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Memories of Sammy
Today my Sammy has been physically gone from my side for 9 days. I'm still missing him tremendously, and at some times during the day...I'm not sure the deep heart wrenching pain will ever go away.

I keep having images of him when he first came to me though, 17 years ago. My husband gave him to me when I was 7 months pregnant with our last child. It was a surprise to see him standing there with this tiny ball of fur on his shoulder...because not only did we already have several cats...he didn't particularly like cats at all!

He worked for the local electric company at that time, and often had to go to customer's homes to survey their land to help upgrade their electric service...we lived in rural Indiana back then. One day he found himself at a customer's home that had a litter of kittens they were trying to find homes for...and my husband decided...out of the blue...to pick Sammy out of that litter and bring him home to me.

It was the beginning of a 17 year love story, of two souls connected...one human, one cat...forever connected.

Sammy chose me as "his" from the beginning. One of my earliest memories of Sammy was his way of getting my attention. He would take a flying leap and land on my face...arms wrapped around my head, legs around my neck and biting my face to wake the hell up and feed him! How can you deny this kind of message? I of course couldn't deny him a thing after this.

Sammy, the once tiny kitten, with tiny triangles for ears seemingly stuck to the side of his tiny head, Sammy so tiny his fur stood straight up still, Sammy so tiny he couldn't drink yet, as he wasn't weaned when he came home with my husband...so he "sucked" the water...grew into a miniature black panther that weighed nearly 18 pounds for most of his adult life.

Sammy, my precious black panther in disguise weighed 10 pounds at his death, and it was terrible to see the contrast at the end.

But as my soul slowly begins to heal...I'm able to recall tons of fabulous things about my precious soul mate, and will in time add these memories here.

My love and healing go to you constantly my precious Sammy...Momma will never, ever forget who you were, who you grew to be...not only in my life...but in everyone's life that ever met you...I love you

5/26/2011 Today I've added a photo of my truck that I named after Sammy a few years ago when I bought it. I have two of his whiskers taped to the dash board for guidance, and it's worked so far, because that truck and I have driven many a mile in safety. I miss you tremendously still Sammy, and am so grateful you still watch over me! I love you always!

6/7/2011 Today I'm adding some pictures of Sammy in his healthier years, before he went blind and started to lose weight and decline. He's my precious King cat, that never ever let a second go by without my knowing what was on his mind. I love you always my sweet precious boy...hugs and kisses for you always!

8/2/2011 Here we are Sammy...at 3 months since I last held your precious body...who knew I would even be functioning at this stage! I know that I am indeed functioning because you passed "the power" to Spotsguy, who has done an exceptional job of comforting me in your physical absence. I know you know this already...I see Spotsguy looking at you at odd times while he lays with me. You my precious Sammy, have taught me that life, and love do not die when the physical body dies. I am infinitely grateful for this "knowing" because, while I had you in my everyday physical life...my biggest fear was losing you "forever" when you died. You have shown me that you are still with me, and I treasure every sign you have sent me...it helps me go on. I love you my precious, always have...and always will! Love Momma ((((hugs))))

11/1/2011 Sammy my precious man cat, I cannot believe you have been physically gone from me for almost 6 months! my life is infinitely different since your precious body left me. Spotsguy has held true to his promise to watch over me while you are gone, which comforts me beyond words...but he isn't YOU!

I think of you so often...especially driving our truck, named after you. Some of us are so damn fortunate to have a love soul mate in life...and I was blessed with you, and words don't exist how my heart hurts at your being not here. My only hope is that you will be there when I cross over...so I can pick you up and hold you again and kiss your neck.

I love you with every fiber of my being, and want you to know I'm OK for now. I hope you hear my thoughts constantly giving you my kisses on your neck, my soft breaths in your ear and your favorite rubs on your back. I love you my baby...always have, and always will...Momma

Today December 12th I want to share the words of the the song that got me through the first two or three weeks after your sweet self left me. The tune is by Sade, Called "Cherish the Day" and believe me I listened to it a billion times and still do. Here are the words...

You're ruling the way that I move
And I breathe your air
You only can rescue me
This is my prayer

If you were mine
If you were mine
I wouldn't want to go to heaven

I cherish the day
I won't go astray
I won't be afraid
You won't catch me running
You're ruling the way that I move
You take my air

You show me how deep love can be

You're ruling the way that I move
And I breathe your air
You only can rescue me
This is my prayer

I cherish the day
I won't go astray
I won't be afraid
You won't catch me running
I cherish the day
I won't go astray
I won't be afraid
Won't run away

You show me how deep love can be
You show me how deep love can be
This is my prayer

I cherish the day
I won't go astray
I won't be afraid
Won't run away
Won't shy

I cherish the day
I won't go astray

I cherish the day
I cherish the day
I cherish the day
I cherish the day
I cherish the day

Momma always loves you my sweet Man cat, not a day goes by that I don't cherish the days you were with me, and not a day goes by with my recall of how I breathed in your air...I love you until eternity

Momma

12/12/2011

I just want to say a few more things to you my love. "Cherish the Day" is special to me because we would lay next to each other and breathe in each others air. I would lay still next to you and breathe so deeply, and you would do the same for me. Those moments were the most precious in my life while you were with me. A spiritual friend told me once I should be GIVING you the air....but it wasn't like that with us....we gave it to each other, and it didn't stop until the week you were dying. Just another precious memory that makes me hurt when I look at your ashes box. One thing that keeps me going is I wear the broken heart half on a chain on my neck and will until the day I die....knowing the other half is with your ashes. I love you eternally my Sammy Love, Momma

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