August 2, 2018|
Here we are again. The start of a new beginning. As I promised, I printed every word I wrote to you. Now it is time to start anew. First, of course, are the poems. Each one expresses, better than I could myself, how I feel about losing you. My favorite is the first one by Robert Browning Hamilton. It just about says it all for me. As I did in the past, since losing you, I will write something every single week. Each time I will try to tell you how I am feeling and just to have the chance to show you how much you are missed and loved. My love for you will last for all eternity and beyond. Until next week my precious keep looking down at your Mommy and I will keep looking up at you. One day I will cross that Bridge and come running to find you. Love you so much, Your Mommy.
ALONG THE ROAD by Robert Browning Hamilton
I WALKED A MILE WITH PLEASURE,
SHE CHATTERED ALL THE WAY;
BUT LEFT ME NONE THE WISER,
FOR ALL SHE HAD TO SAY.
I WALKED A MILE WITH SORROW,
AND NE'ER A WORD SAID SHE;
BUT, OH, THE THINGS I LEARNED FROM HER
WHEN SORROW WALKED WITH ME!
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
You no longer greet me, as I walk through the door.
You're not there to make me smile, to make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you, you were far more than a pet.
You were a family member, a friend,...
It will take time to heal - for the silence to go away.
I still listen for you and miss you every day.
You were such a great companion, constant, loyal, true.
My heart will always wear,
THE PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU.
DO NOT STAND AT MY GRAVE
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
I HAVEN'T LEFT AT ALL
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh;
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven't left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain, and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I've seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws on the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it's just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I'm really there, my spirit's left behind
I know your heart is hurting; it's like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won't see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tightly by love, death is not the curtain call;
It's really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So, dear Mommy as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven's gate.
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to heaven
and bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.
But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.
No matter what anybody says about grief
and about time healing all wounds,
the truth is,
There are certain sorrows that never fade away6
until the heart stops beating
and the last breath is taken.
And so it is for me.
When tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here inside your heart.
August 09, 2018-Do you know what I was just thinking my precious little boy, that this song so much says what I feel about you. You always Raised me Up to be better than I am. You gave me so much joy and happiness. Never mind. One day my sweet baby Pedro, one day I will too cross that Bridge and come running to find you and tell you just how much you mean to me. What I want from you right now is for you to go and play with all the other fur angels in the meadows beyond the Rainbow Bridge but not to forget to look down, once in a while, at your Mommy who is always looking up at you. Until next week my precious, hugs and kisses galore to my boy from his Mommy.
August 16, 2018-Another Thursday which means it is time for Your Mommy to write you a letter of love because she misses you so very much. Pedro, I am sure heaven must be an awesome place but still and all I wish you could just come and visit me for a very short while. I would give my all to be able to hold you once again. My hope is that when I get to that Bridge and run across I will find you waiting for me on the other side. Otherwise, my sweet little boy, it wouldn't be heaven for me. Sending you a huge amount of love, hugs and kisses and a promise that if I am able, I will visit your Rainbows Bridge Residency again next week and write even more words of love. Until then my precious, I will always always be Your Mommy.
August 23, 2018-For my sweet and precious little man Pedro today I am sending you straight from my heart a huge amount of love. I am missing you so much every single day. Wherever you are I hope that you can feel my love and know that you were and still are very special to me. They say that time heals all wounds. Not really. It may ease the pain somewhat but underneath the pain will always be there. Just remember to keep looking down at your Mommy and I will keep looking up at you. Sending a huge amount of love, hugs, and kisses straight to heaven via angel airmail. I am and will always be Your Mommy.
August 30, 2018-Time seems to fly so fast these days and here we are, another Thursday which means it is time for me to write to my baby boy and tell him once again how much he is missed and how much I love him. With each passing day, it is getting closer and closer to the time when I will reach that Bridge and come looking for my precious Pedro. For whatever heaven is, it won't be heaven unless you are there to share it with me. I love you in this world and I will love you in the next and I will love you for all eternity and beyond. As for today and now, I am sending you a huge amount of Mommy hugs and kisses to be shared with Kippy and Buttons. Until next time my darling you will always be my little man and I will always be Your Mommy.
September 06, 2018-Yet another week has passed without you my sweet and precious little boy. I hope you know that you are my guiding star and I will love you forever and ever and always, We may be parted now but one day we will be together for all eternity. In the meantime, I am sending you a huge amount of Mommy hugs and kisses and I promise to keep looking up at you knowing that you are looking down at me. Love you until the end of time, Your Mommy.
September 13. 2018-Pedro my sweet and precious love today while driving to take your sister Keshet for a haircut I passed right by the road that leads to the place where you were born and where I found you. If I had a wish it would be to be able to turn the clock back and change that awful day that I lost you. They say time heals all wounds but that wound will never heal. I will miss you until the day comes when I too will come to that Bridge and come running across to find you. I miss you so much, my little man. Please keep looking down at your Mommy and I promise to keep looking up at you. Forever and ever I will always love you and will always be Your Mommy.
September 20, 2018-One day I was sitting here and wondering what will happen when I am no longer around. There wouldn't be anyone to write you love letters every week. Then it dawned on me. Of course, it won't be necessary because we will be together again forever and ever and always. There simply is no other possibility. None. This separation is only temporary because a love like we share cannot just go away or disappear. It will exist for all eternity. I love you now as I did from the first day I ever saw you. Perhaps even more. You are my shining star. I miss you terribly but know that if I look up at the night sky you will be there looking down at me. Love you my precious. Until next week, sending a huge amount of hugs and kisses from Your Mommy.
September 27, 2018-Hello again sweet and precious baby boy of mine. I am stopping in again to tell you how much you are missed. Every time I go to the places that we used to go together I realize what a terrible loss I have suffered and how much I would give just to get you back. Hopefully, you are receiving all the love, hugs and kisses that I am sending you via angel airmail. I'm sure the angels are doing their job and making sure you receive the love I am sending, straight from my heart. Precious puppy of mine I will write again next week and send even more love. Until then, I will always be, Your Mommy.
October 04, 2018-Pedro my very special little man I am visiting you today as I do every week to let you know that you are not now or never ever will be forgotten. I will remember and love you through all time and space. You are so much a part of me and I a part of you. The baby boy of mine I am sending you today's huge amount of love, hugs, and kisses and remember my darling keep looking down at your Mommy so you will see her looking up at you. Miss you so much, Always and forever I am Your Mommy.
October 11, 2018-For my most precious and wonderful boy Pedro Mommy is visiting you today and bringing with her a huge bundle full of love. Mommy misses you so much. Included in the bundle are lots and lots of kisses and hugs too. I always think of you every single day and will never, ever forget you. Thank you for sharing what time we had together and for being my little man. Wait for me, sweetheart. One day I will come across that Bridge and find you. We will then be together for all eternity. Until that time my Pedro, keep on looking down at your Mommy and I will keep looking up at you. Next week, same time, same place. Until then, I am and will always be Your Mommy.
October 18, 2018-The weeks just fly by and here I am again visiting my Pedro. You would think that after so much time has passed, that it would be easier for me to accept the fact that you are gone. It isn't though. I still miss you as much today as I did when I lost you. You are so embedded deep in my heart and soul and will remain there until I can rejoin you. Sending you today's huge enormous portion of Mommy love and with it more hugs and kisses than you can count. Now go and play with all your Fur Angel friends and wait for me, my darling little man. Wait for me. Love you until the end of time, Your Mommy.
October 25, 2018-To my shining star in the night sky, to my sun and moon to me everything I am sending today's huge amount of Mommy love. You are on my mind every single day, at least at some point in the day. I will never, ever forget you or stop loving you. We have a date you and I to meet up at the end of the Bridge when I come running across to find you. Never to be parted again. Missing you my darling baby boy. Hope you remember to keep looking down at me for I am always looking up at you. Go now and play in the meadows and please keep Kippy close by. After all, you are her big brother. Hugs and kisses to you all. With a heart full of love I am always Your Mommy.
November 01, 2018-Today I am writing to you a letter of love. Love for the wonderful (although much too short) years we shared. For being my very special little man and giving me so much joy and happiness every single minute of every single day. Just for being my Pedro. I just know my sweet precious little man that our time together is not over. Somehow I will find you one day and keep you near me for all the rest of eternity. Thank you for being you and for letting me be your loving Mommy. I am finishing this letter by enclosing an enormous amount of hugs and kisses. Keep watching over me my darling and I will keep you close to my heart. With a heart bursting with love I am as always, Your Mommy.
November 08, 2018-Hello again to my very precious little man. Miss you darling boy very much. Sending you today's huge amount of Mommy love, hugs, and kisses. Please watch over us today. Your sister Keshet is having surgery and Mommy is very worried. I promise to write more next week. Until then I love you till the end of time, Your Mommy.
November 15, 2018-Good morning sweet boy. Sorry, I wrote so little last week. Your sister Keshet was having surgery on her leg and I was very worried. It all worked out just fine. She is on the mend. Now about you. Sending to you today's huge amount of Mommy love, hugs, and kisses. You mean so much to me Pedro. I would give the world to be able to hold you again in my arms. However, I just know that this is not the end for us. We will somehow, someway, find each other and be together till the end of time and beyond. Precious boy, do not forget to keep looking down on your Mommy and she will always be looking up at you. Love you so much. Until next week baby boy
I remain forever Your Mommy.
November 22, 2018-Here we are again. Another week has gone by and you and I are still apart. It still hurts so much Pedro. I miss you and love you. Wherever you are I hope that you are happy and having fun. I imagine there are so many fur angels for you to play with. Just remember my darling that you have a Mommy waiting to join you. No matter what, I will find you. Keep Kippy close and watch over her. I will love you until the end of time. Hugs and kisses to you and Kippy from Your Mommy.
November 29, 2018-Hello again a sweet and wonderful little man of mine. I don't think I have told you enough times just how much I love you and just how much you mean to me. For the much too short time, we shared our lives you were everything to me. You still are. Just thinking of you makes me so sad. I want to hold you and go for our walks the way we used to do. There is an empty place in my heart that can only be filled by you. Precious one if there is any way that we can be together again, I will find it. Just keep looking down at your Mommy and I will keep looking up at you. Love you until the end of time and beyond. Until next week precious I am and always will be Your Mommy.
December 13, 2018-Hi sweetie of mine. First of all, I hope you noticed that Mommy renewed your membership to the Rainbows Bridge site. This is only until Mommy crosses the Bridge and comes and finds you. Then there will be no need for me to visit you here because we will be together forever and always. Not only will you and I be together for all eternity but hopefully Buttons, Kippy and Cleo will join us. There can be no place called heaven without all of us together again. Meanwhile my darling I am wrapping up a huge package of love, hugs, and kisses and sending it on to you via angel airmail. Don't forget to keep watching over me and I will keep looking up at you. Now go and play in the meadows with all the other precious Fur Angels and all the other creatures great and small. Until next week my little man, I will always and forever be Your Mommy.
December 20, 2018-Here it is again, another Thursday and my baby is not near me and I miss him so very much. How is it possible that it is almost 7 years since you crossed that Bridge? Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Not one single day. I carry you around in my heart and always will. If only Rainbows Bridge had visiting hours. Well, my sweet boy all I can do now is send you, via angel airmail, a huge amount of Mommy love, hugs, and kisses and wait for the day that we will be united. This time it will be for always and always. Keep watching over me and I will keep you inside my heart. Love you until the end of time, Your Mommy.
December 27, 2018-To my very special and precious Fur Angel from your adoring Mommy. I was busy all morning wrapping up a huge package full of Mommy love, hugs, and kisses. Now I am going to ask the angels if they would be so kind as to deliver this package to my little man Pedro who has crossed over the Rainbow Bridge and is now playing in the meadows and hopefully waiting for his Mommy to arrive. Heaven just wouldn't be heaven if you aren't with me there. You are my shining star. I miss you so much. As always, I will be looking up and trying to see you. Loving you until the end of time I am your forever Mommy.
January 03, 2019-Pedro my love, Mommy is visiting you again today because Thursday is our day together and because I love you so much and this, for now, is the only way I can get close to you. I borrowed these quotes from Louis's Rainbows Bridge site. I hope he won't mind but they say exactly how I feel so here they are:" Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal." The second one is: "When tomorrow starts without me don't think we're apart for every time you think of me I am right here inside your heart." Thank you, Louis, for sharing those with us. Sending you also lots of love. Pedro my darling little man I miss you so much. Please keep watching over me and I will keep looking for you up among the stars. Hugs and kisses for the week ahead and love from my heart. As always, I remain, Your Mommy.
January 11, 2019-Sorry I missed writing to you yesterday. Mommy had a very hectic day and it just slipped her mind. Not that you slipped my mind my darling. You never slip my mind. So today I am sending you a double dose of love. I think you must know that you are very precious to me and that I always keep you close to my heart. Yesterday, I drove near the place where you were born and the place that I first saw you. If only I could have driven in and found you still there. I miss you so much my beautiful little Fur Angel. One day we will be together again. There is no other possibility. Meanwhile, keep watching over your Mommy and she will keep you close to her heart. Love you sweet little man of mine. Until next week precious I remain Your Mommy.