouble focusing with it, and also her hind legs never became as strong as they should have, so she was never able to jump up on things that were too high. You, however, made up for it by going anywhere and everywhere! Your favorite place was on top of the kichen cabinets :) And my favorite thing was when I would open the refrigerator, you would jump on top of it and put your paws in, like 'hey, can I get you a drink or something?' I have a photo of you doing that and it always makes me smile. You were such a funny girl.
And boy, were you tough! You could not be told 'no' to anything,,,you would just stare at me and plant your feet, and even at times would come after me :) Most people would have thought you were too aggressive or vicious, but I've had so many babies in my life, that to me this was just part of your unique personality, and I loved it. Tasha was my 'soft paw' and you were the muscle. :)
You and Tasha would also loved when I practiced for my competitions,,,,you would jump up on the pool table and knock balls in with me,,,,it was so funny how you would get annoyed when one didn't go in :) Oh baby, how I miss that so, so much,,,,I haven't been able to practice since you left until yesterday when I tried a little, but I just kept seeing you there and couldn't get through it,,,,, I also haven't been able to sleep,,,,when I lost Thomas and Precious, who used to sleep with me, I went through the same thing. Then you and Tasha started to do it, and you took on the habit of sleeping on my stomach, and since you left, it's been so, so hard trying to sleep,,,,I just so miss you there,,,especially when you would first come up and yap in my face when I was reading, like 'hey, put the book down, it's time to sleep'. I miss you, more than these words can say,,,,,,
I hope you know I will always cherish and be grateful for all the years you gave me, all the laughs, and all the love we shared. I can only hope you are with Tasha again and are whole and happy, and that your life with me was filled with love, fun, and that you always felt safe.
I am again so sorry you became ill and that I had to make that horrible decision,,,,I hope you and Tasha know it was only because I love you and could not let you guys suffer any longer,,,,,,,
I love you with all my heart, and that's where you'll always be,,,,,my sweet, sweet Sasha,,,,hugs, kisses, and no more tears in Heaven. Love and Light my beautiful baby,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX
You will be sad, I understand,
I know that now my needs you'll tend,
Do not grieve that it must be you
Would you hold my hand, if I saw you in Heaven.
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure
Would you know my name, if I saw you in Heaven
'Cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven,,,,,,
5/3/22: Hi my baby,,,,,if you've been able to visit, you know how hard it's been without you,,,,I think I see you everywhere, especially on the front window perch---is it you or just my mind playing tricks? As I've written to the others, I am not going to write any deep feeling or emotions on these pages, but I hope you hear me when I talk to you. I miss you more than words can say,,,,,you'll always be in my heart my baby, and I will always love you. Love and Light sweetie face,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX